https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/ ブログの説明を入力します。 ja I love dolphins, I recently went to Florida for my grandmother's 70thbirthday party we went to DisneyWorld and I got to swim with Dolphins γ(▽´ )ﾂヾ( ｀▽)ゞ They were really really cute. We got to learn about them and do tricks with them and watch how smart they are.

We also went to a Safari and saw lots of animals. A lion and lioness up close, a giraffe. It was awesome!

We met Mickey Mouse a bunch of times and all the other characters except Stitch I really wanted to see him I him. But I got two Stitch dolls instead

I also found this great band called Cinema Bizarre. They are a Germanband and at first I didn't like them and thought they were goofy jrockrip offs but they are really cool and the band members are awesome andthey are jrock/visual kei fans too! So cool! It's so sad though wherethey live isn't good at accepting how they look with the make up andstuff and they keep getting harassed and on one occasion physicallyhurt My poor Yu-san. I hope they all stay safe.

to them!

As far as my own jrock fan status I'm taking a break to enjoy my newGerman band and the obsession that has come with them. In April I amgoing to a Cinema Bizarre concert (their first time in the USA yay!)Hopefully Rose will be able to come with me, hopefully she'll be ableto tell me since I need to buy tickets. I've been singing and studying their songs so I know them for the concert.

Also I broke up with my bf it was sad but I think I'm getting over it.

I did A LOT of cleaning today. Cleaned all the dishes and mylivingroom. I put Cinema Bizarre pictures on my one wall lol I stillneed to clean my bedroom.

Oh well, I have to make something to eat since I haven't eatten all day! Talk to you all laaater!




]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10215865149.html Sat, 28 Feb 2009 05:23:22 +0900

This is Marty Mushroom, he likes to take pictures of his adventures. Here he is outside blockbuster in Howard Beach, NY




Marty likes to find out how things work, when we were hanging out one my friend's friend's boat he was all into how the engine worked o(^▽^)o




But after awhile he started getting tired and opted to sit on the seat of the boat.




But it's time to go to sleep now Marty :*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10108182102.html Fri, 20 Jun 2008 15:07:39 +0900
It's been a long time since I updated lol I apologize. I haven't really been staying home. I've been hanging out with a friend it's comforting to be able to spend time with someone that doesn't make me want to stab myself in the eyes lol. I've also been sleeping over his house and what not, hence, the lack of updates and such.

I have therapy tonight to which I do not want to go. I'm totally dooone with it lmao.. Nah that's not true, I'm just lazy today really. I don't even have anything to say today.

I'm enjoying getting to know a person that I cared about for so long and never knew (a jrocker hee) it's so fun to just talk like normal people...though, most of the time, I have to bite my tongue because I'm afraid I'll go all fangirly XD So far, I've controlled myself pretty well. If that was Reika I wouldn't even be able to type XD

So I'm just chilling today, listening to L'arc en Ciel and then going off to therapy woo hoo!

Sorry this is boring.

(*゜▽゜ノノ゛☆
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10107436108.html Wed, 18 Jun 2008 04:34:07 +0900 I don't have much to write. I've been suffering with severe allergies so I'm pretty sick. It's been nice and sunny out and on Saturday I get to go to another dollfie meet up here in NYC. I'll show you all some dollfies and pictures how's that since I have nothing to say haha! o(^▽^)o

*:..｡o○☆ﾟ･:,｡*:..｡o○☆ﾟ･:,｡ﾟ･:,｡★ﾟ･:,｡ﾟ･:,｡☆*:..｡o○☆ﾟ･:,｡*:..｡o○☆

ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･ﾟﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･ﾟ

This is my cellphone and all it's cute little cellphone charms.
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My Renji (from BLEACH) cellphone charm
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My Hyde cellphone charm
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hide cellphone charm (^∇^)
(I believe Reika had the same on HIS cellphone for awhile too haha)
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Cute heart cellphone charm
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A ha! My ultra cool Moomin cellphone charm!
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And what kind of fan would I be if he wasn't my cellphone's screensaver?
Opening it and seeing his face makes me happy ﾍ(ﾟ∀ﾟ*)ﾉ

ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･ﾟﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･ﾟ

So now as I promised I'll show you one of my.....8? Dollfies.


Here is Cain one of my precious dolls. γ(▽´ )ﾂヾ( ｀▽)ゞ
Maybe one day I'll show you all the rest of them.






]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10088934283.html Thu, 17 Apr 2008 06:35:39 +0900 Omg omg omg omg I feel like I'm dreaming, I'm shaking and crying and I feel dizzy. I just kept repeating "please let it be true" over and over.

X-JAPAN? IN MY HOMETOWN???? Oh lord in heaven.

