Yuki Onna

Lost Memories

Mon, 14 Apr 2014 02:34:02 +0900

1:20am sitting by my pc. Off day flew by so passed. Tomorrow another day of work to return to. The quiet night, the silent of the moment spur. Made me think of the times that has passed.

4 years ago this was said you came. Friendship was great and time was fun. Until the day you chose your profession I have not but support the things you love.

But as we know time is our greatest enemy. You came and you went. Chasing dreams and becoming the man you want to be. But hey I am your friend and I will support you regardless of the time we spoke or spend.

Then you came back. Friendship grew and relationship build.By god it was the best of time spent and memories made. Until you went away again.

But even so I understand a music man life is not their own.And so I waited and in silence keep my promise. Support and always be there for you.

Then he came. Shy yet serious. Gentle in his own ways. We became friends. Through time we made a way to communicate to each other. It was fun and hope came back.

Until you came back. The storm in my heart began to swirl.What I was suppose to see? Was blinded and I left what was meant for me.

Though relationship never grew sour. You drifted apart and soon you are too far out there for my hands to reach. We are still friends but….

I asked a friend the other day, “How do I move on? When you have my heart in your grasp.”

The answer is fact yet one that will break me apart.

One song played in my mind. A song so dear to a friend. I wonder if that is ever possible.

~LOST MEMORIES - NOCTURNAL BLOODLUST~

I promise you not to break your heart one more time.

Now everything you've had is faded away from your eyes, so let's take a piece of glass back together for us.
Tears you drop onto my cheek would tell me how dear you suffer from this burden.

So scream it out, my lungs out now
My weakness appears tonight
I believe you'll be fine

I will ask you over and over again but you won't feel anything to me.

Why do you stay inside, I can't believe myself...do you still stay in me?
But time is guiding fire lights up mire. There is no afraid.
Do you feel me now? Do you feel me now once again?

Jump and hands up

Don't worry, my word is judgement of right. Bless your day the sun lights out the way you choose.
Touch my heart and feel my fire toward to your bless. Touch my heart and feel my fire.

Break out, break out, break out of your shell you're not alone anymore.
Right now fly over this wall.

For what it's worth I'm sorry
I've left you behind before this happen.

This is life given to me, this is pain given to you, knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.

This world is fulfilled with hate, combustion and grief.
But in this desolation, there is hope some are eager to thrive.

"I want the time to remember you" on the way you whisper to me
You grab my hands and show me your smile.

Come, take me now because I want to know about myself
Let me go if it's time to remember.

Walk with me one more time let me hear what you used to say.
One more time let me know what you think
One more time let me feel your love

Stay with me, I'll be always here to say I love you...
Come with me I will show you everything we've known

I promise you not to leave you alone anytime.
(I promise, you're not alone, you're never ever alone again)

Whatever tears us apart, we stand by our promise
Now the time has come, we take first step to look for the pieces of lost memories
You hear me, I watch you til we find.

Disclaimer : Lyrics / Music Copyrighted to Nocturnal Bloodlust.

ランダム

Mon, 07 Apr 2014 02:16:26 +0900

わたしは疑問に思う。

誰も気にしません?

彼らが行う場合には、どこまでそれは気にそれらを取るのでしょうか？

それは間違っている？沈黙の中で誰かを愛すること。
それが全てですので、わたしは知っている。

それは苦痛でしかなかった。

それは悲しみは何もなかった。

しかし、この愛は強い私を保つ。

わたしは、彼は知ってほしい。もっと。

希望的観測...笑

わたしが尋はありません。彼も私を見てすること。

わたしわ誰？

遠くから愛。

なぜ人々は美しさを通して他人を裁くん。

なぜ彼らは内にある美しさを見てみませんか？

Killing me softly。この世界が。 HELP ME !

