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Light it up!

Tue, 05 Aug 2014 13:32:54 +0900

it as what they say... "Love is sweeter when it's your first time, but nothing is scarier than your first love."

but oh well~
no one wants to experience pain right?

never experience it myself though. but looking at how my friends suffer, I don't think I want to experience that.
though I know, I'm just scared, but you know?
still.... it's a no no for me.

Sometimes, you don't know how to convey your feelings, or how to tell someone how you feel.
It's just hard to express it in front of them, not that you’re a plastic, but if you say that you are their friend, it can't be helped to say what you wanted to say.

It's hard to say that you hate them, but then you also love them.
A chocolate feelings maybe? Sweet and Bitter? Who knows? A mixture of unknown feelings are feeling up your heart that sometimes, you don't know how to put it in words.

Then eventually you end up putting a barrier between your friends and yourself.

Putting up with this, the only thing you can show them is the mask that you put up, and that smile that has no exact meaning.

The exact thing, the exact clearance, the exact and specific smile that is permanently piercing through every gaze he make. That's what it makes my damn friends crazy. This thing they called "LOVE"….
ヽ() `ε '()

One thing I do understand… that if you fall in love, either you focus more on yourself, or you wouldn't care anymore about anything you do as long as he'll like you back.

Friends? I don't know anymore. Even if you tell me that I'm an outcast. I knew it already, I'm always the indifferent one.
(｡・ε・｡)

Possibilities are Around!

Mon, 07 Jul 2014 08:28:49 +0900

sometimes, nothing goes well with whatever we do.
even if we made a perfect plan,
we don't know the possibilities it takes.

*:..｡o○☆ﾟ･:,｡*:..｡o○☆

sadness and pain are always present in our lives,
but everything we do is up to us.

you wouldn't know what's sadness, if you didn't know happiness.
that's how it goes...
ﾟ･:,｡ﾟ･:,｡★ﾟ･:,｡ﾟ･:,｡☆

I wonder?
I'm happy that my friend had found a guy she'll like,
but I'm also worried that she might get hurt again...

maybe it's just me...
because when she fall in love...
she love too much... too much that she forgets about everything and focus on him.

I wouldn't say she's obsessed...
she just had a really big heart!

well...
as for this...
I am just here for support...

恋のさ、
恋はめっちゃあまいよ～
but one you were addicted to it, it might lead you to destruction.

I'm always having second thoughts of everything...
not that I'm so pessimistic,
I am optimistic...
but we have to think,
and do our best!

don't think too hard,
but enjoy every count of it!

o(^-^)o

this I say...
forever it is,
the best you could do is stand on your own!

even if crumbling down...
stand up and walk...
if not then crawl...

stay focus, and for sure!
you'll get to it!

(*^o^*)
o(^▽^)o

友達

Tue, 01 Jul 2014 11:21:19 +0900

Sometimes we just Do not know what to do ...
Friends or Family. you Do not know what to say, you know WHEN you Have to say something. it's hard to Believe That the most Things you want to See, IS Slowly fading.

once you Realize That the Thing you kept for a long time IS Now Gone, then You'll search for it again but found Nothing but Tears from your Eyes. then you Might think. . . . the closeness That you know, Have Some grown Distance.

friendship IS Nothing if you can not Convey your Feelings to Each Other. little did I know, Our friendship IS Nothing worth than the Love She kept for him. and soon, She Drift away ... it's just so sad , believing That we Are Still the best of Friends Could we BE. but maybe I am Such a no good friend That Slowly my love for her just a Have Become Mere existence of her. just a Figment of Affection, but Still I WAS disappointed That She CHOSE Rather him than me.

but, as a friend of her, I SHOULD offer my support the best as I Could.
because of this stupid thing called LOVE ...
Each and everyone of my Friends have set some space between us ...

still .... friends are still important in our daily living! everyone! I can love properly friends!

but I Still know we can never be together, I wish they should have kept the friendship we had burning in their heart.

Band Concert!

