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Strength.

Sun, 23 Jan 2011 03:54:39 +0900

Wanna Know What Strength Is?
Being Strong Doesnt Mean Not Crying, Or Not Being Affected from Pain, Or Always Being Happy And Independent.
Being Stong Means Handling all The Shit Thrown Your Way Up Till The Very End, All The Way.
Only The People Who End Up Suiciding,
Only The People Who Give In To All The Pressure,
Only Those Are Weak.
Everyone Else, We, We’re All Strong.
Some Of Us It Doesnt Show For Yet,
But Like A Flower, It Will Bloom, While For Others It Already Has.
We All Survive, We All Live Up Till This Day After All The Shit Thrown Our Way.
That's Called Strength.
Having The Ability To Survive, That's Strength.
I've Been Through LOADS Of SHIT, We All Have, How Do You Think We Survive Till Now?
One Word, Strength.
Inside Of Us, We're All Strong.
If Someone Tells You You're Weak, Puts You Down, Its Only Because They Know How Strong You Are.
They Know That You're Way More Stronger Than Them.
So These Are My Words For You;
Smile, Cry, Laugh, More Than That, Live Life To The Fullest.
With Your Strength You Can Definitely Do It.
That's All *smiles*
Thanks For Reading,
Jyaa~~~!!

Six Painful Strikes.

Fri, 24 Dec 2010 04:02:14 +0900

These Days A Lot Has Been Happening.

First, Fake Problem Is Going Bad...
I Won't Say Anymore Because Top Secret?
But Yeah...
Second, Ryosuke...
I'm Worried....
Third, Mira I'll Miss You When You Leave For Next Year...
Remember If Anything Come To Me To Let It Out Like I Told You To Today!
You'll Always Be My Neechan, I'll Wait For You!
Take Care Ne!
Forth, I Had A Fight With Mama Today....
And That Would Have Hurt So Bad Itself...
Fifth, Danny..
My Older Fully Blood Related Brother.
Sure He Wouldn't Care If I Died This Second, But I Actually Care About Him A Lot...
He's Always Being Bullied And Alone At School.
He Only Has 2 Friends, And Those Friends Are Always "Busy".
He Has Trouble Concentrating On Things And Always Hyperactive, And He Keeps Thinking Its Something Big Like ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) Which Is Something That Can Never Be Cured.
Also, Today There Was This Whole Fight When I Went To My Dad's Place.
There's Always A Fight, But This Time Was Different.
Danny Kept Asking Everyone About It, And Kept Insisting He Had It.
And They Kept Insisting That Its Nothing.
And Then My Dad Got Pissed Off And Came In, He Gave This Whole Speech About How Its Just That He's Always Closed Off, That He Should Just Try To Fit In With Everyone.
But Then Danny Said That Its Not His Fault That He's Different Than Everyone.
Then Dad Snapped At Him Saying That He Should Try To Share Interests And Mingle With Them Anyway, Because Its Ruining My Dad's Reputation, Danny Being Like That.
Everyone Got Into It After That And Was On Dad's Side.
All Danny Could Do Was Just Sit There And Look Off Somewhere In Anger While Everyone Was Telling Him Off Because No One Understood Him At All.
The Difference Between Me And Him Are A Lot.
He Actually Grew Up With All The Adult's Attention And All, My Parents When The Were Taking Care Of Their Kids, It Was All Danny.
While I Grew Up Alone.
But Because Of That He Grew Up Spoiled And Over-Sensitive.
Once He Was Sent To The Psychologist Just Because He Wouldn't Stop Biting His Nails No Matter What So It Was A Last Resort. Then That Psychologist Complicated Things Saying He Has ADHD And All, So They Fired Her But Danny Started Believing It Himself Because Of Her.
Now He's Acting Like It's Like Cancer Or Something And That It's A Big Deal, No Matter How Much We Tell Him Its Nothing He Wont Listen.
I'm Worried But I'll See How Things Will Turn Out.
Sixth, House Problem...
My Mom Started Complicating Things And Insisting On 50,000 CAD While He Keeps Refusing And Insisting On 40,000 CAD. The Plan Was All Set And Everything, Sure It Hurt But At Least I Knew Where I'm Going To Stay, What's Going To Happen.
My Dad Stopped Paying Completely For Everything So The Bank Is Going To Take The House If They Don't Settle This In A Month.
They're Being So Selfish. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THEM?!?!? IF THEY DON'T SETTLE IN A MONTH BASIL, DANNY, ME, AND MY MOM WILL BE HOMELESS!!!!
I Don't Care What Happens With Me Or My Mom.... But At Least For Danny And Basil...
Why Do They Have To Complicate Things So Much?
Just For 10,000 CAD Difference.
None Of Them Will Move In Their Decisions.
That Selfish Bastard Of A Father Is So Rich He Can Spare 10 Times As Much Yet He Wont Agree.
That Greedy Bitch Of A Mother Can Live With The Amount He Offered Comfortably Without Even Having To Work Yet She Wont Agree Either.
What The Fuck Is Happening To The World?
Why Is Everyone So Greedy And Selfish?
Caring So Much For Such Small Things?
Why The Fuck Doesn't Anyone See The Big Picture.
Can't They See What They're Doing Is Going To Make People Homeless.
Ruin People's Lives.

