wil be back another time to continue what i want to say.

i realised how dumb stupid silly idiot i was back then,

sigh, that wil stay as it was.

i dont live w memories..

i just dont,

i mean like, memories stay as it is,

i nv touch it again since the day i decided to let it be that way,

nv bringing it up again,

deleting as much as i cld.

sometimes, i really idolise my sis.

i think we have the same character,

i've seen her, deleting her photos of the past..

removing things that no longer hold any meaning to her..

moving on w another person..

when what i cldnt stand the most is that you're plain opposite..

sigh.

pardon me for my mood swings again.

/janice bnn kayden

i guess it has sth to do w my name.

well, if you know the real meaning of my chinese name.

/平

neither can you give me all i want and need.

so i shldnt be feeling bad for not being able to give you what you want like others cld.

afterall, i'm stil me.

and afterall,

nobody is perfect.

/janice bnn

fuck it.

have i not awaken from the nightmare?

"dont hate her, hate the things she did to you"

somebody told me.

honestly, i dont hate her, i hate myself.

sigh.

i wna enjoy life,

go out, have fun.

when i told my sis even if i really ever regret getting a tattoo(which wil nv happen cause i'll nv admit feeling regretful abt anything),

i'll not tell it to anyone.

i'll just have to be responsible to myself and i wil.

she said tt shows i'm stil thinking childishly.

why.

it's so whatever cause it's stil my body.

janice is bored ):

janice wants to have strawberry cool chew and bubble tea everyday ):

janice is gg to bed,

Goodnight~

the past 2 yrs was an experience, a totally diff life from sec sch.

i wasnt sad or disappointed or what, cause i got what i expected.

what i din expect was her texting me, waving and saying hello to me in sch.

i feel myself becoming more self-centered these days, blogging more and more requently.

usually i keep things to myself, or tell them to my closest buddies.

anw, i met my sis at like 6 and went SIM to pay her exam fees then to ikea to get the mirror exchanged cause it cracked into half after she bought it exactly 9wks ago.

at there she was like "why do you touch cushions whenever you see it?"

lol.

they all look so comfy.

i have 2 myself and simply love cushions.

long bus ride in 855 and i had the idea what tattoo i wna get on my wrist.

mika had star on her left and 'trust your voice' on her right.

but to keep it short and small, i'll take just 'trust'

okay, reached home ard 11.

where were you when i needed you?

thanks for being there(:

thanks for everything.

qi, i stil cant read your blog knw.

thanks for listening to all i have to say(:

though for two times i fell aslp first while chatting w you at your place.

you guys are my best and only.

though there're things y'all are against me doing,

for my gd of course.

to her:

dont let what i fear most happen.

esp miyavi :/

wassup w friends?

i've been working and workin w/o knwing,

january is ending..

i'm fucking tired today.

went party world last night,

mahjong tt day.

off tmr finally gna trim my hair.

i'm freezing gna hide under my blanket.

night~

bnn

lol,

blame it on love.

told you the prawn was especially sweet.

i feel blessed actually(:

why must they transfer you, sigh.

Janice/

though the movie was god damn boring,

and i had a slight stomachache after eating shilin fried chicken w fried mars bar

then you dirtied your hands to peel my prawn,

spoilt your manicure to feed me cockles,

lol,

you're fucking sweet i swear.

janice

and you seem to contradict yourself always.

if you havent start to realise,

then mayb you shld really try to look at things from other perspectives.

what i mean is stop being so selfish, if you stil dont get me.

for me, at least i slp and eat peacefully now.

moreover, new yr is just ahead waiting for me

why wld i hesitate to leave what's bad and unhappy to 2008.

back to anime and dramas~~

night(:

bnn tokyo