find a place where I can write something secret....

not secret,..just..I dont want to tell them about this

I waked up in 5:55 a.m...I was sleepy,and I go to bed in 16：30p.m..I had two dreams.

I forgot who I dreamed about,thats absolutely not my bf haha,

I'm now in the bed,typing these words,no one would read it ..thats great,

现在难道不是臭不要脸地赖在这嘛？别人总以为我很nice学着国画、水彩，开着画室，偏偏我就住在美院边上，可终究没有进去过几次，这种心情谁能understand？以前是昂首挺胸地进美院，现在进去了也抬不起头，我真的是死皮赖脸，

听她说着我本就不甘心，现在该怎么办，我努力每天做很多事，可这明明就是在安慰自己，谁不知道现实？就是我上了个N流狗屁大学，实在忍不住没面子退了学，口口声声说要出国，现在却依然被绑在架上。。事实就是如此，disappointing.