cuz i have to remeber many things in the short time

i know i can not remeber at all

and i know this time ...this time is not able to lose

if i lose..many things would be gone from me ...

DO MY BEST!!!

NEVER GIVE UP!

俺がうれしいのは、おまえといることじゃない。おまえが幸せになってくれることだ。

私（わたし）がこの世（よ）に生（うま）れてきたのは、私（わたし）でなければできない仕事（しごと）が何（なに）か一つこの世（よ）にあるからなのだ

everyone wants to be happy everyday

so do i ..

ときには自分の気持抑（おさ）えて、相手のために引（ひ）けるのが、爱だと思うけど

nana have been like that to me ...

thank you my dear ..!!

何と言えばいいか分からない、ただ、急に思ってね。

人は何かの犠牲（ぎせい）なしには何も得ることはできないのだから。

i need to study hard ,after that i will fulfill everything slowly

as nana said ...you dont have a choose

人生（じんせい）は、必（かなら）ずしも思（おも）うようになるとは限（かぎ）らない。

now ... try to forget everything for few min

i just want to sleep well ...

sleep well...

sleep well...

.

miss you

i have nothing to say...

i want to die ..

i want to sleep well ...

but i havent

every single night i could not sleep well ....

i always think lots of things before i go to sleep..

damn it..

yup

it's time to say

japan, plz wait for me !

after i get the 5.5 point！！

nana! plz wait for me !!!

dont want to break up the promise!

dont want to let her be sad !

just want the dream come true!

just want nana to be happiness everyday！

yesterday my mum said

at least i need to get 6.0!!!

and i said ,okay ,i will get it someday

but in 1 mounth to get a high level that is impossible

i was talking with my mum intensely for nearly one hour

she still is thinking the same ...

finaily ,she said ,get the 5 ,it is the lowest one

she means i could seeing with you if i get 5.

and if i get 5.5 i could go to japan ^^ !!

anyway,i must get high level someday !!!!!!

my willing!

this is my father said to me ..

i know i wasted lots of time ,but before my body problem was not healthy ,

did anyone want me to care about the company ??

now they said i can go abroad for study and working

but if they need me someday, i have to come back...

so they only put me to study and study and study..

in my opinion, dont to be chinese child ,

they has lots of pressure from their families are started studying at school.!

if i have child ,i would not let them to stay for study in china.

otherwise it means you are killing them slowly ...

as you said, i didnt have choes

no one knows the fature what will be happen

anyway i need to catch this chance to go to oversea

this is my plan as you know

i would hide any stumbling block before succeed

cuz i want my dear's hope and my dream comes true!

cuz i had already have not wrote down anything for few days ..

i am not a lazy young guy

cuz theses day i could not use wifi in my house.

i did not have any chose ..

my famliy want me to study hard

nowadays,i need to go to the school for studying english

the teachers dont like the austrailan teachers who has homework to the student..

they give me a lot a lot!!

do i need to say thank you to them?

hate....

i must be busy for long time until i get IELTS point up to 5.0 or 5.5!!

i know it is possible for me

i would like to try and enjoy the test

even i got it ,i dont know what should i stand for

i stand for my family to inherit , do i? should i ?

my dream was going to travel while the world with my dear nana..

but they said " you have to inherit our company"

before , i was a guy with terrible memory ..

they had never said anything to me about the company

now , i am thinking about the quetion again..

serious...

hummm

anyway

i miss nana

plz GOD ! let my dream come true first!

plz!!

so i try to go into the internet bar

my grandma was watching TV when i left there

cuz i changed the plan to home for sleeping

my mum had already at home and she went to see my grandma once

and tonight she said to me she is going to cooking for me and someone ..

i am not going to tell anyone about who is someone now .

only i wanna say :

he is older than me ,he is a male.

my mum doesnot care about did i have dinner or not..

she said i need to be with her cuz long time no see ..

later , i will be home soon.

i miss nana ...

really...

i did not drink anything until i left

cuz i am sick....

i went to home yesterday and i took a redio - - cuz i just know i could not use wifi at home

so sad...

i dont know why i have been unluck since i came back here...

one more new

i will be home for living soon ~yeah!!~

in 3 days,my mum will be home ~

and i will appy using internet in my house ,no worries!

big house only for me - - little bit scary

plz come here to be with me ^^

i am going now~

to my cousin's house ,plz remind me to send a redio to you ~ (nana)

hapi nice day

i try to remember what have i done today

i realy hope the way i can learn english and practice my memory

cuz i know china is not the place i am going to stay.

my eyes are going to see while the amazing places with my partner in the world

try to remember everything ,it must be worth for me in the life!

these days. nana still are worries about me even i do something wrong to her

i felt so sorry to her,...she just a perfect girl friend in the word !

while i meet nana by qq .i always being happy!

i hope she have the same feeling for me

i love her so much ...

what is nana doing now ?

miss her so much now ! ^^