昼寝ブログ https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/ ただ普通の思い出す、たまに小説もアップデートかも(笑) ja 미나리 도쿄 뮤지컬 東京場
誰說練習了不會有成果呢？
那57個小時補眠前， 敏煥的好強，
讓大家享受了他最後一曲光華門戀歌。
而 那樣的玩心不減
即使是配音的演奏卻如此逼真
無論鋼琴抑或吉他
他的實力， 越茁成長了
談笑吉他穿插時， 那種撥弦的方式， 似承炫似鐘訓， 又有敏煥自己的堅持。

另外，扶著因為暫停而幾近跌到的男主角， 台下的笑聲， 似那漣漪

他的角色， 仿佛與後父一同回憶過去時，飾演志龍的他 為了劇中將來的舞台劇而撰寫了另一篇新劇。

這樣的劇中劇， 讓人看著甚是上癮。目不轉睛
途中分析了女主角的性格， 因為優柔寡斷的選擇， 使得同屬朋友的同伴各自嘗著了想得卻又無法終成眷屬。 是有情， 還是無情， 又或者因為膽怯而錯失了最佳的告白時機的後父， 太過體貼而願意放手的他。 讓那心痛成了暫時的癡狂。與新女伴翩翩起舞， 夜夜笙歌， 試圖想忘卻的傷痕， 人卻只得被現實的範圍給框著。

「因為他需要我， 只剩下我可以為他高歌， 然而你還有夢想， 你有曲詞陪伴」
卻不知曲詞間的深情， 竟只為了自己而流露。

是那種愛在心裡口難開的陳腐劇情， 卻仍叫人不禁為此音樂家深感不甘， 期待他的愛， 他的氣質與柔情，能勝過那衝動魯莽， 帶點霸道的民主討伐者。像那歌詞中的掙扎， 像當時的民眾也想往城堡中飛去一探究竟。 圍牆外的乃是宮中嚮往的自由， 而那高貴的神秘， 卻又讓人好奇

然而， 終究赢不起那種莫名的堅持， 終究落寞的像那在冬日一消而逝的-雪花

他走在光華門街道上懷舊， 佈景的黃昏， 是他最鍾愛的景色， 短暫地使人眷戀。

最悲傷的思念， 莫過於我在你身旁， 你明也懷念著我， 卻牽著別人的手

相思， 相念， 卻像那城堡高高砌起的圍牆般， 無法穿越。是諷刺獨裁的霸道， 卻也譜出了這場戀歌的無奈。

謝幕， 靦腆的敏煥一如往常的在鞠躬後默默站在身後， 那些體貼的前輩卻一而再的將他帶至台前一同跳舞， 才讓他笑的燦爛。

而那燦爛， 是讓人沉醉的。
我想， 這孩子人氣又要炸裂了吧。
iPhoneからの投稿 ]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11480500921.html Thu, 28 Feb 2013 17:46:56 +0900 미나리 오사카

大阪場

也許是因為初公演， 顯得有些生澀。
但拿手的撒嬌仍然讓人目不轉睛

開場時的雙鋼琴像是音樂教室
舞台劇的說明表示， 名叫志龍（敏煥飾， 為了公演的企劃準備而拜訪了岀名的寫作家

然而， 公演的內容卻勾起了作曲家試圖忘卻卻仍舊熟悉的愛情回憶。
「誒， 還是因為你想忘記而不願意配合這次的公演呢， 害羞嗎唉伊卡哇依！」；「對不起」

日文的可愛一喊岀聲， 兩手交錯的指著老師的敏煥， 卻又因為失禮而道歉的他，可愛模樣不禁讓舞伎座內傳來了尖叫聲。

*光華門附近的街道上走來的男人， 嘴裡刁著煙， 顯得憂鬱

「刁煙看起來比較帥」，
像是為了撰寫著另一部舞台劇而埋下的伏筆。

又像是音樂老師為此而讓思路徘徊在自己的過去， 年輕時， 那在酒吧寫著個而為此岀名的自己，喜歡夕陽， 煙， 還有， 利用歌詞來詮釋情感的， 那樣外冷內熱的自己

他的同伴們， 是為了打倒獨裁， 獲得民主而使用音樂來發動學生運動的一群年輕人

個子小説話卻很大聲的前輩， 有衝勁， 一身紅外套， 髮型利落的女作曲家， 還有， 昇昊及基歐飾演的， 音樂老師最好的朋友， 學生運動的領導人， 臉小， 有些霸道， 喜歡黑色的小伙子。

