https://ameblo.jp/kamialbi/ “Life seems but a quick succession of busy nothings.” - Jane Austen ja
I treated him as my very best friend. Sometimes he is like my brother, sometimes he is like a stranger. It is very hard to tell ... what he is like (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ ...
The only thing that I know is ... he would not treat me as a best friend or a sis to him...
I am just a friend for him...

Half year ago, I can say I like him but I do not love him...
He knows how to let me calm down...
He knows how to let me laugh...
However, he does not know that he would let me want to be a little bit closer.... ummmmm maybe more than a friend.... more than a best friend.....

*BUT, the important point is he treats nice and gentle for every female girl.*
He can still keep contact with his ex-girlfriend.
He can still hang out with his ex-girlfriend alone.

I didn't know that I would miss him when he went back to Hong Kong in last Nov.
I didn't know that I would look forward to seeing him so damn much before I know that he needs to back to Brisbane for sup.
I didn't know that I would not let him go back to Hong Kong again.

DAMN!!!
Maybe the reason that I feel like this just because he is the closest male friend at this moment.
I felt that I love him before... but he had a girlfriend...
However, I didn't feel hurt...
Now, I just feel I'm so weird.

Maybe because I have a feeling that want to be more than a friend with him...
I do not want to tell this feeling to anybody....
I just want to keep this secret in the deepest of my mind.
It is because this situation might be the furthest and closest that I deserve( p_q)
I just feel so complicated...

Well.... he knows that he is one of the most important person to me as I would share my secret with him...
BUT... he does not know that I would have this feeling on him...

He is a person that loves freedom....
Also, I am not a gorgeous and smart girl...
He must not think about me to be one of his choices of girlfriend...

ANYWAY, I will meet another option of Mr. Darcy in my life....
So.... what I have to do is keeping the secret in my mind and wait for .... my Mr. Right... (ﾉ_-｡)
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kamialbi/entry-11452104129.html Sat, 19 Jan 2013 02:59:13 +0900 I know that there are lots of people love and care about me but I'm still feel so lonely in the deepest of my mind...
I'm not a good girl...always try to escape and hide when I get hurt...try to recover by my own
However, I feel so tired to do like this.... feel like need someone to stay and support me always
It's so difficult as eveyone has left Brisbane and gone back their home for holiday...
Feel hurt from Emily and Vinci.... cuz i do treated them as good as i treat myself
Maybe .... they do not feel the same....or do the same.....
Cried a lot in the end of last year becuase of them
I just found it today....til today....i can't mention or talk about them with friends
I can feel that my heart is bleeding and the scar starts to bleeding....
haha maybe I'm the dumbest person in this world.....
Maybe in this world....friend is not important....people should love themselve and .... care about themselve only... that's it


But ,,,, I feel so hard to do that
And.... i do lost some friends because of these two people....
sigh..... i really don't know who I can talk with.....
Sometimes....there would have some pictures in my brain.... that I'm trying to suicide...
That's awful but....they are realy in my mind and the images are so real...
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kamialbi/entry-11445751763.html Wed, 09 Jan 2013 23:31:54 +0900 太誇張了,要重要的是...是我自己的體重!
我一直對別人的身材要求很嚴格,但怎麼可以對自己就沒所謂?!
77太誇張了!
要減肥!
到2月時要到65~!!
6月時只能夠有55以下!!!!!!!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kamialbi/entry-11425992821.html Thu, 13 Dec 2012 02:58:21 +0900 i made my friend not happy in the trip...
maybe i m not good at communication at all
i did try my best...i tried to plan it as perfect as i can
however, i really get upset from my friend til now
it sounds crazy but true.
i treated her as my best friend but all the words she told me in the plane which make my heart broken
may because i m not old enough.... maybe
anyway, i know i need to get rid of this feeling and i m trying to
it just takes time..... i need some time

i have back to uni and start my summer course
everything is in rush so i need to put more effort than semester 1 and 2
i know i can handle it but i m just a little bit lazy
i need to get rid of my laziness
haha one night, i skyped with my mum
and asked her to pay for my taipei trip in june but mum said no
i make a deal with her
if i can get all 6 in this summer course, she will pay for it.
and she agrees with the dealヾ(＠°▽°＠)ﾉ happy~~~!!!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kamialbi/entry-11415457715.html Wed, 28 Nov 2012 23:06:40 +0900 i had my last exam in this afternoon!!!
i didn't do well（/TДT)/ but at least i tried my best
this is the first time that i felt i wanna escape from this exam or skip it
of course, i didn't at the end... but it seems to be hopeless for me to pass this unit in this semester((((((ﾉﾟ⊿ﾟ)ﾉ
anyway, i have survived!
this is time for me to take a rest!!!
i have enrolled to the summer course, so, i will start my class in next weekヽ(;´Д｀)ノ
but at the end of this week, i will go to Sydney(≧▽≦) YaHoo!

it's so happy to have a trip with one of my best friends(・ω・)/
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