https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/ ~red maple shower~ ja
What am I going to do?
Kagrra, is practically half of my spirit. They're always be my number 1, no matter what. And now since they're demising, I don't think this life is gonna be the same anymore.

Of course I will get over my sadness, eventually.

But right now I really don't know what to do, or what to think.
I'm doing my work like usual, talking to my co-workers like nothing happened... I guess I can be a pretty damn good actress if I have to.

*sigh*
Okay, all I have to do is to pull myself together and deal with the fact.
I wanted to cry, more than I could count, but I had to hold my tears back, because crying right now (in this place, in front of these people) is just inappropriate. I'm a big girl!

But it's the most difficult to hold my tears when I read Akiya's blog just now. Reading his last comment about this... ah, it's really hard. But I managed to stay calm, although it felt freezing inside.

Akiya is... my biggest inspiration since I knew Kagrra,.
The fact that I won't see him anymore as Kagrra,'s kamite guitarist is hard to accept. But I have to. And he's still going to be my biggest inspiration, until I decide to screw with my life (I hope I won't reach that point though).

This end of November, Kagrra, members' blogs will be closed.
I don't know about the OHP though. Perhaps they'll close it too? *sigh*

Once again, I have to say, Kagrra, is so special. Akiya is so special. Isshi, Shin, Nao and Izumi are so special. Their music is so special. My feeling for them is so special.

It's impossible to say goodbye to them, but I have to, don't I...

I wish I can see them as one band again, even not as Kagrra,.

All right.
With this long entry, I... will try to enclose my sadness, try to stand together with this fact, try to accept the empty parts in my life and embrace them all together.
Somehow everything will be fine. Right, Kagrra,?


. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10703829356.html Thu, 11 Nov 2010 13:31:51 +0900
After reading all DELUHI members' blog entries regarding their temporary hiatus, I feel relieved now. (*^o^*)

I believe DELUHI will come back as a greater band as they've promised to all fans.

I'll be waiting for them with a lighter heart. (＾～＾)

But by the way...

Aggy-san's entry was........ *laugh*

It wasn't impressive. *laugh*

I mean Sujk-san, Juri-san and Leda-san wrote nice entries to comfort the fans, some of them even made me touched (I was about to cry, reading Sujk-san's entries).

But Aggy-san was too casual about it. *laugh*

Doesn't matter though, that's how he is.

I was too happy at that time, finding his entry, not so long after I sent a mail to him. I'm sure A BUNCH of fanmails were sent to him that day. He made fun of our fanmails. *bitter laugh* But it's OK... he was acting casual to make sure that their hiatus is really nothing to worry about.




. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10679872723.html Sun, 17 Oct 2010 21:12:04 +0900
And I decided to write something here because I just heard a bad news

about DELUHI going to be on hiatus.


Right now I feel miserable...
maybe I'm exaggerating but
it's true that I really like DELUHI so much
and I feel happy even only talking or writing stuff bout them...

They said they'll improve their skill and they asked us to believe in them, that they will come back.

Oh yes I will. I will believe in them, even though right now I'm worried sick,
but I want to believe that they will absolutely come back as a greater band with greater skills.

I'm disappointed right now, I'm so scared hearing the word 'hiatus',
because lately there're so many bad news about JRock/VK bands.
Ppl might think I'm overreacting but hey, this is I am. I'm just trying to act the way I feel.

As much as I feel worried, I also hope THE BEST for DELUHI, as a few of my favorite people out there.

DELUHI FOREVER.


. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10677601428.html Fri, 15 Oct 2010 16:11:02 +0900

I've been busy doing my works, mini-thesis and being active in LiveJournal, also Facebook.

I'm only quite active at giving PETA here.

I've been facing some personal family issues as well.

But, seems like I've been blessed with good people around me here.
I can cope with almost everything.
Thank you family, friends and co-workers. (^人^)

My heart is not always pure.

