https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/ - Join the Dragon's journey - ja Yet I feel like dropping some lines here today, when I saw that the last time I wrote was in July.

Many things have changed since then: I've started the career and successfully managed to survive the first 3months (almost) by now. I still manage to work in the bakery I used to work in, every Saturday now. I attend school, since it's normal to have school + work during apprenticeships in Germany.

The first 2 exams are around the corner by tomorrow.
Another one on Monday. 4 at Friday 2nd of November.
I'm practically really drowning in stuff to do.
And this leaves me with no will nor motivation to really do a lot for Fade lately.

I'm glad my dear Ka-No-Uta is working hard as a second Admin for the German ST now, but I still feel guilty and like a totally irresponsible person considering my lack of enthusiasm and will to work.
Looking back at the blogposts from July or before I don't see myself anymore.
Too many things have changed.
I have changed. A lot.

What didn't change though is, that I keep wondering how to continue walking.
And where my path will lead me.
Life has become a constant struggle.
I am tired.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11388869807.html Fri, 26 Oct 2012 04:43:23 +0900
What will happen in the next months..?
It's already July.

3 more days and I will be back in Madrid a last time before I start my career.
What will it bring? Stress? Even more than I already am used to?
Will I have time to continue my work for Fade at all?

I'm starting to get more and more scared.
I have mastered so many of this years' challenges already.
But the biggest one is coming closer and I will once again be all alone, having to deal with it.

I don't feel like going into detail.
Those who are close to me know about all that's happening around me, anyway.

I'm just wondering if the next months will pass by as fast as the first 7months of 2012 did.
Also, I will turn 22 years old by the end of next month...

It feels weird...
Time keeps running through my hands like sand... unused & unstoppable.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11297952894.html Mon, 09 Jul 2012 02:33:33 +0900 So this is gonna be more some kind of monthly summary, it seems... xD

I simply can't get used to ameblo as a "daily" blog to use...
I miss my old Fotolog really a lot.
And I doubt I will start blogging as regularly as I used to do there, ever again.
This here is after all only some kind of Fangirling place connected to Fade and stuff like that...

Saying so, during February not too many things in my Life changed.
I have no career, but I am into the process of maybe obtaining one in a media agency office.
Just today the test I need to take before I might get a contract, had been moved to a yet unknown date -.-
Besides this, I am still working in the bakery I use to work since November.
I've been to the hairdresser today and might change my haircolor from red to black again, by Sunday.



Besides this, during the month there had been a Fade Ustream I really enjoyed.
I've won a signed Face Towel thanks to Gan-Shin Records and was in general whenever I could busy with my KingOfDawn web and e-mails to Gan-Shin or other webpages connected to that issue.
Unfortunately I feel like nothing is moving in Germany lately.
I have barely the time nor the nerves to search for new Magazines or Webs to write to, and I am not getting any reply to my e-mails from certain people since a while... so...



I rather focus on the career now and on my job which keeps me busy enough.
Also I had booked flights back to Madrid from April 11th-16th; at 12th one of my favorite spanish bands called "Sôber" play... I am still fighting with myself, if to see a band I am friends with, called "Never Say Die" instead though, since they both play at the same day ヽ(`Д´)ノ

My father still has no idea about the booked flights, but I know he won't be amused once I tell him.
So I have 3 weeks to get this career and change my Life for good.
Or "die" trying...

]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11186319329.html Thu, 08 Mar 2012 07:55:46 +0900
It's already the first of February by now, and it has been almost a month since I last posted anything here.

Though so many Fade-related things happened and also in general my life went straight on forward, I didn't find the time to post about them.

In fact, the last time I wrote here, I was mentioning that I have my driver's test by the end of January.
Since January is over, I obviously took the exam already - and I passed.
Though I didn't expect it...

Besides this, since my last post many Streetteams for Fade appeared.
I'm totally burried in work for the German Streetteam trying to promote the band around here, as much as I can. Organizing articles, interviews and other stuff to make them known here, in case they announce EU dates.
I know such dates are in discussion, and my whole vacation planning is depending on them...
So let's hope there's gonna be something soon!

Thanks to Ryuik also a Fade Parka is on it's way to me now.
Unfortunately finally it will have costed me more than 100€ - not cool...

Anyway it is welcome to cover me from the cold outside...
-9°C today, and I went out to take Photos in the snow.
Idiot that I am! *laughs*

Let's see when I find time again to post something here, but I hope next time it won't take me another month!