と呼ぶことができる場所を見つけるのに。

「私の平和」

香苗

夏の月光の涙。

Fri, 28 Mar 2014 04:39:50 +0900

Sayuri
Digital Art/Illustrations/Conceptual©2014 Kanae-Dono

あなたは不幸のために運命づけられている場合。
それが理由であることが必要です。
My tears transmitted into my sorrow
その私自身の障害、私の心の障害。
私の心は私の不幸である。

I want to tell a Story
信頼と愛、まだ痛みが取り囲んでいる。
失恋についてstory。
はどのように始まったのかの話。
それが粉々になったか。

夏の風。ホタルが歌う。
柳の子守唄、美しい。
彼は心の呼び出しに付属している
A promise。A bond create。

どのように私は夢を見始めたのですか？
なぜ私は夢を見たのですか？
He came to what was a reality
今、Only illusions remains

なぜあなたは愛を約束したのですか？
Why did you promised ever after。
あなたが来て、あなたが去った。
地平線上の夕日のように。
You left

あなたは盲目の信頼。
喪Moonのレクイエムのような
闇は、Sips in an inner betrayal
なぜ私は夢のですか？なぜ夢を始めるのですか？
A dream of fireflies on summer moonlight.

I want to tell a story.
失恋について。夢はどのように始まったのかの。
How its ending envelopes in nightmare。愛以上の悲しみの深淵。
死はすべてのドアに手を振る。
Its the failure of the mind.

I want to tell a story
愛は終わったかについて。夢は粉々になった。
心の錯覚。現実に錯覚ファサード。
孤独でのみ尋。The heart of the unfortunate.
Its a failure of ones own.

あなたは不幸のために運命づけられている場合。
それが理由であることが必要です。
My tears transmitted into my sorrow
その私自身の障害、私の心の障害。
私の心は私の不幸である。

夏の月光の涙。

ビタースウィート·メモリーズ

Mon, 17 Mar 2014 04:24:09 +0900

日本に到着し、わたしは助けることが懐かしく感じることができない。Getting from the airport to the ryokan was a long agonizing wait. わたしの心と心 keep asking "When am i getting there?" Anxious to begin the experience. Meeting Sour-chan Blossom for the first time in my life was the most rewarding nonetheless what we are about to embark on this journey is even more gut wrenching, heart wrenching experience all together. それは我々が一緒に過ごした時間楽しかった。

SOUR CHAN BLOSSOM looking around for Landmark we can use as land marker so we do not lose our way -->

Reaching the Ryokan was a great feeling. Friendly staff and the show around was pleasant. Trust me...the thought of just drop myself on the futon wrapped in warmth and sleep crosses my mind. But we knew we had to find our way around. And so as soon as we arrive at the Ryokan we left to do some reckitt on how to get on about in Ikeburuko, Toshima-ku Japan.

First day in Tokyo and we were both a wee bit lost. Nonetheless we found our way around and thank God in heaven we made it back to the Ryokan. わたしは振り返ってのベストと面白い。Having to eat a meal for the first time was the most funniest. So many food and restaurant to choose from. Almost immediately we were exchanging questions among ourself what to eat.

<--- Pic i took in the train Fukutoshin Line heading towards Shibuya !

Second day another war, Train ! figuring out our train line and noting which one to get on was a blast. On contrary to what most of the website guides said about Japanese Train System well... honestly although they have like tonnes of lines intersecting. We find our way from one to the next pretty easy. One way to explain this revelation is "ENGLISH FRIENDLY" there is English language added to every sign, every announcement on board the train and buying tickets from the machines... Yes people... English language option is added as well. So no nightmares on second day in Japan.

Japanese makes the cutest treats ever ---->

Walking around Shibuya we basked our senses to new culture. Getting used to their ways is not as bad. Being living in Singapore almost all my life changes immediately when i am thrown back into the country where my bloodline stood strong is a way of adapting back into society once forgotten than most geijin who would have the culture shock register into their being. Being a smoker the first thing we almost did was just that. Smoking is still permitted although we have to do our leisure pleasure of inhaling and pleasure burst our senses in tobacco in designated places called "SMOKING AREA" found throughout Tokyo. Once we get that done and register into our working brain. It became a natural thing to find them when we need to smoke. Plus i think it is the best way to reduce the sticks if you are a heavy smoker LMAO !

