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sorry that I post here blogs very rarely.

2012 began not very good for me again.
I want to stay positive, but sometimes it's very hard to do so.

Things are changing again what is obviously normal in life, but not in this way.

I don't know. I am not a person who gets into a bad mood very fast. but maybe it's simply to much at the moment. I am trying to do my best to handle it, but I don't know where to get the strength for it.

I can't go, I can't move forward and feeling happy and satisfied until all these problems are solved.

Feeling really lonely. Seems like I lost something.

Sorry for my post. I am really not in a bad mood, only sad.. very sad and can't speak about it, because I don't know where to start regarding all the problems and feeling that come into my mind.

Sorry guys, again that I can't tell you something better.

Sleep tight (ok, it's early in the morning at your place, so forget it :D )



]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-11173829753.html Fri, 24 Feb 2012 06:55:20 +0900
What to say??

Happy New Year, of course!

There's nothing more to say at the moment, because it's the first day of the new year and nobody knows what will come.

I am looking to a bright future but also to a bad one. I can't and don't want to say anything regarding the new year. The only thing I want to say is:

I am wishing all of you happiness, luck, the strength for all the thing what may come or not, love, satisfaction, endurance and never lose the focus on your aims. But the main thing is: Stay healthy.

I know what I am talking about. It's the most important thing.

Take care of yourself and be strong!!

Wishing all of you a wonderful year ahead!!

Hidi and I celebrated Christmas and New Year together. It was a memorable time for us.
Chapters are closed and now we are free for everything.

Heart and Soul are connected for a lifetime.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-11124186972.html Sun, 01 Jan 2012 23:23:33 +0900
Long time no see!

Today I would like to talk about one of the biggest problems we need to solve nowadays.
Firstly I have to point out that it's really a shame that Aids became such a threat for us in times of prevention and pretended hygiene. Protected sex should be possible for everyone, even the poorest.

Aids is no longer a problem of Third World Countries. You can get it not only because of unprotected sex.
You can get it from contaminated blood transfusions or drug needles.

But all these points can be prevented. The main thing is that we no longer only say yes and believe in everything. We need to be strong and say NO to protect our lifes and the lifes of unborn children who may become infected through our negligence.

It's never too later for a new beginning.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-11094975217.html Thu, 01 Dec 2011 22:07:15 +0900 Everything is fine, everything is just right
Paas hai sab kuch rab nazdeek hai
You have everything when God is with you

Oho Oho
Oho Oho

Hey Rab ke hazur mein kasmein bhi kha li
We kept the promises we made to God
Duniya ki auni pauni rasmein nibha li
We followed the idiotic rules of the world

Oho Oho
Oho Oho

Phir bhi na maane koi to dafa kar
If people still have a problem, avoid them
Maane jo maane na maane to bhala kar
If they accept, fine, if not it’s ok too
Duniya na maane khasma nu khaye
If the world doesn’t care, dont sweat it
Khasma nu khaye marjaani
They can go to hell
Haaye Marjaani marjaani
To hell with them
Marjaani marjaani
Marjaani marjaani
Oye khasma nu khaaye marjaani
They can go to hell

Marjaani marjaani
Marjaani marjaani
Oye khasma nu khaye marjaani

Haye khayal bhi jaane kya kya
So many weird thoughts
Sochata rehta hai ga uff
Keep circling in my head
Ki nochta rehta hai ga
And keep gnawing at me

Hay Tu mud ke dekha na kar
Don’t look back now
Jo sar mein soch aayegi
If you get thoughts in your head
To paun mein moch aayegi
You’ll get cramps in your feet

Uth uth ke raathon mein dard yeh paala hai
I’ve nursed this pain through many sleepless nights
Andhi jawani mein dard ek chaalA hai
It’s like an open wound pricking my youth
Dil tera na rogi baliye
Your heart is not sick, love
Dil tera na jogi baliye
Your heart is not a saint either, love
Dil tera sansari hai ga
It’s human
Lage dil ko beimaani
It feels betrayed

Marjaani marjaani
To hell with them
Marjaani marjaani
Marjaani marjaani
Oye kashmanu khaye marjaani
They can go to hell

Haan chalo ab door yahan se
Let’s go somewhere far away
Paahadon se bhi aage who
Beyond the mountains
Jahan par subah jaage
Where dawn awakens

Ho bade sab kehte hain yeh
Elders always say
Chuno acche humsaaye
Choose the right life partner
Samajh ke jo samjhaye
One who is understanding and wise

Ro ro ke raathon mein ankhein bhi khali ki
I cried my heart out till my eyes were empty
Likh likh ke taarikhen diwarein kaali ki
I wrote dates on the door till they ran black
chup kar chup chup kar baliye
Calm down love, hush now!
Bhaag le chup chup kar baliye
Run away quietly, love
Duniya se bhage duniya mein
Run from the world from within the world
Duniya ko hui hairaani
The world is bound to get confused

Marjaani marjaani
To hell with them
Marjaani marjaani
Marjaani marjaani
Oye khasma nu khaye mar jaani
They can go to hell

Theek hai theek theek sab kuch theek hai
Everything is fine, everything is just right
Paas hai sab kuch rab nazdeek hai
You have everything when God is with you

