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my NZ life is only 100days left...

what should i do before going back to Japan??

anyway i started work and going to school.

im working a small portable cafe at fundation school ACG.

but i got holidays for 3weeks.

because the school is going to be holiday from next Monday.

customers are almost teachers and students

so the cafe should be closed.

i worked only 2weeks.and im getting used to work.

but i have school.

im taking IELTS class.

its really difficult for me.

However its challengeing :)

for better English!!

i will study tomorrow.

ive noticed my English is really poor.

especially writting and speaking.

im really enbarrased about my speaking skill....

so i have to study for confidence!!

nowadays im looking forward to going back to Japan.

i imagine what will i do, go or eat in Japan.

im quite excited.

Holiday was awesome!!

we could see blue sky in Mt.cook and Milford sound

sooo nice :) we were so lucky

ive been to

Christchurch

Tekapo

Mt. Cook

Wanaka

Queenstown

Te Anau

Milford sound

I went to travel with my parents and their friends

they are over50 and they cant speak, read and listen English

so i have to translate all the time.

but its impossible coz my English is not enough... :(

during travel i was dpressed about my enghlish

so i wanted to go back Japan after traveling

i just wanted to run away from everything of NZ life.

now i have to get a job.

i have to apply... i dont wana work

im lazy...

coz everyday is like weekend for me:) hahaha

so i stayed home both days.

i know its boring.

but i was really sleepy and i didnt wana do anything.

today

i went to a cafe for job application.

i hope i'll get that job.

people who work there were nice and friendly

im really interested in that cafe.

but i think i couldnt sell myself.

ummm...

anyway

the manager will call me next week

so

im just waiting for her aunswer.

that was my friend of friend's farewell party at her flat.

that flat was next door!!

i didnt know that.

and i knew yesterday!!

i was so surprised.

her flatemates were so nice people.

there were Canadiand couple, japanese and brazilian

i really wanted to be friend with them.

so i think if we have next time

i can make friends!!

i hope...

i could speak many.

i really enjoyed last night.

i wana have the party

i like party atmosphere.

especially at someone's house.

its comfortable for me :)

I need a job.

i have nothing to do everyday.

i try to make plants with my friends but its diffucult.

they have school or jobs...

i dont need rest of time any more.

its enought...

but i cant look for a job yet

so i have to study study study...

i went to Italian restaurant with some friends.

we ate pasta, pizza, lasagna and dessert.

it was so delicous. we really enjoyed.

i drunk one bottle of beer.

i ate too much.

we spent $140NZ. but i think its not expensive.

then i went to friend's house.

and i watched a movie.

it was a boring movie... but he enjoyed.

i cant understand...

well

i cant understand their expresson

they made a joke sometimes... so he was laughing...

we took a risk. it was so exciting.

coz it was not my problem :)

but i cant tell him... he was so afraid... hahaha

as much as i can :P

today was nice weather (but too windy...)

so i washed my clothes.

they could get sunshine!! nice :)

i went to school today

to filled in some documents.

then i bought Latte at new coffee shop

i wanted to try that coffee.

today i had a chance to go there.

but that coffee was a bit bitter and too hot.

it was ok...

i wana try many coffee shop

last week i drunk coffee every day

and now i really need coffee every day.

last night my friend gave me his CV. by sample

so i made my CV

i think its completed.

i dont know its enough or not. but ill give it out to cafes :)

i hope ill get a job at cafe

It was really good time and I could get many expriences from there.

Actually Ive got a lot of stress as well.

coz everyday i was disappointed my speaking.

and i managed to understand classmate and teacher's conversation.

why i couldn't catch their talking and couldn't speak with them...

but i hope ive improved my English a bit.

then i have to find a job!!

coz i have nothing to do and i need money to enjoy NZlife :)

well

im going to travel in south island with my family two weeks later.

so i think its not good that now i look for a job

coz i cant work 1 week. and give poor impression on manager or interviewer.

im thinking about that.

In fact I havent complited my CV

and im afraid about working in NZ

I dont wana work at Japanese restaurant.

and i have a skill of making espresso beverage

so why dont i use it!!

when i write English like TXT or chat

im not bad at English i think

but when i try to speak English

i really cant!! why... im so wondering...

i have to practice speaking :)

anyway

Im looking forward to seeing my parents!!

i cant wait!!

if someone correct my writing please let me know

i need teacher

its not good

but tears well up in my eyes

im worried about my English skill, future, school and so on.

all things put me under a lot of pressure.

just i feel.

also about boy.

but now getting better maybe,,,

take it easy.

just give it a go.

go with the flow

let go etc...

Dont be hard on myself!!

i just study...

everything will be good experiences for me.

The difference between talking and doing is

doing.

so just do it!!

I've been in Auckland almost 6 months.

time is so fast....

I'm gona finish my school in 3weeks.

what should i do after that... i haven't decided yet...

and i dont know if i can get a job...

im really worried about that.

also my speaking skill still doesnt improve.

i know it takes long time.

i feel rushed but shouldn't...

just practice every day.

i need friends!!

I wana make a boyfriend.

i have someone who is kind of boyfriend

but he said we are not going out.

so he is not my boyfriend...

How come??

I dont know what does he think about me?

I know i have to talk a lot with him.

but i enjoy it.

sometimes i feel lonely...

and i cant invite all the time...

because i dont like someone refuse me.

i will be hurt more if he refuse my request...

so i cant say everything...

ummm...

life is hard!!