<----わたしはまだ、これらの日生きている。2014/02/22 5 DAYS OF JEHAD

Finally the day comes. And having much disappointment when we were told via Eplus the tickets have been sold out. Nonetheless we made the choice to just waltz to Takadanobaba AREA and see if we can get a ticket at the door. And this is my reaction. "HOLY MOTHER OF GOD THANK YOU !!!!!!!!" I think that explains the excitement and the happiness when we realize 'what the hell' we can get tickets at the DOOR. Yes after so much agony and frustration WE GET TO SEE THE CONCERT WE CAME TO JAPAN FOR !!!!

Oh the shock to see 90% of the people that come watch.... "YES PEOPLE... WOMAN" first time ever seeing a Deathcore/ Metal Concert which have like practically all women audience. But hell who cares right. TRIGGAH was amazin awesome on their set. Though sadly the shock to the core moment have not pass and i did not snap pictures of them performing. * Anime Sweat Major *

SEL'M 'ライブパフォーマンス' 5 DAYS OF JEHAD ---->

Then the excitement came reeling higher when Selm MANJ walked out on stage. Oh god ! was i head banging my way to their song. It had been awhile since i last headbanged in METALLICA SG. Imaging the andrenaline! GYAA! But i must say Takuma was gorgeous. John was amazingly into it. Close contacts with fans was his thing. And the fans simply love him. Interactions with their fans was a noted thing to obvious. The fans went berserk doing the rumble. The solo drumming from MANJ was the best for SEL'M performance. Headbanging like no one cares. 楽しかったです!

Then the moment i have been waiting for. NOCTURNAL BLOODLUST 'ライブパフォーマンス' OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD !!!!! OH MY HOLY MOTHER OF GOD !!!!
ナイス！ナイス！ナイス！ナイス！ナイス！

Oh the heart drop watching Natsu walking out on stage. The amazing feelings ever after what you said and promised on public Twitter to Natsu_NB "I AM GOING TO WATCH YOU DRUM LIVE on 5 DAYS OF JEHAD" was finally brought to reality.Seeing the man in person. Live in front of you when all these while all you can do is FANGIRLING him on Twitter. Following his every moment in life finally the man himself is there on stage. ONLY GOD KNOWS WHAT I AM FUCKING FEELING. Then came the rest, HIRO, MASA, DAICHI & THE EVER ADORABLE YET BRUTAL CAZQUI. Oh lord i could have sworn my heart is about to explode. But what came after came as a surprise. The moment Masa saw us he went pointing at us. Oh my that sums it all up and make known that even when they do not tweet back to you. THEY PAID ATTENTION to their fans.

What came next was the most amazing memories ever arch in my heart. The best time spent in Japan. Living out your dreams when you get to support the band you love. Well one dream came true and will continue to come true. The flying kissus from Hiro. The playful tongue out from Daichi. The look in Masa's eyes as i look at his. Hearing the mesmerizing yet searing voice of Hiro. I wish i could live in it forever.ナイス！ナイス！ナイス！ナイス！ナイス！.......

NOCTURNAL BLOODLUST MERCHANDISE AND SOUVENIRS TO REMEMBER THEM BY ----->

Getting these are worth the money. Eventhough i wished i could buy all of their merchandise that night sadly it wasn't possible at the time. No doubt this will be in my possession and will be cherished forever. Damn i could make a display out of them. Which i planned to do in the near future. When i have collected enough of their merchandise that is a promise to myself. Refurbishing my studio area soon. Having a place where i can forever salute to their wonderful Music and Passion.

<---- GIFT FROM MASA NOCTURNAL BLOODLUST

But throughout that has happened. This was the best ever. Meeting Hiro and Masa by chance was the prayer that God answers. Seeing them as they are as a person in front of you was the bestest of dream came true. Stammering through words. Fighting cold and nervousness I spoke to them. Literally exchanging words with them. Getting signatures from them. The nervous wreck of it all finding a pen to give to Hiro and Masa so they could sign was the funniest moment. And like a child we look not at the person but at the words that was about to the written. Like an earnest child waiting patiencely to get candy that is what we were both like.