Seriously.... I'm Crying So Bad Right Now Because All These Things..... Everything...... It Hurts...... Why? Why Do All These Things Keep Happening?.... I Want To Close Myself Off To Everyone And Everything.... It Hurts.....

Anyway, Thanks For Reading.
Enjoy What You Have While It Lasts Ne Minna!
Take Care Ne Minna!
Jaa.

Belief, Honesty, Patience.

Sun, 19 Dec 2010 07:47:39 +0900

I Just Have A Couple Of Things To Say For Some People.

First, What Is Belief?
Belief Is Giving Your Trust In Something That Might Not Be Real.
Belief Is Something We Use Everyday, Every Night, Without Even Noticing.
We Use Belief In Our Small Actions;
When Sitting Down, We Believe That The Chair Will Be There To Support Us When We Sit Down.
When We Drink, We Believe That The Drink Is There To Drink.
When We Eat, We Believe That The Food Is There To Eat.
Desho?
So Even The Smallest Things Need Belief.
The Problem With People These Days Is That They Think They Aren't Able To Believe In Anything. But If So;
How Are They Able To Live?
How Are They Able To Drink?
How Are They Able To Eat?
How Are They Able To Sit?
So Everyone "Believes".
Another Problem Is, People Think That They "Can't" Believe In Something That Seems Risky Or Wrong.
They Think That It's Just Wrong To Believe It.
That It's A False Belief.
But Just With That, You're Still Believing In Something.
You're Believing That It's Wrong, That It's False.
See?
People Just Don't Understand That.
We Have Belief In Everything, It's Just When That Belief Becomes Risky, When It SEEMS Wrong, They Automatically Get Scared And Don't Want To Believe That.
But, We All Have To Learn That, Sometimes, Taking Risks Is The Best Option.
That We'll Be Happier That Way.
That Everything Is Going To Be Alright That Way.
All We Have To Do Is Just, "Believe".
Even If It Was Wrong In The End.
At Least At The End Of The Day, You Can Look Back And Think;
"I Gave My Full Believe In Something Risky, I Did Something Worth Being Proud Of, Even If It Was Wrong In The End, I Still Believed In Something Big."
At Least You Can Say That At The End Of The Day.
So It's Better To Just Take The Risk And Just Believe.
Even If You're Scared, Don't Be Afraid, You Have Your Friends Around You To Help You, You're Not Alone.
So Just Take The Risk And Believe.

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Second, Honesty.
Honesty Is The Ability To Be Able To Say The Complete, One And Only, Truth.
By Saying That, You May Think;
"If That's So, Then No One On Earth Is Truly Honest."
For Me, That Used To Be True, That Is What I Believed.
But Afterwards, I Found Out What That Really Meant.
It Really Meant That, Sure, Some People Would Lie Once In A While, But As Long In The End, You Tell The Complete And Only Truth, You're Honest.
So Some People May Start Of On The Wrong Foot, They May Lie And Afterwards Want To Take It Back, Well The Best Way To Do That Is To Go To Whoever You Lied To, Apologize, And Tell Them The Full, Real Truth.
Whether You're A Con-Artist Or A Little Kid Who Has Only Told One Little White Lie, You Can Still Have This "Honesty".
As Long As You Tell The Truth In The End.
As Long As You Come Clean In The End.
Anyone Can Have This "Honesty".

