Cos I alway thought it is waist of his talent as he is v.smart and he doesn't know it (or maybe being lazy lol)

Even thought I can't say it to anyone that I want to study them , I hope one day I will be smart enough to say it to my family and friend confidently and that they will accept me and support me with this study.

I realize as I grow up , I can not stand people suffering in the world and thinking what I can do ,and fell so useless and live through my life. As it is only one life but long, I have decided that I am will to give all my life to do my best in order to help the world. Which will fulfill my life and not regretting what I choice to be.

I have enough thinking about it and not making in to action, and keep regretting and blaming on other.

I want to do what I want to do , not limiting my capacity but to expand them and ignore what other say and think. live and work toward what I believe in, because it is my only life.

No matter how long it takes , no matter how hard I have to work

I want to be honest to my self and willing to work toward my desire to save as many people as possible. I am sure I can do it even though it long way, cos nothing is impossible.:)

でもその一歩を踏み出すのは難しい

けどそれが未来に繋がるから

恐れずゆっくり前に進もう。

important thing is to step forward

although it is hard

it will link to the new path for the future

so slowly but step forward :)

I thought deeply

asking to my heart

every moment people are suffering

I feel that I have to do something

I can't just lived my life happily

ignoring surrounding

if one person can change people's life

than I want to be one of them

I wanna give my life to save others

I think that the most fulfilling way to live my life

my hidden desire grows

try to forget and move on

keep coming back

telling me not to give up

I wake my self up

my life is long

nothing is to late

only one life is given

why not follow my desire?

Ignore what other say

if I got the determination

I can do it

noting is impossible

Now I have another dream to aim for

Now nothing can stop me

I realized that so many people suffer because of GP, if they could have noticed earlier they didn't have to suffer .... it made me annoyed and think a lots... I wish I can be GP to help people.

I know I'm being fool , as since I was little I get influence by things so easily, but it so wired I keep getting the feeling that I should do something to save as many people as possible....

I thought this before when I was deciding the course for university

But I choice the easiest path and influence by other

excusing myself with reason...

If I really wanted it I could have tried harder

I didn't realized how much I loved science.

I inspire my sister so muchbelieving in her self

going through what she wanted to do

not influence by other and work hard every day.

I am so glad I met my bf

who didn't laughed at my dream and encouraging me

secretary I dreaｍ if I could go to study further with him together.

I'm sure people will laugh at me

dreaming so big with my intelligence

But I think I am allow to dream and write what I think in my blog at least

There are so manythings to be done

But yet I amstruggling

Time is running out

Every second becomepressures

I am confuse whatto do

I can no longerthink straight

Work, Essay, Stuff

Piling up

Which I no longer amable to deal with

My life depend on thegrade

Despair for thefuture

Pressure from mylife

Over taking me

Strangling my heart

Filled withfrustration, anger and fear

Loss control formyself

Screaming, fillwith hater 

Throwing my angerto surrounding

Storming off withany little thing

Blaming on everyone

Though I know it myproblem

I can no longercontrol my emotion

Please leave mealone

I no longer ammyself

Don’t come near me

I don’t want to subvertyou

Seeing you vex ,debilitatedand perplex

I don’t want to letyou down

You haven’ doneanything wrong

I am tumbling.

Hurting thesurrounding

I am tarring in topieces.

Someone save mefrom this distress.