Thought it ended there. But when Masa passes me that gift. My heart was brimming full. I quote " プレゼント for you" and came after " WE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN" oh my god Masa you have no friggin idea what those meant to me. This gift was the best and the most cherished. How was i stingy there and then not wanting others to touch it. THIS IS MY PRECIOUS. And up till today. It is as it was when you gave it to me. プレゼントをありがとうございます。わたしは幸せです。* bows * I will forever be appreciative and will treasure this gift.

As i said "BITTER SWEET MEMORIES" right. Well it was all sweet so far you may asked. Now come the bitter part. There is another dream i wish to come true but sadly. 3 days shy i missed their 'LIVE' and miss the chance to see my most love person.

GHOSE no Drummer YUSUKE ----->

Like what i said in my previous blog. Yusuke is one that i wish to meet someday. I have been a fan of his from the first time i heard his drumming until now. Followed him in every band he played in. MY GREATEST DREAM is to watch him drum live.
GHOSE is the band he plays in. And it will be the best prayer answered if i ever get to see them LIVE.

All the days in Japan my eyes have not failed to search for a glimpse of him. Even from afar it would be a dream came true.
From AfterEffect to Triggah to Ghose. Yu Yu is my favorite drummer in all of VKEI scene. How much i love the man only god knows what was kept hidden inside.

Wish will come true. With prayers at heart and patience coupled with courage. I will make this dream come true. I will one day watch them play LIVE on stage and have the honor of headbanging blitz to their beat.
This is a promise from one of your greatest fan on EARTH YUSUKE !!!!! I will come to Japan and will live out this dream tenfold i SWEAR it.

Well hope i did not bore ya with this. Thank you for reading this. Fufufufufufufu XD Love Kanae Tatsukeda !!

ランダム…わたしが？笑

Fri, 14 Mar 2014 23:07:15 +0900

「ランダム詩～笑み」

夜の闇を歩いて
雨の滴が私のために集まった
無限の痛みの中を洗う
待っている、悲しみの霧が消えて

生命と呼ばれる暗いトレンチ内
いくつかの古き良きものを常駐
脆性、忘れて命の灰
明るく冷たい涙永遠の...

「わたしの考え」

Being half Japanese isn't easy especially if you are brought up overseas. Mother tongue became easily negate. Speaking in nihongo which is relatively not fluent to none. Writing in kanji is even a greater challenge for someone like me. Nonetheless i am a person who takes no for an answer and i take challenges with an open mind. So on February last month after spending 2 weeks in the land where my fore-fathers are born. A self challenge was made. And so in October i will return but this time i am going back to school. Yes you heard me right i am going back to school to study my second mother tongue 「日本語」

Well so much for self blabbering here is something i did for a special someone.
it has been 4 years since i first heard his music. Fell in love with the beat and since have always with no fail try to search for him in every band he plays with.
Bitter sweet when i found him in Twitter. (Should have thought of looking for him there...duh) *slaps forehead ～笑* Been following him since. Seeing his transformation through the time makes me an even greater fans. At times disappointment when he does not tweet so much in his words. Nonetheless he has always been in my heart.

So enough of this nostalgic trip down memory lane ～笑 I decided to make a プレゼント for him. Here is the link please do enjoy watching it
「　youtu.be/AzEreNedZBw　
」　

Willow

Mon, 03 Mar 2014 01:40:47 +0900

+ Willow +

Weeping Willow of Summer breeze
Dancing melancholy thou willows sad
A melody sung in darkness eclipse
Silent tribulation of one seems dead

Time unchanging frozen still
Sorrowful night brims full
A melody once bright
Now darken with sorrowful plight

Warmth it yearns coldness it gets
Darkness seeps in so black
Calamity over clarity
Battering thou willow's heart

Reaching out to the pale night
Longing for warmth
Yet the abyss surges wide
Swallowing thou willow cold

What fate descend thou willow
Upon the cries of one trepidation
Unheard, Unattended thou sit still
Weeping Willow of Summer Breeze

