reilaのブログ https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/ ブログの説明を入力します。 ja a breath of fresh air anw.i need urgent relationship counselling.i need to set my muddled up brain right.
i love him best when he is conducting.his expression is...i just feel this connection some how when he is conducting and im standing as usual in the middle, right in front of him.but unfortunately, due to the choir's horrible state, he cant conduct proper hence im not feeling good.i want to see him conducting in full regalia and it had better be soon.
hmm.
i just sound silly.
but the main reason why im angry now is that i feel that he is using me.
i feel unappreciated.
like when he want me to do stuff, he'll say alot of nice stuff: like address me as darling, or say: need you leh~
but the moment i agree to it, he'll just act as if its supposed to happen that way according to what he has planned. it just makes me feel so unappreciated:( and taken for granted:(((
i think he knows that's why he is doing this.or else why would he[who is about to marry and fuck his aunty bride on their giant wedding bed] do this to me??
i feel used.
either that or his flirting instinct is inborn. which i don't think so.

]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10510367533.html Sat, 17 Apr 2010 00:40:33 +0900 100318 but im not abandoning this wan laaa.
thats public, for show~
this is privateeeeee~
and anw, i love leopard prints wayyy more than my blogskin over there.
blogskins.com really suck at new blogskins ]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10485278394.html Thu, 18 Mar 2010 22:19:25 +0900 160310 (^з^)-☆Chu!! ]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10483641279.html Tue, 16 Mar 2010 22:38:34 +0900 100310 your arrogance has really gotten to me this time.
why did you have to say such a thing to my face?
just because YOU are in a relationship now[with the most fugly girl on earth] does not sanction you to criticise on why im not in a relationship.
i forgive but i don't forget.
im gna get some gangster bf and make him beat you up.RAWR.

]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10478747675.html Thu, 11 Mar 2010 00:47:02 +0900 100227 ~abandons this ship for shinee or sth~
(the irony of watching titanic sink while typing that sentence)


hope i can get out of this mode and out of 1:59pm.
i cant belive what he other 6 guys said at the conference.
the point should no longer be on how JYPE forced them to say those hurtful sentences[which we dont even know whether is true or not] but the fact that they are even willing to allow those words to come out of their mouth.
i had rather them keep silent and let us think they want jaypark back as much as we do rather than slander him like that.
*feels betrayed*
any tears that they have now, i dont believe in them anymore

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i was watching hot blood again.the scene where jay enters and then jokingly walks out, i somehow see now some very bad foreshadowing in it.[this kinda shit happens when u have too many ppl around you studying lit]


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHRe2faslyg&feature=related

@around 1.59-2.30secs
embedding was disabled~~~




]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10469691844.html Sun, 28 Feb 2010 00:00:28 +0900 100225 as a SL that is not very productive, i think his perfectionism in everything is scary.constantly being jumpy aound a person while trying to make jokes is not a very appealing prospect.


but anywayssss
the songs that choir is learning now are totally fantastic.
we have :



and




hope the altos buck up.or else i have to be constantly in ahlian mode screaming for them to give me a choral sound.
heh.stupid long post.














 ]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10468079738.html Thu, 25 Feb 2010 23:44:54 +0900 080210-random spamming1 stuck in school since 1230(*´Д｀)=з








*:..｡o○☆ﾟ･:,｡*:..｡o○☆
グッド！no homework to do(●´ω｀●)ゞ
(nah im just too lazy to do homework now.feeling super guilty already kay.dun remind me anymore!keke)
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なきうさwaiting for zhennie to finish school so that we can go shopping.
need many new year clothes.ワンピース帽子くつサンダルかさリボン口紅ネイルカバンジーンズ指輪










☆*ﾟ ゜ﾟ*☆*ﾟ ゜ﾟ*☆*ﾟ ゜ﾟ*☆*ﾟ ゜ﾟ*☆*ﾟ ゜ﾟ*☆*ﾟ ゜ﾟ*



need somebody to entertain me!(?_?)
more than half the clique is dating. （笑）
why not me?NGNGNG

feels like a despo.ハートブレイク
kthx bai.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10453763430.html Mon, 08 Feb 2010 15:58:01 +0900 070210 hate youtube and my internet connection like now
can't even watch one complete part of
is pissed much.
i think the internet in my school werks better than home wtf.
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hephelphelp.











wraoz ]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10453307041.html Sun, 07 Feb 2010 23:06:45 +0900 060210 its...
by eric whitacre( ´艸｀)ドキドキ


beautiful song.
now all thats left to do is to train our voices to sound like that.
and my altos have better get it right.or else(￣へ ￣ 凸
 ]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10452134023.html Sat, 06 Feb 2010 16:12:20 +0900 050210 not supposed to come online anymore, but its totally impssible to ignore the internet for long.especially if homework and 2pm is online.









haha.this new PACO thing is wayyy cute ]]> https://ameblo.jp/reila4492/entry-10451631460.html Fri, 05 Feb 2010 22:49:47 +0900