my daughter said 'a mom dissapear dad, and she dissapear herself' with big laugh

after seeing a scene in a cartoon.

she'd just said that the scene was really funny for her.

but "S" said 'your mother educated you like this, that's why you said like that'

huh?

i thought he was blaming me for daugter's wrong english.

i glared at him for his words.

then suddenly, he said 'what?!' and threw a slice of bread to my face.

I really upset and pick up the bread and threw it back to his face.

and that was not enough for me to calm my feeling down,

so do the same for 2 more times.

( actually, that was also not enough for the humilation. )

then he stood up and kicked my back

and grabbed my hair and pull my head

and slammed me down to the floor.

don't know how but my ribs got few red lines,

my skin of my elbow peeled off though the floor was smooth marble,

knee also the same though my knee was covered by pants.

after all these violence, what he said was

'because you threw bread more than me'

so i replied, 'is the 2 more throwing bread = kicking + pulling hair + slam down?'

he said ' because you pushed me to do that'

this is what he always says.

no husband in the world do this even they get angry with wife.

that's called domestic violence.

if i said so, he said all the wife was much better than you

that's why they don't need to do that.

no point talking to him.

he is thinking he is right, violence also justified for him

it's all my fault, it's all my fault.

and anything i said, his second word is

'i'll cancel your phone line, internet, air ticket'

and said 'i'll talk to lawer, children will be with me, you can't take them'

sorry kids and stupid me

In the morning, I left home with children a little earlier than usual

to drop my children to their friend's house and headed to the event site.

The charity was good, lots of people came and we've collected more than $10,000.

BUT, after "S" came home, my good mood has gone (as usual)

After dinner, he asked me "Why did you take your laptop to the event?"

"Coz using excel is faster to make price list for us and customer"

"You don't need to do charity anymore, if you do so, I'll throw your laptop"

Again again again,

If I do something that he doesn't like, something would be thrown or broken,

you threat me like that always!

Then I started to cook okonomiyaki only with vegitables

as "S" doesn't like non-veg.

After I served it for everyone, girls started to eat

but "S" was doing something and didn't come to the table for a while.

Finally he came to the table and started to yale again..

What is it today.....

"I don't want to eat this, why there is no indian food!!?

You don't have common sense? "

There is no common sense between us...

I couldn't spend much time for cooking, and I wanted my girls to eat more veg,

and "S" ate indian breakfast and I supposed to cook indian for dinner.

"Cook rice and rasam and potato immediately again!!!!"

He yelled at me and throw the one whole plate of okonomiyaki.

And he said to my girls NOT to eat okonomiyaki fully

but wait for the indian rice and rasam.

What a pitty.

It's so unreasonable.

Why should I work like this?

And I can't feed my girls what I want them to eat..

He is giving me little money and waste my time and money like this.

And he was sayting to my girls that

"I'll buy house in india soon and I'll throw your monther out"

"If your mother behave like this when grand mother is here,

I'll pack her bag and send her to home country"

It's always like this.

Economic sanction in many ways.

Breaking my mobile phone, threat that no money for me etc.

I really upset and my hands shuddered and I cut my finger

while I'm cutting tomato.

and later, I bought 4D and sweep when I went to supermarket :p

If I have enough money, I won't stay with you!

took me and children to Sentosa.

We've ride Luge and went to batterfly garden etc.

After that, we went to Parawan beach.

We put our bags under a hut, and I sat down

and "S" took childrent to somewhere neaby where has some greens.

I was a bit tired and also there were our bags under the hut,

I kept sitting down there and started to call my friend

who called me yesterday but couldn't talk all that we wanted to.

"S" waved his hand and called me but I kept talking to my friend.

After that, we've moved to food court and "S" has gone to order some drinks.

I and children were at the table, kids are playing by themseves

and I somehow started to open my iphone.

Moment later, "S" came back and suddenly started to shout at me,

"Why are you seeing the phone while I'm working? What is there in your phone!!?"

"Ha? I simply browsing ..."

I was also upset, why should I get yaled for such a small thing ?

Then I moved my chair little far away from him, then he got more angry and

split Iced Coffee he just bought for me near my feet.

"Did you do that on purpose?"

"Yes, coz you moved the chair"

Are you a 3 years old kids?

Since I was always thinking I should keep a record of what he has done to me,

I took photo of the spilt coffee.

Then he got more angry and shouted

'Give me the camera, here afterwards, you can't use this camera.!!!"

and then throw the SD card which has lots of photos including

some that I took for my part time job to the ground.

How to live with this kind of man ?

I really really don't want to stay with him.