+ Kanae Tatsukeda +

Sakura no Hana

Fri, 20 Dec 2013 22:49:55 +0900

❀ Sakura no Hana ❀ Dedicated to Ame Tsuchiya

Sakura no Hana blooms today
Reaching out to the blue sky
Happiness and bliss bask it existence
Only to fade in stains of the world

Do not doubt Sakura no Hana
Life is a test for thee to trial
The sky is vast and beckoning
For thee to reach and blooms even more

Sakura no Hana blooms bright
Its beauty shines hearts
Hugs of love spreading wide
Calming souls and sights

Don’t be tainted Sakura no Hana
The world is harsh and torrential
But in the wakes of its storm
Your truth and warmth will prevail

Sakura no Hana reaching out
In the hearts of men she dwells
Façade by the greens, spreading love
She grace the union of hearts

Don’t be sad Sakura no Hana
Though you are discarded
Your presense and existense
Will forever arch in their souls

Sakura no Hana blooms today
Majestic in its demise
The world rejoice for its kindness
And remembers for its affection.

❀ Kanae Tatsukeda ❀

立川里見。

Fri, 20 Dec 2013 01:47:39 +0900

誰もが友人の知っている場合。名前立川里美によって祖先を持っている人。誰が1920年代初頭にシンガポールに入ります。わたしに教えてください。わたしは私の日本の家族を探しています。おねがいします！

Unchanging Last Love

Fri, 13 Dec 2013 00:50:18 +0900

苦痛と不幸の13年。あたしは再び恋に落ちるだろうと思ったことはありません。

愛のようなものは存在しないと思った。幸福のようなものは存在しないと思った。
彼らは唯一の童話に存在することを考えた。決して、あたしは恋になると思いました。

すべてのそれらの年後。そんなに痛み。非常に多くの嘘。非常に多くの壊れた約束。
私は再び恋に落ちるしたくない。

しかし、なぜ私は再び恋にだ？なぜ私は恋いあなたお？

あたしは暗闇の中であなたを愛することができる。あたしの沈黙と孤独の中で。あたしはあなたを愛しています。WHY? きみ？

真なることはありませんの愛。終了せずにの愛。Unchanging.

あたしの心は再び出血。わたしはまだあなたを愛してるから。

嘘は私が話しました。私が言ったとき、私はあなたを憎む。その中に深く刺している。
君はいつも私の心になります。Because you are my everything.

永遠の愛。わたしの死をもたらすでしょう。しかし、私は正直なところ、私は幸せです、と言うことができます。You are my last love, 甲斐。

思い出

Thu, 12 Dec 2013 13:51:10 +0900

触れてコーヒーカップを暖かく座って。その最後のメモリ、天からの手紙。

頭に浮かんだ。その言葉を思い出し。私は、ブログにしました。

異国の地での日本人。返すために手を差し伸べる。いつか私が返されます。

今まで私がだろうか？シンガポールに戻って帰国することができる。

私が日本に滞在する？時間がすべてを教えてくれます。

その最後のメモリ、天からの手紙。

窓際に座って。さくらの花びらのダンスを見て。

恵みと花びらが舞う風の愛撫抱擁で。快適な未来のことを考えてほほ笑み。

一瞬、キスの瞬間、一生その最後のメモリ。私の抱擁であなたを保持、時間はまだ立っいた。それらの瞬間、私は今日まで大切に。

運命は私たちを一緒に持って来た。運命は私たちを離れて取った。

あなたは残しまし。あなたは別れ言わなかった。

私は時間を元に戻すことができれば。私は何も変更しません。

しかし、私はあなたを教えてくれます。私はあなたがとても大好きです。あなたは私のすべてです。あなたは私が必要とするすべてです。

ねえ、すぐにあなたを参照して、手紙をありがとうございました。

これらの言葉はわたしの場所を思い出させる。

わたしはそれに戻ってする必要があります。

背中の土地にあたしの祖先は何百年も前に歩くこと。

わたしのルーツにバックアップします。