Oho Oho
Oho Oho

Hey Rab ke hazur mein kasmein bhi kha li
We kept the promises we made to God
Duniya ki auni pauni rasmein nibha li
We followed the idiotic rules of the world

Oho Oho
Oho Oho

Phir bhi na maane koi to dafa kar
If people still have a problem, avoid them
Maane jo maane na maane to bhala kar
If they accept, fine, if not it’s ok too
Duniya na maane khasma nu khaye
If the world doesn’t care, dont sweat it
Khasma nu khaye marjaani
They can go to hell

Haaye Marjaani marjaani
To hell with them
Marjaani marjaani
Marjaani marjaani
Oye khasma nu khaaye marjaani
They can go to hell

Marjaani marjaani
Marjaani marjaani
Marjaani marjaani
Oye khasma nu khaye marjaani
They can go to hell ]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-11071180352.html Mon, 07 Nov 2011 03:34:21 +0900 https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-11057347661.html Mon, 24 Oct 2011 02:06:50 +0900
long time no see, I know. Sry for that again.
I didn't was in the right mood to post something here, because there was nothing intesting I could tell you.
I had to stay in hospital for nearly four days this month, because of some healthy problems but I am feeling better continously, now. So it's not the topic for today.

People often change themeselves only when something bad happened. Do you noticed that?
It's true. If something good happened we only try to remember it but that's it.
While I didn't feel alright and I was frightened about my health I said that I would like to start a new life.
A life without doubts regarding myself. My talents, obsessions, passions and my life in general. Time runs fast and I don't want to wait any longer. So as soon as possible I will do things I had never done before in my life....

.... and there is no time to regret that I wasted my time until now because these negative feeling would waste my time as well. Now it's my time., your time... it is on you to make the best of the time that is given to you.


]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-11030715834.html Tue, 27 Sep 2011 04:31:15 +0900
Long time no see!
Sry for that but I hadn't time somehow,
Internet isn't everything, right? So please don't be mad at me. Gomen!

So, let's see..

..yeah, like my headline said:
Today is Friendship Day! If I am the only one in the world who didn't noticed that: Excuse me!
At this point: Happy Friendship Day to everyone!
Especially to my best friend and soulmate hidi alias Haw. ^^

Missed her very much the last days, because she went to the AnimagiC, but yesterday we had a little bit time to talk to each other. It wasn't enough and we got interrupted by my sister (like always anyhow,,,) but tomorrow is monday and a new week starts, Then we will have enough time to talk about everything hopefully!

And don't know: Today it's the international Friendship Day for the second time & minutes ago I watched a such interesting movie about real friendship. About a friendship which doesn't exist anymore nowadays. That's a pity, isn't it? Remember: Did you ever had a friend like this? A real friend... not a person you played during your childhood. I mean someone you are able to talk about everything, who understand your feelings and respects you.
Someone you will never loose even when you are separated by distance but your hearts are always together.
Did you have or have such a friendship until now?
Then you can be a lucky guy!

I am very lucky and proud that I already found such a person.

We both will write our own story but with every single line we will tipe our thoughts and hearts are still together,

Happy Friendship Day!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-10978911257.html Sun, 07 Aug 2011 22:57:32 +0900
Actually I don't have to be surprised regarding this... but I am angry because of it!

How can people be happy with it?
How people can be lucky when they harm others?
How can they look into the mirror day by day and think what they do is right?
With a smile on their faces of course...
No matter how... what case or whatever..

I am really upset!!!

I know I shouldn't be surprised that these person is in a position to be so rude....quite the opposite I always knew it!

But these person always harms person which is important to ME. And no one is allowed to do that! ]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-10966171646.html Tue, 26 Jul 2011 22:44:41 +0900
Better said I am proud of the women who won the world cup yesterday!

It was such an exciting game and I watched it until the last seconds on TV!

I don't like football for real but that what the women showed on TV was quite amazing!

I am really proud of them and especially Japan as a whole.

They demonstrated the world that Japan will never give up and will stay the land of the rising sun!

I am glad that they won the game.

Japan glows a little bit more even after the catastrophe in March this year.


]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-10957649079.html Mon, 18 Jul 2011 19:44:01 +0900
Today is my mother's birthday! :)

We preparing everything 'coz the family is coming very soon.

But except of that..

..last year at this time my sister got married.
Okay, her very anniversary is on June 4th but her church marriage was today one year ago.
It was a great event for her and her husband.. also for me.
I did everything that they were satisfied.. I also gave up things for that which were important to me.


Well, on the one side it is for me like only a few days have passed.
But for real it feels like more than one year.
Too many things happened.. good and bad and during that time &I changed again.
Of course it's an ordinary run of things but for some special reason it feels strange.
Do you know what I'm talking about? :D
Don't be confused.
You remember everything what happened on that day, especially it was my sister's wedding.
You can hear and remember every single word, you hear the words, the music, see the people and much more...
... but you think it was yesterday. Weird. xD But normal, isn't it so?

Ok, enough for today! I have to prepare some things!

Have a nice day!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/coco1807/entry-10921519859.html Sun, 12 Jun 2011 22:02:57 +0900