另人糾葛的一場戀情， 就降落在這間酒吧

當時， 名為blue art的酒吧正在徵歌手， 為此， 認識這間酒吧負責人的讀書管老闆， 將自己認定能成為好歌手的女孩帶了過來

個人很喜歡演員坐在第一排假裝是聽眾的時候， 那種， 讓其他觀眾也能感到融入這場戲的感覺

因為相識而煽起的一場優柔不斷的三角戀， 糾結， 心疼， 又銘心。

志龍的角色即是將這樣的三角戀再自己的後父前呈現， 自己親父為了打倒獨裁的努力， 為此戲添了份哀戚。然而， 那樣衝破規制而得著的民主， 那樣的犧牲卻無疑成了另一篇佳話。 為了現在的自由， 為了更好的未來。

劇中， 志龍（敏煥）有了兩三次的solo 又唱又跳的他，

仿佛 崔敏煥， 那個總是站在哥哥們後頭默默打鼓的小孩， 那樣被掩蓋的微弱光芒， 一瞬間亮了整個舞台。 他， 在宣告， 自己所擁有的潛力， 不僅僅只在打鼓的技巧上。

雖然是初次出場， 雖然是有份生澀， 卻又如此吸引目光， 是那樣的， 真實， 不做作， 且自然。

外頭的花圈少不了他的，此起彼落的談論聲中， 總能聽見敏煥敏煥的評論。

喜歡他轉著圈要他的音樂老師獻花的那幕

喜歡他得意洋洋要開演唱會的那幕， 喜歡他們演著演著倒像是真正的父子的那一幕

喜歡， 開場時， 他做在白色演奏琴前的那幕

喜歡， 他拿著那把吉他， 唱跳自如的時候

那是初場， 卻也是個好的開始。

iPhoneからの投稿 ]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11479032982.html Tue, 26 Feb 2013 16:22:17 +0900 突然不知道自己為何要這麼辛苦.... 連住的地方都不確定
為了見小芹菜一面就衝來了
就算來了他也不一定知道我在

不知道是哪種心情想要犧牲或奉獻什麼
總是覺得這種心態為了教會而做不是更好嗎?
但更多時候卻因為FT而感到幸福而不是現在待的教會

開場的時候看到了贊助的米
覺得女主角還是很有心的

還有奉獻的花道
總覺得FNC應該獻上點心意...

一登場就是敏煥跟男主角, 似乎飾演著敏煥的鋼琴老師((後來好像是父親
訴說著一場愛情故事, 似回憶又似為了舞台劇而寫的劇本

劇本內兩名作曲家愛上了一名歌聲非常好聽的女孩
原本為了讀書館而工作的女孩後來因為作曲家的幫忙而出道成為了有名的歌手
其中一名作曲家利用著歌詞, 為了要宣導民主, 透過作曲的方式來達成學生運動的目的等穿插的故事

看了之後總覺得自己的韓文能力跟日文能力都不夠
因為還沒有辦法將所有的內容完全的理解
大部分都是很投入的聽歌, 觀察表演
其實真的很希望小芹菜是真正彈奏的, 但連踏板也沒有踩, 手指也沒有在琴鍵上完全彈奏的樣子我猜
大概是因為練習時間有限而造成的結果吧

這種時候就會很不喜歡趕鴨子上架的感覺
反倒是舞台劇的其他俳優都非常的專業

但是敏煥跳舞的時候真的很可愛
很喜歡自然的表現很喜歡每個擺著的動作
很喜歡他跟其他演員的互動

感覺很像主角
但更感覺我像是去看mblaq的昇昊哥的....

故事內說明了兩男一女之間的三角戀糾葛, 因為女主角的優柔寡斷造成了作曲家的痛心抉擇放手
是個有歡笑, 有眼淚, 有深情, 有溫暖, 也有幸福的舞台劇

看完之後會更喜歡韓國
雖然仍然不太明白其中的社會運動還有獨裁等
但想必每個民主國家都有類似的經歷吧我猜

我累了
我真的不知道我在幹麻這麼努力
總之明天早上能不能見到我都不知道
但任務完畢我就要回去好好睡一覺了

今天就先這樣吧....
只是突然很想抱怨而已
]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11411605011.html Sat, 24 Nov 2012 01:04:18 +0900 Binjin- Promise (3) Part of each others' body
That's why it makes separation harder,
That's why it was far more heartbroken

You still alive, but no more part of my dream.