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Third And Lastly, Patience.
Plainly Put, Patience Is The Ability To Last Through Hardship Without Complaining.
The Ability To Last Ages Without Complaining.
To Wait For Something For Something For So Long Without Complaining.
Many People Generalize Things Like;
"Kids Don't Have Any Patience Because They're Small."
"Adults Should Have A Lot Of Patience Because They Lived Longer And Have More Experience."
But Really, In The End, That's Just Completely Wrong.
Some Kids Are Very Patient And Attentive.
Some Adults Are Very Impatient And Hot-Tempered.
Patience Isn't Limited.
Just Because We're Young Doesn't Make Us Automatically Impatient.
Just Because You're Old Doesn't Make You Automatically Patient And Strict.
Patience Is Something We Can All Have, No Matter What Our Age.

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That's All For Now!
Arigato For Reading!
Jaa!

Sick!

Sat, 18 Dec 2010 00:42:45 +0900

Yo Minna-chan~~! (^∇^)
Ne Ne Right Now, I'm Sick.
I Have A Fever, A Running Nose, And The Cough, I Have The Cold At The Same Time. 。(´д｀lll)
Mo But I Have A Party To Go To Tomorrow! So I Must Stay Strong(o^-')b
It's A Formal Party, And I Just Bought The Dress And Bag And Everything Today
I Hope It Goes Well((＞д＜))
I'm So Tired Right Now. (Ｔ▽Ｔ;)
It Was So Hard And Exhausting Picking Out The Dress And Stuff.
Mo And On Top Of That With How Sick I Am It Gets Even More Harder. o(TωT )
Mo It Feels Like There's No More Energy In This Body
I'm Tired, I Get Thirsty Over And Over Again Every 2 Minutes, My Head Hurts So Much, I Can't Get Up....
Waaaaaaah But I Need To Hold On For Tomorrow's Party(｡＞0＜｡)
Mo I Need To Go Rest A Little Now Ne....
Jya See You Later Ne!
Take Care My Precious Readers!!
Bai Baiii~~~~

