https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/ デカダンス・ゴーゴー!! ja I just have to wait till they will call me to tell me the day (I hope it wont be too late) (/ω＼)
This is the last step from the first part, I hope all will be okey, ne (;^ω^A
]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10438384127.html Wed, 20 Jan 2010 05:58:38 +0900 I was so scared cause I thought they wouldnt give it to me, since my indentification card was expirated and I didnt know (￣_￣ i)
But the guy was really nice and he made me the new identification card and then the passport, I am really thankfull to him! ♪(*^ ・^)ノ⌒☆

Now one thing less to do, the only thing I have to do so I can send the papers for the visa is go to the doctor and get an appointment for X - RAY to show I dont have TB and then just fullfill the papers and send them!

Wish me luck!! ヽ(*'0'*)ﾂ
]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10434551084.html Fri, 15 Jan 2010 01:12:42 +0900 I have been sleeping and watching doramas ._.
I am not usually a person that likes doramas, mostly if they are all bubbly and love stories and such, but this one is being really fun.
I am watching Mei-chan no shitsuji.
Saa, I want a butlet like those too LOL.

]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10427805566.html Wed, 06 Jan 2010 05:51:57 +0900 I am going to Japan for this october.. I still dont know if 3 or 5 months, depends on the academy and such, but I am definetely going.
So now, is time for papers, applies and such!
But, honestly this gave me strength to go on...
]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10427484504.html Tue, 05 Jan 2010 20:12:31 +0900 Is completely impossible for me, moving to Tokyo this year (well, going at least for a couple of years) unless a miracle would happen, and honestly, I dont believe in miracles.
So, I have been thinking in just going 3 months or so (still for studying) come back, and then going again (hopping that time would be for a longer state).
Going there at least for a couple of months would ease my soul a bit and finally seeing if it is what I am expecting.

If I do that, is true I will put my feet on Tokyo for first time this year, but that would make me wait longer for staying there longer, if I wait more ( a year or so) for sure I can be there for the 2 years (or at least one).




]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10426536094.html Mon, 04 Jan 2010 14:43:43 +0900 I really dont feel like to talk about all is affecting to me, cause are a lot of things, but what is true and I should say, is that I am lucky too for having the people I have by my side and that really showed that they are there and care. That is for me the best present I could get for christmas and mostly you, cause I never thought I would find anybody that would understand me this perfectly, more than a friend, you are my sister or how we should say 'you are my man' orz.


But I am not giving up, the year started bad, but I have hopes that little by little it will get better little by little,ne.





]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10426353465.html Mon, 04 Jan 2010 07:50:38 +0900 あけましておめでとう！
(*^▽^*)

See you the next year!
....
If I survive cause I have to work tomorrow ｡ﾟ(T^T)ﾟ｡
]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10424208670.html Fri, 01 Jan 2010 03:49:26 +0900

It had been a long time since the last time I wrote here, but between studies and work.. plus, lets be honest, lately I just wanna sleep... is the only way I have to run away and forget about everything. I could sleep for even 24 hours and I really dont feel like to wake up or do anything.
Going out is becoming a hard struggle every day, I even feel that I dont have the enough air.. I would like to stop this anxiety, but I cant.

I am honestly tired of crying... crying for people that I care about so much and they dont give a shit about me, I am tired of being always there for the others and when is me the one that needs them.. I dont get any response.
I completely lost my faith and hope in people, I guess there is just one or 2 people that I still believe in.. and just because they are the same as me and they are the same scared as me and the worst is that even if I want, is still hard for me implicate with those people cause with time I learned that I wont have them.

Today I heard a sentence that really made me think 'is not that I push people away from me.. I just keep the ones that really want to be here'. And now is when I wonder why I keep having people that is clear they dont want to be here, they dont need me anymore (even though they say they love me) and I still worry and care and even cry about them cause something is wrong or I cant get to see them... yes, I am that stupid, but I guess that since I let some people get that close to me... I refuse to loose them.. even if that means to suffer.

I just hope that 2010 would be completely different from this year and like I am trying to promise.. I will survive and just look forward.


]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10423316702.html Thu, 31 Dec 2009 08:59:14 +0900
After all the summer! it didnt went so bad, at the end I remembered more things than I thought（笑）
The boys were jealous from Natalyちゃん and me （笑） they say we are too study people （笑） φ(．． )

月曜日にしごとをはじめます 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡


いまはえいがをみます。γ(▽´ )ﾂヾ( ｀▽)ゞ





じゃね~~。 (^-^)/
]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10334999409.html Thu, 03 Sep 2009 22:51:30 +0900


I love this anime! Is so cute and funny! (*^-^)b

Ne, keeps being too hot (￣□￣;)!!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/marderayla/entry-10330116422.html Fri, 28 Aug 2009 02:56:45 +0900