He was the one who took the responsibility to write the song
and Jaejin took the parts of lyrics

They smiled to each other " no matter are we together or not, we will support each other, right?"

The song's match, just like as if it was wrote by one person.
Two hearts were together, full of happiness and smiles.

While you were still with me, my heart got its sunshine
Now, it was filled with fog, everything becomes foggy, so blur.

The link broke, what's left was me, trying to find your shadow,
but you aren't there...


Anxious brought Hongki back to stay with Jaejin
He hugs him so hard in order to get all the attention back
「I can't let myself leave you alone with the pain...」

He sighed... "when are you going to stop yourself falling back to the pain...we were here, but all you want was him"

「in deed, he didn't even care how hurt you are but choose to disappear」
「if he loves you too, he can't be this kind of selfish」

but Hongki didn't argue his thoughts back.
The hug tears Jaejin's heart, but tears more on Hongki...

「I am the one who is besides you, but your eyes and heart were filled by Wonbin so you can't even figure out who is truly wants you better...」

That's how disappointment comes, but no one can turns it around either.
This was because Jaejin's heart was stubborn and he decides no matter what he wants to trust Wonbin more than anyone else.

He thought Wonbin was sincere enough, but he doesn't even remember his promise.

Jaejin start fights against him after Wonbin come back to the company

His appearance doesn't brought joy.

That was because the 'revenge started'

As when misunderstanding build higher, but no one can prevent it...

They were quarreling about Wonbin's decision on working with the band and have the live in Japan with the band

Hongki wanna punch on Wonbin's face, the anger was burning, even more after seeing Jaejin's pain

Selfishness in him brought the friendship into distance...

The promise was being damaged, and no more opportunity to fix it.

"Wonbin...seriously, we need a talk, you've to give me this opportunity."

They went to the practice room, rock the door, scroll down the curtain.

"Tell me what's going on"

"Jaejin... I am sorry, I made a bad decision, I should not leave you, neither left FTisland..."

"I don't know what to do... I miss band's version, but I am the one who decides solo...I wasn't smart enough, so... I regret... Jaejin... I..."

Tears dropped like raining, Jaejin's eyes was widely open...
Every time He was upset with Wonbin, but He doesn't even consider how much pain Wonbin try to bought himself... alone.

No more support from the group member,
half way gone fans...
and, criticizer from everywhere

"Jaejin, trust me, I am not enemy of you or neither FTisland..."
He could see how struggle Wonbin was...
The immature can't fix the past, but future still waits for both of them.


"You own us an apologise, but I will forgive you."

He went closer to Wonbin, hug him but kept in slient

"I will support you further, because we are partners, but stop hurting us more please..."

Wonbin was broken down, his knees down, all the pride fade away...

"I will try my best to make everything more mature..."

When the true color shows, when they become more honest too each other...
There is no more argument, no more offensive behavior and hurts.

What's more, is there will be more promises.
Just in other to keep their love relationship longer.


「I promise...I will make everything right again」
「Ｉ know, so I, will wait」

no more nightmare,
no more tears,
no more misunderstandings

but a heart was open again, for Wonbin to prove himself.

"I will be with you, I promise."
"I promise"

The kiss was sweet, secret, but delicate.
(end)
]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11360468202.html Fri, 21 Sep 2012 17:46:27 +0900 有些複雜... 那些選擇讓我...有些迷惘

不知道該前進或該後退的選擇...


我不在明白什麼是愛情，　是喜歡，　是現實，還是自己的妄想覆蓋了這一切．．．


大概從１０歲開始吧，　見過的明星就不在少數．．．


真正開始追星卻是３年前的事情．．．


因為他們我的標準提高了．．．


卻造成了無法接受演藝圈外的男人的問題．．．


換句話說，　我的標準提高了．．．



也許是那樣的外貌協會，也許是我自己不想妥協


我相信自己的人生有一種自由, 選擇快樂的自由


但那無法match我家人的價值.觀..