]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11152801878.html Thu, 02 Feb 2012 05:58:00 +0900
I was waiting for my DVD+CD Version of ALL MY LOVE / YOU ARE THE REASON from Yellow Fried Chickenz, but I didn't expect that the very rare copy of UNDER THE SUN from FADE, which the lovely Ryuik got for me (I really still have to pay her >____<), would arrive at the same time! (^O^)/



Double win! XD

Now my Jon Collection only lacks:
1. The DVD Version of mcAT's "Beastie Life",
2. The CD Version of Yellow Fried Chickenz "ALL MY LOVE / YOU ARE THE REASON"
3. Fade's "Fade" Album from 2002/2003
4. and Fade's "A Moment of Truth"...



Those one's are almost all really, really hard to get... but "Under the Sun" also was
- I am sure me or one of my awesome Fandom people will find a way
Some day...

For the moment I'm just a happy Fangirl now! ('-^*)/
]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11129376029.html Sat, 07 Jan 2012 18:51:55 +0900 Godo's Artworks.
For those of you who don't know him, he is one of the guitarists of Fade, but also draws and writes Novels.
He seems to be a really intelligent and creative guy in general.

First of all an example of one of the Artworks, NO. 254 from his Ameblo:



And secondly, the funny thing was that the pile at which the drawing was, had number 5.
5°- Godo (5 degrees) is how he calls himself and since then, seeing a No. 5 I always think of him.



Besides this, all I have to announce is that I have my practical driving exam settled to 27th of this Month.
I'm nervous as hell...

]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11126992682.html Thu, 05 Jan 2012 01:36:26 +0900 thanks to Ryuik & Lintares from Russia <3

I only know those 2 girls since a couple of months, due to Fade of course, and they have already become really close and good friends of mine.
2 People with a heart made of gold who usually make it to make my days better by having nice but also deep conversations in Skype and Twitter.

Thanks loads!
For all you have done for me...
And of course for this awesomeness of presents you sent for Christmas!!!

I really believe 2012 will be the year of the Dragon.
My year.
Our year.
Fade's year.
And it has only just begun...




]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11124821714.html Mon, 02 Jan 2012 19:36:12 +0900 FINALLY the last day of this more than f*cked up year.
I'm really happy it's ending, though I'm not too enthusiastic at all that 2012 will bring a lot of changes, since all changes are depending on MYSELF.
And I'm still a little totally lazy when it comes to that...

It's only 3PM by now in Germany, but I guess I will be ending my year with a massive DAMAGE LIVER
- Unfortunately all alone at home...
But hey, I have Asahi, which I kept to be able to drink in honor of FADE at 12PM
, 30 bottles of Cherrybeer (Cheers spanish people!) and 2 bottles of champaign.
And yes, ALL for ME!

What else to say?
It's a sad truth that the only real happy moments this year, happened either on concerts or connected to FADE.
I got to know great people in Russia, France, America, Spain, Germany, etc.... thanks to the band by now, and something tells me, there will be many more to follow.
Actually I am saving money, for the coming tour, for the merch, for the new Album...

I understood by now, that FADE & their fans can never replace what GOTHICDOLLS, a spanish band I worked for before all this started and who broke up, meant to me. What they gave to me. What they were to me.
But FADE & the fans are a new chance to feel alive and to have something that's worth fighting.
I still want to make it to Madrid. And somehow I think I will.
I always get what I wanted, may it take whatever. I'll make it to Madrid sooner or later.

Until then, it's time to celebrate that this Nightmare of 2011 is ending.
And hoping, that 2012 will be better.

"Raise your glasses high
Drink to the sky tonight
And believe that one day
Our time will come..."


]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11123081890.html Sat, 31 Dec 2011 23:09:39 +0900 "BringKanseiToTwitter" to life a while ago, I was thinking if to join Ameba or not.



In the end, it seems, Kansei has beaten me.

I am not sure yet for what exactly to use this Ameba, or how much to use it at all, especially due to the fact I have no clue of Japanese and totally struggle with everything on this web, BUT I will probably dedicate the blog to my daily Life and random things I wanna talk about and don't wanna mention on my Facebook, Twitter, Fotolog, MSN, Skype, Last.FM, Youtube, Myspace.... *cough* （-""-；)



For all of those who have no idea who I am at all, a little summary:
My Name is Sandy, I'm actually 21 years old and live in a pretty little city, somewhere in Germany.
I dedicate my Life basically to webwork and Bands, and this since almost 10years by now.
At the moment my Band of choice is called "FADE" - and they are actually the reason why I joined Ameba, to be able to write comments to them, but also probably and hopefully get to know other Fans.

I guess it will be hard, since the majority of people here is from Japan or able to understand Japanese, but well... I will have to live with that. ^^°

Anyway, let the Party begin...
And Kansei? Since you finally got me HERE, I hope you are happy now... *headdesk*

]]> https://ameblo.jp/reddragon1990/entry-11121169722.html Fri, 30 Dec 2011 09:51:21 +0900