Huwaaa~~

Wed, 15 Dec 2010 02:37:52 +0900

WAAAAAAAAAAH!
TODAY WAS SO FRUSTRATING!!!!
First, I Thought My Exam Was At 8:00-10:00 AM So I Woke Up At 6:30. WHILE ACTUALLY, It Was 2:00-4:00 So I Could Have Slept Till 10:30. =.=
Then, My Mom Suddenly Decides To Bring Me To My Exam Today Out Of Nowhere. =.= HAHA You Really Think She Wanted Just To Bring Me There? OF COURSE, She Dropped Me Off On The Way At Starbucks And Told Me To Go Get Her Some Knish And Coffee. =.=
Then, When My Mom Stopped The Car At The Front Of The Gate And I Left The Car, MY PRINCIPLE Sees Her. OH THE JOY! =.=
I Headed Towards The Gate And Then He Stopped Me There And Said "Oh HEY! One Of Our FORMER Top Students, Natalie Atari. That Was Your Mom That Just Dropped You Off Wasn't It? How Come I NEVER SEE YOUR PARENTS TOGETHER! OH RIGHT! THEY'RE DIVORCED! BECAUSE YOUR DAD WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR! OOPS DID I JUST SAY THAT OUT LOUD?"
I Swear, If I Wasn't Trying To Keep My Detentions At Low, I Would Have FRIGGEN KNOCKED HIS BRAINS OUT!
OH AND THE HORRIBLE HORRIBLE DAY JUST STARTED!
Afterwards, I Met Some Of The Students Who Were Also Early (MOM'S FAULT!) And Wouldn't Shut The Fuck Up!
Because APPARENTLY I'm An AMAZING Teacher, They ALL Kept Coming TO ME And Asking Me To Explain EVERY. FRIGGEN. QUESTION.
HISTORY IS MY WORST SUBJECT! I HATE IT! DON'T COME TO ME AND ASK ME ABOUT THE SUBJECT I HATE THE MOST!!
OH AND THERE'S MORE!
After ACTUALLY Running All Over The School To End Up At The Library (WHO GOES THERE ANYWAY?!?!) Trying To Run Away From The Never-Ending Questions People Kept Asking, It Was Actually So Peaceful That I Could Sleep (Wow, Who Knew, Libraries ACTUALLY Have A Purpose!)...... For A Few Minutes.
Before I Knew It, A FLOOD Of People Went Running Into The Library And I Dived Under One Of The Tables Hoping They Would Somehow Not Notice Me. (I Can't Even BEGIN To Start With How Dumb That Was.)
But Instead, I Was Literally Surrounded By More Than 20 People While Under The Table Thinking That They Were Going To Murder Me Or Something.
To My Luck (I ACTUALLY Thought Something Lucky Was Going To Happen Today! HAH!) The Librarian Came To The Rescue. She Kicked Them All Out For Making Too Much Noise And Causing A Fuss, And I Still Hid Under The Table Hoping She Wouldn't Notice Me. Instead, After She Kicked Out Everyone, She Went Back To The Table I Was Hiding Under And Sat At One Of The Chairs There And Was So Close To Kicking Me In The Face. =.=
By That Time, There Was About An Hour Till My Exam. So I Had To Find A Way To Escape. Of Course, I Couldn't Just Quickly Run Away From Right Under The Table, Because How Weirded Out Would You Be If Some Random Person You Haven't Noticed Runs Out From Under The Table You're Sitting At?
Then, With Her About 2-Inch High Heals She Stepped On My Hand For A Couple Of Seconds When Trying To Change Her Crossed Legs And Switch Them Around.
I Couldn't BEGIN To Describe The Pain Of Getting Your Hand Stepped On By 2-Inch High-Heals Worn By A 90 kg Old Woman For About 10 Seconds.
I Made A Little Very High-Pitched "A-Aaaaaaaaaaaaooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" Sound Which Freaked The Hell Out Of Her.
There, I Had My Only Option. RUN FOR MY LIFE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!
So I Ran Out From Under The Table And Screamed "WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH~~~ RUN FOR MY LIFE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" Just To Have A Little Fun.
So After Running Around LITERALLY EVERYWHERE In School And Nearby School Supermarkets, I Managed To Keep Hidden And Just Relax At The Gym Rooftop And Drink Some Soda.
Then, I Realized There Was Only About 5 Minutes Till My Exam.
So I Ran Back All The Way Down, All The Way To The Exam Hall.
OHHH AND THERE'S MORE AND MORE.
While I Was Trying To Do My 120 QUESTIONS, SUPER DAMN HARD History Exam, THE STUPID Examination Teacher Volunteers Kept Making THE MOST STUPID Announcements.I MEAN, WHO THE HELL Would Announce What Exams We're Going To Do WHILE We're Actually Doing Them. AND MORE OVER, Announced By An Arabic Teacher At His Failed Attempt At Trying To Speak In A British Accent.
THEN, The IDIOT Next To Me FORGOT To Put Her Blackberry On Vibrate So It Rang And The Examination Teachers Made A Big Deal Out Of It.
While I Was Busy Trying To Do My FRIGGEN Exam At Least 4 Teachers Passed By Us 5 TIMES EACH Saying THE EXACT SAME THING. "Just Give Your Phone Now, It's Alright,We're Not Going To Put You In Trouble, The Camera Is Going To Have It Video Tapped Already Anyway" OH REALLY? IF YOU WEREN'T GOING TO PUT THE PERSON IN TROUBLE,WHY EVEN BOTHER TRYING TO FIND THEM!??!?!?! AND HOW WILL YOU KNOW WHOSE PHONE IT'S FOR THROUGH THE VIDEO TAPE?!?! WHAT? Are You Gonna Like Watch It And Think The Person That Jumped Up Like A Freak And Shouted Out Would Be The One With The Phone? OF COURSE YOU CAN'T TELL WHOSE PHONE IT IS THROUGH A VIDEO TAPE!! IDIOTS!!!
So, After A Whole Hour And A Half I ACTUALLY Managed To Finish My Exam.
THEN, The Main Examination Teacher Came Up To The Group In The Area Where The Phone Rang Which I Happened To Be In And Said That He'd Keep Us In Till 6:00 If He Had To.
I Swear, At That Moment, If The Person Sitting Next To Me Whose Phone Rang Wasn't A 6th Grader Who Looks All Innocent I Would Have Punched Her So Bad Right At That Moment He Said That.
So, He Kept Us In For A Whole Friggen Hour. Then, He Came Up To Us And Said "Fine, Since You Don't Have The Guts To Come Up To Us And Tell Us It Was Your Phone,You Can All Leave."
So Because Of That, I DID End Up Going Home At 6:00.
Because I Missed The Bus, So I Had To Wait ANOTHER Hour For The Next One To Come.
But After That My Day Finally Started To Calm Down.
Mama Managed To Calm Me Down And Bring Up My Mood.
Bea-nee Was A Little Late *Laughs* But She Still Asked Just Now So Yeah.
Mo On A Side Note, Sorry These Past Days I've Been Pretty Frustrated All The Time. (^_^)v
It's Just So Many Frustrating Things Has Happened, But Hey, Tomorrow IS The Last Day Of Finals Then There's 2 Weeks Holiday~
Really, I'm Not Always This... Violent. (^_^)v
Gomen Ne If You Got Scared Or Anything~~ >______<
Mo Jya NE~~~
Take Care~~~~~
BAI BAII~~~~~