事實如此, "追星" 這樣的名詞在他們眼裡被貶低著


為何要去見那些被經紀公司包裝出來的人


那沒有真實, 只是一種理想, 一種形象, 而你卻因為那樣的形象而感到自我美好, 不願意面對現實, 放棄生活中的享受, 變得節儉只為了獲取能夠見到他們的機會...


演唱會對他們來說只是兩個小時的唱唱跳跳, 回憶也只是雲煙...


但我在意的更多, 那樣片段的互動是我想更加努力的動力


當我疲憊, 當我虛弱軟弱, 當我無法再向前進的時候


見到他們才能夠建築我自己


我不需要認可, 也不是因為跟那些一起去演唱會的朋友在一起自在的原因


而是因為我喜歡音樂


也喜歡跟他們再一起的時候那種氛圍


別人取代不了...


比起自己想要收回甚麼...


更想要看著那六個寶貝成長...


看著他們更加卓越, 成熟,


看著他們做出更加吸引人的曲子, 更高超的吉他造酯


看著他們的上進心沒有減退, 即使諸多壓力在他們眼前, 卻能夠淡淡的微笑著彷彿害怕我們擔心般的, 前進著



看著他們因為無法忍耐所以哭了...


看著他單膝跪下, 只為了給我們一個浪漫的夜晚


你想要的是哪種真實?


我只知道, 就算我無法拉近與他們的關係...


至少他們是看重歌迷的



要不然李洪基不會親自去幫歌迷搬不足夠的椅子, 因為太冷了給歌迷準備熱可可, 還幫忙詢問是否可以提早入場


要不然崔鐘訓不會花半年的時間, 在忙碌的行程下打著日文的Blog就為了讓歌迷能夠開心起來...


要不然崔敏換不會90度彎腰鞠躬, 還因為你喚了他的名字而專心地回看著你的臉


要不然李在真不會因為一聽到叫喚而回頭望著... 那能夠感到的, 在乎



要不然吳元斌不會, 即使再累也要一一十指緊扣跟每位歌迷道謝... 就算感到迷茫卻因為想給我們看到更好的他們, 咬緊牙根的前進著


收到的衣服也趕緊穿上


姑且無論喜歡與否, 至少他們給予的禮節讓你知道你不是只是單單他們的投資者而已

也不是單方面的而已...


至少他們給了你女兒你們無法給的美好回憶


那種無法取代的回憶


他們只是人, 也是有父母的...


我真的很不希望在套上"明星"的標籤而為此需要保持距離



回報什麼的....


有些事情你不去經歷, 你根本就不會明白你想要的是甚麼...


而我想要的, 也許不是他們回給我甚麼...


是我能夠見到他們的時候那些令人難忘的所有片段


透過那些片段像拼圖一樣編織起的人生


我想, 才是我想要的...


是我太幸福沒有錯, 拿著錢就去做你們不喜歡的事情...


但我大概戒不掉吧...




是的, 他們有缺點, 各式各樣的缺點


但沒有人是完美的

不要因為"明星"這個詞而刻意放大他們的缺點...




]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11342841735.html Fri, 31 Aug 2012 22:07:47 +0900 Binjin- promise (2)
Jaejin opened his eyes when thunder roars, the rains dropped, like the tears fallen down and wet the pillow…

He can not even remember how long does this kind of status become his customs…couldn't even count how many times he woke up like this

He wants to fell back to sleep again, to be honest, he misses his dreams…where Wonbin was still with him…

where the reality can't prevent them to be together…

Hongki was struggled… he was so anxious and wants to wept away Jaejin's tears, but He knew what causes his tears…

He left the bed and let Jaejin keep going on his memory looping.

Picked a pillow and slept beside Jonghoon, so at least he doesn't have to fell into the bitterness like Jaejin…

All of them do miss Wonbin, but Jaejin was severly.

It was an addiction-
'how pain I was, how real you were here with me.'
Jaejin felt sorry for Hongki, but he doesn't know how to fix his own heart.

'I just don't know how to erase Wonbin from my heart!' the anger was just like thunder which roared again…
loud and inevitable…

'you promised to be with us, remember?!'

He couldn't shout these words to Wonbin when he looked so sincere and innocent during the time Wonbin raised his idea about leaving…

'I want something else, some other type of music, some…'
Kiss stopped the discussion between Jaejin and Wonbin… in which Jaejin barely heared his heartbroken…

Wonbin didn't resist, he let the kiss went deeper, as if this kind of comfort would took away the guilt.