Mon, 30 Jun 2014 13:36:41 +0900

uwaaah~ hi!
here we go again after a long time of not updating my blog. which is really sad!
I don't know if someone is reading this, since it's English, well... even I am trying so hard to understand the terms here and still learning some japanese!

O (^ - ^) O

hmmm....
last month we had concert for the parents in our school. we performed our second concert as a band.
it went really good!
we did "Cabo Rico", "Rockin Rondue" and "Rudimental Regimen" it was really fun playing.!

この二人は私の友ダッチです！
クラリネットとフルットプレーヤ～
O (^ ▽ ^) O

actually they exchanged instruments...
the one in white is playing flute, and the one in black is playing clarinet!

O (〃 ^ ▽ ^ 〃) O

えっと～。。。
そして私、私はサックスを演奏です！

コンサートはちょうー楽しい！

Looking for Amusement

Sun, 11 Aug 2013 19:01:50 +0900

It is not the way of life... it is not what people have to say... it is not what others think and it is not what people see.

It is you who have to do something in order to make yourself Happy. This world may seem cruel and unjust, but you don't have to stoop down so low and go with them, hiding behind their shadows forever.

You have your own way of living, your own way of life. Why let yourself crawl into the mud full of undistinguished sadness, and pains? Face the trials and find the way leading you to the rightful Happiness and make yourself be Amused in the way of Life.

ONCE is enough! don't you think TWICE is too much?

Study at the Library!

Tue, 02 Jul 2013 15:05:55 +0900

sometimes I want to cry! ..-° ° · (≧ д ≦) · ° ° · why? because I really want to sleep! and I even woke up early in the morning to study at the library. (¯ _ ¯ I) it's too many books to read!

if there would be a time where I can sleep then that's preferably at the school's clinic. (~E)-) Oo.. (¯ ¬ ¯ *)

I woke up 5:00 in the morning to prepare to go to school and arrived at school around 6:00 am just to study at the library. I read about 6 books and had to memorize some lines of the books. that was totally tiring. my eyes almost popped open!

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I was so stressed just to finish my project on time, and I still need to complete my service hours. nah~ I'll just sleep for now then wake up for later.! bye bye! o(^▽^)o

anime club cosplay

Sat, 22 Jun 2013 13:38:40 +0900

this was actually since November last year... (- ^ □ ^ -)
Me and my friends cos-played at our school's event for Halloween and for some reason they cos-played as a maid.
I wasn't here though because I was the one who's taking the picture. and besides I don't want to show my face in front of the camera!
I cos-played as a delinquent student, it doesn't even match the theme of the event! haha! O (〃 ^ ▽ ^ 〃) O
either way... this event was kind of awesome. even though I sweat a lot! I didn't bring my P.E clothes so our teacher made me do running using my cos-play clothes! he should have considered my clothes! tsk...

anyway... that day was pretty unbelievable. we are serving some Halloween sweets that the students ordered and when we got to serve them me and my partner got the wrong order so we have to be stuck at the kitchen to make another sweets! ..-° ° · (≧ д ≦) · ° ° ·
next time! I'll definitely check the stamp! umph!

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this is one more of the cos-play... she is the secretary of the Anime Club. she's a juniors but for the next school year she'll be graduating and so she'll be quitting her job but replace someone.

so then the other two is my co-member for the Club.. the other's I didn't took a photo. they are the most active ones in the group and the one with the braided hair with a black maid dress is our next Anime Club Second Generation Secretary. She's a very trustful member! (= ⌒ ▽ ⌒ =)

boredom~

Fri, 21 Jun 2013 11:45:38 +0900

I got bored in school during our P.E , so I decided to go outside the field and take pictures ≧ ('▽ `) ≦... lucky I found something interesting to do, and when I lie down i saw a grasshopper and it's brown so I got a bit excited thinking that it's a rare colored grasshopper and I took a photo of it. (¯ ▽ + ¯ *)

I like how the way I took a picture of it, O (〃 ^ ▽ ^ 〃) O I think it's cool though... ^^ one more, I make it close up, and it's cute that it didn't go away... (* ^ O ^ *)