!!!

Mon, 13 Dec 2010 00:40:42 +0900

FUCKING HELL!!
TODAY WAS THE MOST PISSING OF DAY OF ALL PISSING OFF DAYS!!!!
MY MOM PISSED ME OFF SO FUCKING BAD!!!
AND TRUST ME, NO ONE PISSES ME OFF BECAUSE IT LITERALLY MEANS HELL IF THEY DO!!!!
GAHH!!!!
AND WHAT'S MORE, THERE IS A DAMN SPY TELLING MY MOM EVERYTHING!!
GAHHHH!!!
*Tries To Calm Down*
Okay.
So To The Fucking Person Who Told My Mom All That, Whether You're One Of The Fucking Stalkers And Somehow Managed To Get Contact With My Mom And Get All That Info, Or You're A Specific Person Very Close To Me That I Let My Guard Down On That Might Have Betrayed Me, I Am Not Going To Mention Any Names On That, Read And Read DAMN FUCKING WELL.
Whatever Charade Or Game You're Trying To Play, I Figured It All Damn Fucking Out.
So Stop The Fucking Playing Now.
Almost Everyone Fucking Knows That It's Better Not To Mess With Me, Because When You Do, Things Get A Whole New Fucking Shade Of Ugly.
So You Better Fucking Come Clean And Apologize Like It's The End Of The World Or Else It WILL Be The End Of The World For YOU.
I'm Giving You Till Thursday, If You Don't Come Clean And Stop The Shitty Playing By Then, I Will Fucking Bring Out My Intellectual Brain Into This, And Everyone Knows How Smart I Am.
I Can Fucking Track You Down And Find Out Every Single Detail And How You Did Everything Till Now, But I'm Giving You A Fucking Chance To Come Clean About Everything.
If You've Done Your Homework Or You're That Person I Mentioned Earlier, You Would Know I'm A Hacker And I'm Pretty Skilled At That.
Well Anyway, If You Know What's Good For You, COME CLEAN NOW.
That's All.
Goodbye.

Wahh!