The hug was strong and close… when they both did want another choice but realised the impossiblity… at least kiss would fulfill his greedy, at least…

'Jaejin, you do know why I've got to leave…' the hand gently touched his hair, the voice were soft, but the words are like swords, attacks and caused heart-bleeding

This was why the promise couldn't be kept… when the love twisted both of them together, it was out of rationality, was nearly out of control…
The responsibility was too huge for teenagers to carry.
It wasn't just the future for both of them… it was include five people… two famlies…

Wonbin tried his best to reach a safe point for he and Jaejin… but it had gone too far… they had been too close… ]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11291933498.html Sun, 01 Jul 2012 22:26:31 +0900 譲れたくない… 今の気持ち…

譲れたくないになちゃう…彼のことを幸せになっていつも祈ってるのに
叶えたとき、なぜ心が壊れそうに気がするの(;_;)

仲良くしているのに、
彼女があったら、逆に普通な会話もできない…
ごめんね、豊かな心じゃないごめんね、(;_;)

私、どうすればいいの…
逃避しても痛い心を治さないで…

もう無理(;_;) ]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11290349121.html Sat, 30 Jun 2012 06:40:18 +0900 叫びたい… 試験もいい教会もいい逃げたい、逃避したい(;_;)

こういうはプレッシャーかなぁ…
久しぶり皮膚がこんなに悪くなりました…
ストレスかなぁ…
人は私のことを責めなかったのに、私は自分の要求は過度かしら…
勝ちたいから、もう負けたくないから(;_;) 辛いと我慢できないも乗り越えたい！
いつまで繰り返すを止まりたい。
優秀な人間なりたい、強い人間なりたい、後悔しないように、前に進めたい！
でもレベルが全然違う(;_;)
しかし頑張ったのに(;_;)成績が(--;)になるとき…友達が教会のことを攻めるとき(;_;)
凄く落ち込んでる…
]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11286240485.html Mon, 25 Jun 2012 01:02:25 +0900 Binjin- promise (1) something so sweet, pretty as a rainbow, something special that could not been replaced...

Where was the core value started changing?
when I addict to your hug?
when I was dark and we find something linked us, something that was delightful and enjoy.

Something that made my heart fall, and it was for you, Wonbin.

when I first seeing you, there is something strong in your eyes that could not be denied.

When I heard your guitar matched my bass, when the beat were matched, when I smile and I know you know the meaning of my smile.

When we don't need to talk but already known what each other were thinking.

When does things become out of control?

When you become greedy to the type and genre of the music, when I know somehow I have got to let you go.

Memories flows like waves in Jaejin's mind, it was filled by Wonbin, he let go the guitar, stand out for his memories, then the rain falls.

He still remember how Wonbin love to play under the rain, he smiles under and drops of water, and that, was the smile that you cannot see anywhere else

]]> https://ameblo.jp/roybass-614/entry-11284977169.html Sat, 23 Jun 2012 17:59:58 +0900 Binjin- promise (intro)
This was the promise of two boys, when they were young

As the naive remain, it always bring something romantic…

He build his habit on looking up to the sky, but the boy were gone anyway… not even a shadow told him where he is.

'You lied to me, the cloud couldn't even teach me where you are'

Tears covered everything, include the love which weren't revealed directly.

'If I confessed my heart,will you decide to stay instead?' a sigh follows the thought, Jaejin looked at the guitar beside his blue bass.

It was being gaved as a gift from Wonbin, after he signed the contract with FNC and disappeared from the dorm.

The dorm where five people live together, the dorm where were filled with laughter and sounds of different guitar beats, the dorm…

'it was you who have said "let walking together forever",but you didn't even grant this promise…'

The regret caused a punch on the wall, the sound was loud, but the scar was not as hurt as the heartbroken.

I miss the time when your kisses fell on my cheeks.
when you laughed shyly and told me my cheeks were soft like fairy floss.

I miss the time when you insist against the rules, so members could be truly strong and persist too…

Hongki looked at Jaejin's hand, he hold Jaejin tight into his arms, but could not fulfill his emptiness.

Something were causing the heart has a hole, it was void, was love, was memories that not sure should be remember again or not…

Jaejin touched the guitar again, he wants to find the promise back, somehow...


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