It is about death with diginity.

Will who is a quadriplegic decided to end his life with euthanasia. Lou who is a caretaker for him has tried to change his mind for six months but she cannot finally. She loves him.

By reading this , I'm thinking about death especially about how to end our lives.

If I were him, what would I do? .......I might do the same thing honestly.

However, If my family or important person to me asked to do this, I do not have confidence in agreening willingly. That is a different story. There seems to be difficulty in it; Whose is the right of death? Is it only individual right or include surrounding people such as family?

 Don't get me wrong, in my opinion, it seems individual right.

We can choose how we live and so we can choose how we die. However, with the assumption, life is invaluable and so it should be the last option. 

One athlete, Vervoort, who won gold medals in Olympics decided to euthanasia as well. She had struggled from constant pain in legs and it couldn't be cured for lifetime. She said that euthanasia is a only hope to live. While she felt unbearble pain, she managed to find hope such as winning medals in Olypics and traveling to Japan. She came true her dreams and decided to end her life with euthanasia in the end. She also said that she would kill herself if there was no option of euthanasia. No one cannot blame her. I truly respect how she lives. This means that the euthanasia can be a hope for spending prosperous lives for some people.

But why do I feel a bit of scary for legalizing euthanasia in Japan. What are behind this feeling ?  

I went to the Art gallery in Osaka since I have much time on Sunday. 

Takano Ryudai is a photographer who got KimuraiHei Photograph prize directed by Asahi news paper. This photo’s theme is a sexuality. He tries to take photos about ambiguity of binary gender. I’m interested in gender and so attracted him. 

However, the main theme is about “daily photos” in this gallery.  He continues to take photos everyday for almost 20 years, and there is no theme. He just shot the photo whenever he wants to. 

When I saw his photos, I was drawn into nostalgic world although the town sceneries were not familiar town to me. But I felt nostalgic and reminded me warm memories. It’s like turning the album. Actually those scenery are things we can see everywhere, no special things such as town lights, old taxi, office workers, and building. But that attracts me. How nostalgic in taking the photo of those.

Sometimes this feelings happen when I walk through the town while listing to the music and also I have a space in my mind. Like, suddenly the scenes surrounded me start fading in color and I start feeling that this view in front of me is something precious. This is resulted by the music effect but the same thing might happen by photos as well.

That’s all my impression, it’s an immature impression though. 

There are some photos I really liked. 

Art gallery is a good place in communicating me inside of my heart😚

It is about human decisions especially in markets. 

He performed experiments inspired by his daily life. That is why this book is interesting. For example, he was wondering why people brought foods easily in the fridge than money although both are the same from the perspective that they brought someone’s things. Something like that. It is difficult to explain…..I recommend to read it. 

The experiment I was intrigued was the experiment of “being untrust”.  To be short, he concluded that people would cheat someone if there is a chance and get a benefit by doing this. But if they are reminded of kinds of ethics, the number of people who cheat dramatically decreases. For example, if students write Moses' Ten Commandments before tests, they are less likely to lie about the number of correct answers( they are supposed to receive the reward:money according to the number of correctanswers). 

Actually, I tend to break the small rules of there is no one… So, now I’m trying to get rid of this bad habit. In this way, this is really suggesting for me. It seems ok to be conscious of the ethics. It is easy right? 

But I think this way is limited to people working super ego. Because, if it’s not working, it is worthless in being conscious of ethics. There is no ethnic in their mind. This means that if the person don’t have matured superego because of lack of parents supervise, the first thing is to teach the ethics byitself. Sometimes juveniles committed the crime because of  this reason. 

It’s a book which won Honya Award in a translation category in 2021.

Delia Owens, the author of this book, hold a doctor’s degree from Zoology and Ethology.  So, this book is really informative where  a variety of animal and fish is described in detail and beautifully. We can know how those lives survive in nature by reading it. 

The story is about one girl who lives in a swamp. She survives in abusive family. Her father repeatedly beats her mother and children. Everyone without her run awayfrom this violent father when she was a child, but she couldn’t move to another place because of her age. 

Maybe I should stop saying more cuz I want you to read this book. The ending is very surprising. 

I feel that her way of living is so cool. She lives with nature which human definitely cannot go against. She knows that. How independent she is. 

The thing which attracts me is the examples she said in the story. When she is damped by a man, she accepts the situation by taking examples of animals. I feel there is not so big difference between animals and human about romantic relationships. How to describe the situation is so beautiful and impressive in this book. 

There are vulnerabilities vs strength of women, and human nature such as discriminating different person vs kindly act, and simply human vs nature. A lot of opposite things are included and harmonized. That is why this book attracts many people all over the world. 

I’m sometimes unstable by someone’s word even if that person would not important to me. 

I know that I should not be care for those words in my head but my heart cannot understand in that way. I always need someone’s affirmation for me..... but this time, I could recovered more quickly than before thanks to my mom’s advice. Thank you for always supporting me emotionally. 

I’m not sure how many times I cried while watching this.

Billy, who is a young boy raised in a family of working class, has a dream of becoming ballet dancer. 

He is about to give up his dream many times due to a strong disagreement from his father, financial problem, and the environment where only girls play ballet. However, 

he met one teacher and she supported him so much from the bottom of her heart.It was the best part of this movie that her love melt his frozen heart,  not everything went well though. As he changed, his father’s mind was changing gradually towards supporting his dream. 

Billy acting is amazing. His facial expression tells many emotions he is feeling; mixed feeling.  

I really recommend it to people who wanna cry by watching movie.