This is a bit of a story about my past.

I am incorporated in a small fanbase named "BABYMETAL BEKASI" end of 2015.

The small fanbase is getting bigger, so it becomes big family "BABYMETAL INDONESIA". I know a lot of good friends there ..

But one day, I like someone from dance cover group from idol sakura gakuin.(>ω<)

Since then, my goal came to several events in jakarta just to meet him. 

But one day I found a fact, if not only me, but many of my friends who have one purpose and try to approach the person I like. *ougghh(ヽ´ω`)

After a few months I competed to surrender with some friends to win it and several times tried to give up, until the time I really intend to surrender, after the anniversary event of a dance cover group that I set, I brought money winners for some dance cover group (including The group she entered).

It has been several years since then, I never forget the incident. Sometimes I dream and feel haunted by this guilt. Several times I want to meet again with the disadvantaged, but I am so coward and always run away.

I also several times reprimanded and told to apologize and forget everything. But I know, not so easy .. not so easy to forget everything that happened and make as if nothing will happen.

Until now, I always feel like flying with a big chain in my crawl. I'm really stupid and cowardly. (´；ω；｀)