I wish I were stronger...

I mean its not person who can do everythin by oneself or lives alone, but who can live with strong independence even with friends or depending on others..

I'm always too afraid of bein close to someone or somethin.

it gives some happiness, but sometimes it makes me depress too much.

The closer it is, the bigger the shock becomes.

Im really afraid.

but I wanna be as like YANAGI.

flexible n tuff.

do that.

もっと強かったらよかった

何も気付かなかったらよかった

見たくもないものまで見えてしまう

見えても触れても影響されないくらいブレないしなやかな強さがほしい

Today is Movin to new house.

but too many incident happened for me, I couldnt stand....

I wish I were strong....

no more tears.

anyway new place is goo place.

i can study n dance in my house ;)

Today is 9.11

u kno, the day it was happened terrible event 10 years ago...

all day, I was afraid of somethin to happen.

2days ago, earthquick happen in Vancouver, fire-notice machine of my condminium worked.

so I felt little bit unfortune power.

but It was nothin. Its good.!!!!

Peace pls...

Anyway

I didnt practice 2days. but today was nice prc.

Practice like on the battle,

Do the battle like on practice.

need to progress the level of 80% also 100%.

Its kind of the minimum line.

always make it more than 80%, I mean mimum is 80%, maximum is ∞.

NEED MORE CONCENTRATION for dance!!! ;))))))

already 46days passed.

soooooooo fast.

Recently i injured my wrist nd its not good with my condition.

they annoyed me nd got away my energy...

i cant open recently diary because they are soooo negative... haha

I really found out its so hard to keep motivation by only myself.

you might think "why dont you think such as easy"...

I found out its good for me there are people who understand so well close to me.

storong will needed.

Acutually Im so lazy, i should make me busy almost.

in fact, free is not free for me.

If i have time, i waste time.

strong will...

もう４６日過ぎました。

とっても早い。

最近は手首を痛めたのと体調が良くないのとあいまって、ちょっと精神的に良くないのとやる気がでないです。

最近の日記はネガティブすぎて公開できないくらいｗ

そしてやっぱり独りだけでモチベを保つのは本当に大変だなって再確認しました。

何を甘っちょろいこといっているんだって言う感じだけど、

近くに理解者がいるというのがどれだけ有難いのかわかりました。

なにわともわれ、強い意志が必要です。

実際私はもともと怠け者なので、だいたいは忙しくしていたほうがいいみたい。

暇ができてもそれが暇にはならなくなってしまう。

時間があればあるで、だらだらしてしまうし。

はーーーーー

強い意志を持たないと。

I write in my iphone my today's dairy

but I drop it into a toilet.... oh my god...

tomorrow i'll write..

good night.

One word has some means in another language. i recognize stranger means like funny, but today i recog another mean again.

it means unknown.
today i talked to a stranger, he is gentleman, nhhh maybe, we talked to one hour. haha
about living, works, Japan,favarite and so on!! thats so good time for praftice of English:)
in Japan it is dangerous, so i didnt ,but i feel its ok in here.ha.
Stranger is also gentle in this country.
but i always feel be careful because i'm "stranger", too in Canada.

at that time , i was soooo tired I slept in Caffe: tim Hooken: populer in Van.
i was waked up by police because in Tim hooken there are often polices because coffee is free for them.

nd after the Stranger talked to me.
after leave cafe, two stranger talked to me, i felt good practice for me. but i think again now, my face might careless after i woke up.

anyway, i went Tim Hooken, today!
so cheap nd good! like mister dounats!
i heard coffee is also good, i try to next!

i wanted to practice, but i couldnt so that it was tooooo cold nd raniy,,,


when there's sunshine, we can see nice view even cold!
like following:)