I can't stop crying and shaking, I can barely type. I've had such a shitty year...I felt lastnight like I wanted to die, I begged God to end my life and then I see this.

I was crying out of happiness and I felt as if hide had wrapped his arms around me and said in his cute nasally voice "You be happy now." Omg I can't...you really have no idea what this will mean to me.

I HAVE TO GO! I have to! there's no "ifs" I have to.

Was it fate? Is it fair not to want to share the info because I'm afraid everyone will find out and then I may miss out on tickets?

I'm so scared of not getting a ticket my stomach hurts. I feel like I'm going to throw up.

I can't force myself to leave my chair. I'm afraid I'll miss an important bulletine.

All these years all I prayed for was a way to show the world what hide means to me and here it is! DUDE HERE IT FUCKING IS!

I now know why Reika was so damn happy and emotional. I feel the damn same way and the concert is MONTHS away.

Please God, please let me get a ticket. I need to. I really really do. Make is possible, please. Just this once I'm asking for something really selfish. I just want to remember hide and see X Japan and Sugizo. Please, I beg you.


hide, I feel you. I'll be there even if I have to sell everything to get a ticket, I will.

This is my chance. My favorite band, the band I cry for, the band I laugh for, the band that has had the most impact on my life besides Madeth Gray'll.

Please pray for me.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10085390440.html Fri, 04 Apr 2008 00:11:59 +0900 thought was my friend got "hurt" I guess. I'm not going to go into detail really but I kinda regret even writing the stupid thing about the orginal girl...even though I hate her with everything inside me.

Liking Jrock has made me angry. Well more like "re-liking". Because I remember why I left the fandom in the first place too many stupid fangirls. Mostly all of them kind of dribble in from Dir en Grey or like Miyavi but how can I turn my back on Dir en Grey? I've loved them so many years. They mean a lot to me. Turning my back on my fellow "fans" means stepping away from Dir en Grey because a majority of their fans are mindless dopes. I just can't do that, as much as I want to.

I stepped away from Jrock for a long time, liking, in secret, the bands I hold dear to me. I've never had issues or problems with Doremidan's fanbase, they seem to pretty much have respectful, smart, beautiful people as their fans.

Usually when I referr to fans I'm talking about American fans or "most" American fans. I'm not saying all of them are "fangirls" or "fanboys" or that I hate them all. I just hate the ones that make it hard to like a band because all they do is dribble retarded.

*siiiiiigh* Sorry, I shouldn't be ranting again.

Let's be happy shall we? Let's look foward to good things to happen. Things will work out as they should, we have to have faith.

This weekend I'm going to a "Dollfie Meet Up" here in New York. You know what dollfies are? or well Super dollfies? Do any of you own them? It'd be cool to have friend's here that like them too.

I'm looking foward to that and spending some time with my niece in the near week.

I hope you all have a great day.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10083495552.html Fri, 28 Mar 2008 08:10:54 +0900 Sorry for not updating too much lately. I've been going through a few things that I don't really want to talk about or involve other people in.

But moving on, yesterday was Easter. How many of you celebrate Easter? ヽ(ﾟ◇ﾟ )ﾉ I use to love to celebrate the holiday when I lived with my dad. He use to do everything from baskets to candy and chocolate (even when we were older!) My mom use to get me something every year but now that she has a boyfriend she doesn't really care too much *shrugs* whatever.

Anyway, I spent the day with my sister and my niece. We had lunch with my mom and her boyfriend but I was slightly annoyied at how they treat the baby like a god damn zoo animal there to perform for them. They take like 12 thousand pictures of her and pick her up when all she wants to do is play. I was playing with her and she was laying on my shoulder (she now likes me holding her and laying on me) and my mother came over and grabbed her from me so that her bf could take pictures of them. The poor little thing turned around and held her hand out to me and then held her arms out for me to take her back. I just sat there because my mother wouldn't give her back and I was struck with this heartbreaking feeling. She wanted me to save her to take her back and I couldn't.
She wasn't even my kid.

My niece is my whole entire world. I love her to death. Me and my sister have become SO much closer since she was born, I make more of an effort to be a better person. I make so much more of an effort to be availible for her (I want her to know I'll always be there for her) I think differently about so many things it's awesome.

She's starting to walk and soon she'll be able to talk. I've never really watched a child grow up as an outsider (I mean I watched my brothers grow up but I was growing up too yanno?) But I'm not an outsider, I'm actually a BIG part of her growing up. That means watching my mouth, watching what I do etc etc.

Anyway after lunch I came back to my sister's house and then we played with the baby and got her ready for bed and me and my sister watched Oprah haha :*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:




My little niece (^∇^)


]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10082667989.html Tue, 25 Mar 2008 03:48:23 +0900 "If this voice I'm playing with, reaches you, I will attract you and pluck at your heartstrings."