Sat, 11 Dec 2010 20:33:00 +0900

Wah!!
I'm So Frustrated And Stressed!!
My Mom's Treating Me Like A Slave!!!
She's A Hypocrite!!!
She's A Slave-Driver!!
She's So Self-Centered!!!!
I Hate It!!!
At School I Always Hear My Friends Complaining About How There Moms Care Too Much!!
How They Complain About Going Out With Their Happy Families!!
Hearing About Stuff Like Their Parents Always Go Out Together And All!!!
I Hate It!!!
I'm Stuck With A Broken Family!!!
While Everyone Else Only Thinks About Small Things That Make Them Hate Theirs!!
All I Want Is A Normal Happy Family!!!
One That Whenever You Come Home You're Greeted With "Welcome Home"s And Smiles Instead Of Plain Silence And Loneliness!!!
One That Always Worry And Take Care Of You When You're Sick!!!
One That Always Have Fun And Laugh!!
One That Actually Eats All Together At The Same Table In The Same Room!!!
All I Want Is A Family Like That!!!
I'll Give Everything For That!!
But Instead I'm Stuck With A Family That Hate Each Other!!
One That Always Fights!!!
One That Never Cares About Anyone But Themselves!!!
One That Is Filled With Lies, Deceiving And Using!!!!!
I Hate It!!!!!
It's Unfair!!!!!
Why Does Almost Everyone Else Have Families That Are Warm And Welcoming And Actually Have A Place To Call "Home"!!!!
While I Have A Broken And Cold Family And Don't Even Know What A Place Called "Home" Is!!!!
Why?!?!
I Hate Hate Hate It!!!!!!
Every Single Night, I Cry My Eyes Out Wondering Why My Family Is Like This!!!
I Want To Know What It's Like To Actually Look Forward To Going Back To My House!!!
I Want To Know What It's Like To Hear A "Welcome Home" And See Smiles When I Get Back!!!!
I Want To Know What It's Like To Actually Truly Say Straight-Forwardly "I Love My Mom" Or "I Love My Family" Without Having To Lie Or Think About It!!!
Ever Since I Was Born I Was Left Alone!!!!
Everyone Around Me Was Always Looking At My Older Brother Because He Was A Handful While I Was The Quiet One And Always Ignored!!!
Whenever My Parents Would Actually Try To Take Care Of Their Kids, I Was Always Left Out!!!
I Was Always Alone!!!
I Grew Up All Alone!! Independently!!!
I Had No One, While My Brother And My Friends Had Everyone!!!!!
They Actually Have Memories With Their Families That They Can Look Back To And Smile!!!
Since I Could Actually Start Thinking, I Always Wondered "Is It Normal To Not Have Met My Father And Older Brother Until I Was 2? Is It Normal To Always Come Home To Find Screams Of Anger, Things Broken, Blood? Is It Normal To Have A Mother That Always Takes Out Everything On You? Is It Normal To Have My Father Look Me Straight In The Eyes And Say "I Don't Want You. I Never Wanted You. Goodbye."And Walk Out On Me Right In Front Of My Eyes? To Not Have Met My Father Again Till 3Years Later Just To Find He Has A Whole Different Family? To Find That I Have 3 Step-Brothers And 1 Half-Sister (That Was Still On The Way At That Time) And A Step-Mother I Never Knew About? To Find That My Father Has Hidden This Family From Us Since I Was 5 Years Old?" And More And More Questions Kept Coming Into My Head.
Earlier Today, I Saw A Happy Family, The Father And More Were Smiling And Each Holding One Of Their Daughter's Hands, Then The Father Kissed The Mother Lightly And Carried The Daughter And Started To Play With Her. They Were Smiling And Laughing. They Were Happy. They Were A Family.
Mo...... I Wonder What It's Like? To Have A Family Like That.
Well Anyway...
Bye Bye.
Thanks For Reading.
Take Care.

Hiatus.

Fri, 10 Dec 2010 01:03:59 +0900

I'm Going To Take A Hiatus.
Too Much Is Going On In My Personal Life.
I Need To Also Concentrate On School Because Even Though Final's Are Half-Way Through, I Also Need To Start The Second Semester Well So I'll Be Able To Get Good Marks.
So Yeah The Hiatus Is Definitely Going To Last To At Least Mid-January. If Not, Then Longer.
It'll Start When It Just Turns To The 14th In Japan Timing.
I'll Update Here From Time To Time And Put Up The Link On Facebook And Myspace When I Do.
I'll Online SOMETIMES On MSN And YM.
So If You Guys Want To Contact Me If It's An Emergency, My Contact Info Is On My Facebook Profile "Nat Atari" (Not My Other Facebook Account). I Have My Emails, Ameba, Myspace, Even My Phone Number On There.
Only Contact Me If It's An Emergency.
Only If You're Rira, Sharlene, Mei, Maria, Xinyi, Mira, Souha, Tutti, Deniz Or Any Of JUMP You Can Try To Contact Me Any Time. (Michelle Don't Worry, We're Neighbors, Go To The Same School, Etc.. So It's Like The Rule Doesn't Apply To You Either.)
Don't Worry, I'll Definitely Be Back, Just Need A LOT Of Time To Concentrate On Other Things.
I Decided To Take Sharlene's Advice She Gave Once And Take This Break Because Right Now I'm Going Through Some Very Hard Things In My Personal Life And I Really Can't Take Any More Stress.
Also, Like I Said Before, I Have To Concentrate On School.
So I Really Need This Break, And I Finally Realized That, Because If I Don't Take It, I'll Seriously Just Permanently Break.
Just For The People Who Are Too Lazy To Go Check The "About Me" Section On My Facebook Profile Or Check The Contact Info For My Number, Here's Where You Can Contact Me During The Hiatus:

Emails: nataleatari@hotmail.com
natalieatari@yahoo.com
Ameba: http://profile.ameba.jp/nat-atari
Phone #: 00971557304535