I'm not always kind.

There are a lot of sadness, anger, negative feelings that I always hide.
I don't want to show the dark side of me.
Because I cannot let such feelings reach the surface.

But everyone has dark sides, right?

I think, bad things in our life can be covered by a little smile.

If I try harder, most of my problems will be gone.

Related to the last entry I wrote on July about 'time',

NO, the time hasn't come yet.

I still can't give up.


. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10634668661.html Mon, 30 Aug 2010 21:07:22 +0900
This time, it's a precious time (at least for me).


Because


[ LIFE IS ] !!




I got many messages today, via various media.

Thank you so much!! I love you my friends & family.


. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10585845518.html Fri, 09 Jul 2010 15:21:55 +0900








When someone feels like quitting.







あきらめるべきですか？　


. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10583251338.html Tue, 06 Jul 2010 18:46:48 +0900

Have a nice and safe trip~~~ (/_;)/~~

I don't know why, but when I saw Reno-kun's blog

and saw pictures of plane

I felt a little bit sad.

I think it's rather unreasonable, but I felt it anyway. （;´▽｀A``


But I giggled when I saw Iv-kun's blog title.

He wrote 「えびばでぃふぁい」。

Hahaha, that's so cute. (≧▽≦)


I hope they'll have a great time in France, I mean during their performance.
They'll kick ass, I'm sure!! ☆


Someday I will come to see ViViD LIVE too!!!!! ＼(゜□゜)／
I don't know when but I will!! (ﾉДT)
At least if someday they come to Singapore (like SuG) I'll do anything at my best so I can go! (｡＞0＜｡)

Amiiiiinnn.


. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10577573415.html Wed, 30 Jun 2010 13:11:11 +0900
from D=OUT Ibuki-san~! ﾍ(ﾟ∀ﾟ*)ﾉ

First I thought it was some kind of fake ID made by faker (LOL), so when I saw it for the first time, my face was like: (｡・ε・｡)

But then, when I clicked his blog URL... it linked to Ibuki's official blog!

My face changed into: (≧▽≦)

Totally unexpected!!
Last night I wasn't online at all, so this morning I gave PETA marathon to my amembers, including all D=OUT members (usually I don't give them PETA daily).

And this afternoon Ibuki-san returned my PETA~ arigachuu!!


Happy~

It's a beautiful small gift from God to cheer me up
because I had a moody day today (due to boring works and mini-thesis).

Thank you, God!
ありがとうございました威吹さん


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]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10566682037.html Fri, 18 Jun 2010 17:42:50 +0900

I think they'll be ready on Saturday.

From that day on, I will be wearing glasses while working or doing anything in front of computer.

I will be like Umi. 笑

メガネちゃん。　笑

It's my first time wearing glasses. Actually the shopkeeper who examined my eyes said that my eyesight has become minus 0.25.

The thing is...

On Monday, she said my left eyesight was minus 0.25 & the right one was normal.
On Tuesday she said my right eyesight was minus 0.25 & the left one was normal.


なんてことだ

So I decided to order anti-glare glasses with 0 measurements (..or what do you call it? I'm clueless about optical terminologies).
I mean, minus 0.25 is practically nothing. My eye-sights are still good, they just can't bear too much light and radiation anymore.

So, yeah. Those glasses are expensive, even for not-so-fancy frames.
I wanted frames which are similar to Umi's, but at that time there were no such model with affordable price. 笑
The affordable ones were the dull ones. Haha. But I don't need fancy glasses. They're just for computer, after all.

Another sad news. My sandals were just destroyed.
Are you kidding me? After those expensive glasses, now I have to buy new sandals??
I'm so getting the cheapest. 笑


. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10558275831.html Wed, 09 Jun 2010 14:42:26 +0900
Hati dan perut sama perihnya... (ノ◇≦。)





. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/acynthia/entry-10557251299.html Tue, 08 Jun 2010 11:55:34 +0900