]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10081967781.html Sat, 22 Mar 2008 16:22:28 +0900 Why do people get mad at those people that still are upset over a "jrocker" dying? I read various articles on forums about people bitching and complaining that by being sad we are "remembering them because they are dead when we should be remembering them for their music." All I have to say to that is simply, we love them for them and miss them, that means their music as well. Their music is a big part of who these people are but many fans went beyond just knowing these people for their music. They KNEW the people.

Granted, I can not say I personally knew hide. But I knew him. Through his music. Music is the most truthful thing out there. If you are making music and you are lying through your songs you are a fake, a sell out. Honesty that's what makes music what it is. Plus, many fans do hours upon hours upon hours of research on their favorite idol so they may know ABOUT them just as much as people that probably know him ne? With exceptions of course (we don't know really what they are like outside in their daily daily lives)

If you are a fan (not to be confused with a fangirl/fanboy) you give your heart to your favorite artist. I've invested SO much of my time in Madeth Gray'll its insane the things I know about the members. I've followed them through band and band too many nights were spent up, reading and researching the music, the band, the members as well as their fanbase. I've liked them since the first line up (even though Reika and Izumi's line is my most fav XD) And oddly enough they were my first real "fandom" jrock band. I liked Malice Mizer and Gackt and of course Dir en Grey (actually I was just "getting into" them. I really liked Madeth first) but they were the concrete band that threw me into Jrock/Visual Kei.

So, does that mean I can't be sad about Hizumi? I can't shed a tear knowing he's not around anymore? Does it make me a bad fan because I get sad over his being dead?

I miss hide, I miss Kami, I miss Hizumi, I miss Kazuki and even shed tears for Shaisuke (because many people seem to think no one knows or cares about him) My heart goes out to the dead that I don't even know about. (I can't be expected to know everyone) Yeah they may be popular and yeah maybe I found out about them after their deaths but that doesn't make it any less tragic AND it doesn't mean I just pretend to like their music because they are dead. Just because they are the "popular" dead jrockers doesn't make the rest of the deaths any less tragic also.

I cry because the world is missing so many beautiful people (famous or not so famous) but as far as the above mentioned they were young and it was totally unnessesary for them to die.

Who the hell are these people to judge others anyway? If you want to be sad about a jrocker or ANY person you admire dying than so be it. You go and shed those tears. If you want to hug your hide plushie and cry into it's hair while listening to X Japan in the dark go right ahead but please..PLEASE don't do anything that would harm yourself.

It's the one thing I fear the most when saying things like the above that people will take it as I'm saying "Oh if you want to kill yourself over so and so do it!" I'm NOT saying that at all! Please don't do this. If you kill yourself think about that pain you are feeling over your dead idol, would you want to put your friends and family through that pain? There is ALWAYS a way and it would NOT make the person you admire happy that you would contimplate doing that in their honor. I feel so horrible for the people that killed themselves over hide. I bet hide was in heaven crying himself. They do not want us to die over them they want to teach us to not take life for granted.

Enjoy every day. Smile even when there is nothing to smile about. Love.

And to the people that judge there are even JROCKERS that cry over their fallen friends and co-musicians. I'd LOVE to see you tell some jrocker to just "get over" hide or whomever. HA Reika would deck you in the face or something. Go say that to Kisaki or Yoshiki and watch what they do. (￣へ ￣ 凸

Idiots. These people may have been musicians but they were people first. We love them for being those talented PEOPLE we grew to love so stick a fucking sock in it and let people feel the way they will. You have NO right to tell ANYONE to just "get over" some one who has passed away.

All of this is in sue that in a few months it will be Hizumi and hide's 10 year anniversary since they died. 10 years...that's a long time...seems so short a time ago...*sigh* (ﾉ_-｡)

We love you guys and although we are sad you are gone, we will live having our lives blessed by you being in it through your music. The lives you've touched, the lessons you've taught do not fall on deaf ears. We may shed tears but it is simply because our lives do not have you in them PHSYICALLY, we know you are always watching over us.

ﾟ･ﾟ*･(ﾟOﾟ(☆○=(｀◇´*)o
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10081896943.html Sat, 22 Mar 2008 09:40:06 +0900 raining out. I really really hate the rain, it makes me feel sick all the time and gives me massive headaches.

Well anyway, I don't have much to say really. Nothing exciting happened today so I'm sitting here a little bored. Maybe I'll go cook dinner....yeah....

And take more asprin.

Ugh I hate the rain!!!!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/kyomuffin/entry-10081339857.html Thu, 20 Mar 2008 07:14:31 +0900