2じかんだけよ

高校くらいの思い出たちが薄い霧のなかで輝いている。

もうそれから二年という月日が過ぎようとしている。

今のぼくはあの頃のぼくにどう映るのだろう。

その二年で失くしたもの、そして得たものはなんなのだろう。

そのこたえはあいまい、そして時に辛辣。

変わらない自分と変わっていく自分をさまよい続ける。

それが「ボク」であるのかもダケド。。

これが「人生」であるべきなのかもダケド。。。

いまの世の中、資本主義の世の中、実績能力主義の世の中で

いかに自分に付加価値をつけようかと頑張る自分がいる。

けして悪いことではない。

が、なにかが不協和音を奏でている。

いったい「自分であること」とはなんなのか

このまま歩み続けることで、

人生の足音を響かせ

綺麗なハーモニーを奏でられる日が来るのだろうか

理論、論理　は　もはや通用しない、させたくない。

感情、情緒　だ！！

人間だもの

anyway I was too excited this night in the nice club,,,,,

could be Anniversary because of,,,, lala

could be a

Start of Something New

I was so tired today cos I had 6 lectuers including tutorials, which means i stadied from 9 to 5 without any break la Im not gonna have that much lectures in one day untill next mounth when I have tutrial again.

Recently I feel like Im not really studying bussiness but studying English during lecture lol I have to focus on what lectuerers say in terms of English rather than business !! Hopefully I will get used to it,,,,

Whats else.....I got new book which my frend recomended to me today!! Its City of Ember, which is written for teenager like HarryPotter and should be easier for me to read la at least I can say it would be easier than the thick text books for Marketing Research or Buyer Behavior ,

i would read this book tonight instead of interneat or watching KinKi DVD, and it would make me sleepy and as a consequense, I can easilly wake up tomorrow. (Recently Im addicted to internet and it prevent me from sound sleep ) Such a intelligent, clever boy am I.

Tomorrow I have only two lectures and after that I have international party organised by my hiphop society at night. Would be fun!!!

I found what i practiced in ace quite useful and helpful as well as KinKi dance of course!!!

But the thing is always to be flexible... I think it no that matter in hiphip,,,,, hopefully

Before the lesson I went shopping to get hallowin costume with bussiness school friends. But finally I couldnt decide... undecisive,,,,,

have no ideaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

but actually pirates or dancer like Micheal Jackson which my friends recomended me to be could be fine at all but as for me , how can I say,, its lack of originality!!! i thought I could be KinKi Kids, I mean like red shining clothes , but only three of my friends would noice (I havent written here but I have three KinKi fan friends here, who are from UK Spain HonKong) ...

Im going to London with my flatmate this weekend btw!! verry lookin foward to it, I cant go to Chocolate factory, which some of my friends will visit on saturday, instead though

This is actually second time, Ive been there alone for 2days at the first time, it was so miserable to go to horror house alone lala dont worry this time, I have buddies!!!

ahh recently i dnt study much due to going out almost eveyday and everynight... I think should stop at some point and look back myself

ps KinKis new single'スワンソング' is coming 28th and they sing it in Music station on Fryday!! To my surprise, they r dancing this time!!!!!! Thats what we wanteddd. Cant miss it.

Looking at you runnig on a pier with your hair streaming

Sea wave cried with beautiful voice like singing bird which is going to die

I saw your white hands waving to me without being dyed sea blue

Where did I fail to put the button? Where was the point our future started to make noise?

The days we lived together made you beautiful

You pretended to be calm thogh you used to cry easily beside me

Just painful loving you but cannnot meet

Is it possible keepig our relationship though its not enjonable?

Are you sure this is the end?? You slightly nodded

Though you wave to me on the pier

Fell down to the floor and cried in seableeze like a silent film

yesterday, I visited Vans house and went to a huge Disco. Frst of all his house, which was private accomodatio, was nice and clean. Compared to ours, much much better!! Huge kitchin and commonroom equippwd with TV!! His room was very nice as well. Mega big size screen laptop and double sizebed!!! He showed me some stufffs in his laptop including pervert stuff la

Then we went to the pub, I met many of his friends and they looked all kind and cool!! but the problem was here, I drank too much cos van didnt now i was that weak and he bought me some strong ones which I even didnt know the name!! I couldnt walk but could dance, When Iam tipssy. my sidewalk becomes amazing(not exageration, everybody sais!! ) Then in disco after that pub, although I cldnt dance as usual cos I felt abit sick, my body started to move!!

I came back to my place at 3 and did laundry after that. It kept wake me up for 3hours, which means I went to bed at 6!! cant believe,,, and now its 1125. Gotta go to school start at 12

ps should i go to london with flatmates on Fryday or join party for japanesse chinese honkon kankoku society which has my dance societys performance!! have to make a choice........ You will see

crabladder, pretty please as cherry on the top, sensor, easy as pie, rain\dog and cat, omitt, ripsinging

すぺいん料理はなんちゃってパエリヤなどとてもイイ感じだったけれども、アジアン料理じゃフォーを選んで失敗しましたった。よくわからない凄い味のする葉が入っているにもかかわらず、スープはお湯のよう。といｔって近くのソースを入れると辛くて食べにくい。。やっかいでした。麺自体はとてもよかったんだけどなぁ

そしていい感じのパーカを買った。

今日は洗濯日だけど、病気から立ち直って暇気味のフラットメイト、アクセル達とドライブに行くかも。。

けど宿題予習復習もやらなきゃなぁ。。どうしよぅ。

そして、このブロゴ、日本人とｓては日本語だが、留学生としてなら英語で書くべきだ。。どうしよぅ。

けどまぁ今日あ14時間位寝たからげんきだぁ！！！！

飲まない予定がワイン４センチに、まさかのウォッカストレート２センチを飲む羽目になってしまいました。

その後ほぼみんなでシティセンタのディスコをたずねました。

そこでいつものマリブコークをいただきながら2時間とりあえず踊りつづけ、2時半くらいにタクシーに乗せてもらい帰りました。

やぁいい人たちだ。みんなダンスもうまいし。そういえばqualityがどうであれ、ダンスをやっててよかったと強烈に感じるこの頃です。　とりあえずマイケルかな

今日はピータ達とブリストルぅぅ

激しく勉強に追われながらも楽しみつつ必死に生きてます。

日本人であることの意義、そしてnational identityについて考えさせられるこの頃です。

ちなみにお酒、前の1.5倍は飲めるようになりました。なんだか毎日のように飲んだりで。

ちなみに暖かいシャワーでるようになりました。４日位壊れてて毎日cold shawerぶるるるるる、、だった。

ちなみに日本食、というか日本での食事が恋しくてしかたないです。1週間帰りたいなぁ。

ちなみに５キロ位太りました。けど風邪ひいて減ったかな。わからん。

ちなみにHIPHOPのsocietyに入りました。筋トレもハードなストレッチもなく、超楽しい☆　（腹筋は毎日してるよ）

ちなみにこっちで恋人ができました。。。。。まぎれもなく嘘。

ちなみにfacebookのアカウント持ってる人教えてください。

ということで、ちなみすぎたところで、そろそろ寝ますよ

今４時だけど、昼寝しすぎて寝れなくなってしまったので、あぁああああそぅうういやあ書いてねええなぁああということで書いてたんですが明日9時から学校なのでぇぇぇぇ。　にしてもいろいろinsecureすぎる。。。

日本　NIPPON NIHON ＪＡＰＡＮ