Then Jaa Minna. I'll Update From Time To Time And Let You Guys Know How I'm Doing, Don't Worry. And Remember, Don't Try To Contact Me If You're Not One Of The Exceptions I Listed And If It's Not An Emergency.
Please Take Care Ne?
I'll Miss You Guys.
Jaa~

Final Exams Coming Soon! (＞＜;)

Mon, 06 Dec 2010 22:12:39 +0900

Yo~~!!
How Has Minna-chan Been Doing?? (^∇^)
Have You Guys Been Enjoying Your Life?
Have You Guys Been Smiling Even When You're Sad?
Have You Guys Been Laughing Even When You Want To Cry?
Have You Guys Been Chasing After Your Dreams Even When You Feel There's No Hope?
Well If You Haven't, Let's All Start Now!! (^∇^)
All Together!!
Let's All Live Life To The Fullest And Chase After Our Dreams!! ('-^*)/

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These Past Few Days,
A Lot Has Been Happening...
A Lot That Has Made Me Cry, Made Me Laugh, Made Me Shocked. (^o^;)
But I Realized, We All Go Through The Same Feelings!
Always Remember That Ne Minna-chan! (^O^)/

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My Final Exams Are Coming!! (＞＜;)
They Start Wednesday!! (￣Д￣；；
I Already Finished Studying Half-Way Though.
Today Was Supposed To Be School, But I Skipped
Because There Was Only 3 Actual Classes Which Aren't Really Important Either, And The Rest Was All Gym, Break, And Free Classes. (≡^∇^≡)
Tomorrow Is A Study Holiday, Then After Tomorrow Final Examinations Start!! (｡＞0＜｡)
Well Minna-chan Wish Me Luck!! (→o←)ゞ
Jya Ne Minna-chan! I Will Go Study Now! (^O^)/
Take Care And Always Remember What I Said In The Begging!!

No Love Lost, No Love Found.

Sat, 04 Dec 2010 01:21:41 +0900

Yo.
These Past Days Were Horrible.
I Got A 39 Degree Fever, Today It Increased To 42 Degrees.
I Wonder How I Can Even Type.
I Have A Cough, A Very Sore Throat.
Today I Was Practicing The Song "All Fall Down by OneRepublic" And I Couldn't Sing Properly At All.
My Voice Wasn't Loud Enough And Was Too Hoarse.
Also, I Want To Say Some Very Important Things Here To Some People Here.
I Won't Mention Any Names But You Guys Know When Its You I'm Talking About.
First Of All, Why Go Through So Much With Him, And Not Trust Your Partner In The End?
And Don't Give Me The Excuse You're Too Paranoid From Everyone, So You Were Just Asking Him To Make Sure Not To Suspect Him.
If You Really Loved Him And Trusted Him, You Wouldn't Have To Make Sure, You Would Have Just Trusted Him Without Even Asking Him.
I Can't Believe I Looked Up To You, You Hurt Him So Bad, So Cruel..... I Hate You.
Second Of All, I Understand You're Busy And Have So Much In Your Head And You Forgot To Reply, But Why Is It You Replied Almost Everyone Else?
And After All This Time, You Only Reply Me Now Saying That You Forgot To Reply And You're Busy That You Have So Much Going On.
I Understand You're Busy. Maybe I'm Just Being Paranoid And Over-Thinking It, But Really? For This Whole 2 Weeks, I Tried Contacting You Guys, And No Reply. You Reply Almost Everyone Else BUT Me.
But Maybe I'm Just Over-Thinking It?
Third And Lastly, Stop Stalking Me.
I Understand You're A Wannabe And Want To Be Exactly Like Me.
But Too Far?
You Buy The Same Clothes As Me, Go To The Same Places As Me, Try To Copy My Every Mood.
Hell, You Even Cut Your Hair Like Me.
Wannabe Much?
Move Over, You Stalk Me Everywhere I Go, You Stalk Me Online, You Stalk Me In Real Life.
Seriously?
How Lifeless Are You?

Well Anyway.
In The End Its "No Love Lost, No Love Found."
Meaning That If You Can't Find Any Love,
You'll Also Be Saved Because You Don't Have Any Love In The End To Lose Either.
That's What I'm Going For.
I'm Going To Protect Myself Using This Method.
I'm Going To Start Of New, Without Any Love, So That I Can Rely On Myself And Only I, And Not Get Hurt.
Thats All.
Thanks For Reading,
Bye.