Forget the beauty that was within, nothing but rotting flesh.

Porcelain Face, why don't you smile?

Do you worry you will crack?

That teat will never leave your cheek.

Porcelain Face, why so emotionless.

When have you become so cold, so heartless.

The eyeliner will never smudge, so do not worry.

I don't want your lies, the worls has become too realistic for you. You hide behind a shield.

Looking at the mirror, it fails to reflect what is true.

You heaar a symphony, I hear the noise of shattering glass.

I see the pieces fall to the floor.

Shards pierce the beauty, deep cuts cannot cleave into the procelain face you have made for yourself.

Where's your rose Porcelain Face?

Engulfed in the flames of your deceit.

I've done a lot for people. I don't have to, nor do I feel obligated or the need to do so. I just do.

I'm not expecting any thankyou's or pat on the back, but a little acknowledgement is nice once in a while. Noone seems to notice or care and then when something comes up, say an arguement or something, they attack me with the famous lines "You're so selfish". Like honestly, think before you speak. A lot of behind your back talk and bullshit is all people do sometimes. They don't even realize what the hell they're saying because they don't think when talking about someone.

I can see it in your actions how you think about me. But without me, where would you be today? What things would be different? I could list things I bet you didn't even realize, but you know what? Why should I waste my time.

I feel like I give things, I give opportunities and you all just take it without consideration to how I feel and how much I've put into things. I know a lot of you probably talked behind my back, saying shit that is not true about me. Oh I know some of you are.. noone can bullshit me. But I shrug it off because it honestly doesn't matter. Remember, it's mind over matter, I don't mind you don't like me because you don't matter.

Last time I do anything for anyone. Sure you don't ask, but at least recognize that I do! And before you say shit about me to anyone else like me being "Selfish", take a few moments and think! Omg can you do that? We will see.

They did not freeze the bottom of my mouth enough, so I felt pain （/TДT)/ It hurt but not for long!

I got to miss some work today, but I will go into work soon.

My mouth is still a little frozen (⌒￢⌒*)

I keep praying for Japan, get better <3

But the radiation is still leaking.. please stay safe.

I buy a donation pack from Takuya Angel and buy a Jacket/Bustier from him. The money he makes will help in Japan charity. I love Takuya Angel v(^-^)v

I also spent money on a lot of different things: Gatsby hair wax, gatsby facial scrub and moisturizer.

I bought a signed picture and cd from Beast ｷﾀ━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━!!! I cannot wait to get that!

I have been thinking hard, to go back to playing Cello. I am a professional but I stopped because I did not want to practice when I was younger. I played Cello for 12 years! I want a Cello again, but good ones are expensive (/ω＼) I might be able to save some money for a new one and save to move out. Going to move to Toronto. Bigger city with more opportunities.

I also have to work on my fashion designing, I am so lazy .... I went to college for it, so I should use my skills before they disappear >_<

I don't know what I want as a career yet, something I want to enjoy and not regret. I don't want to work retail the rest of my life, you will go nowhere in life and only get paid so much.

So I hope to find something I truly want to pursue. I know music is something I do want to pursue, but unless I become a famous musician with my bass guitar, it's not a garuntee. However, a Cellist can make a lot more money then retail. So I have options, it might take me a while before I choose, but I know I want to go back to Cello.

I would love to own a record company label, I think it would be cool.

But right now I still ask myself... what am I going to do in the future??

Please leave Japan while you can... it is NOT safe.. does not where in Japan you live, you are all affected, I am scared for all of you!