left at 7pm on thursday and friday... a feat not accomplished since sasol last july (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ

lazing at home really does wonders to the mind.. slept till 130pm on saturday and nua-ed the entire day playing mousehunt (its addictive ok!) and scrounging through ebay in search of a replacement of the new-found love.

in the form of epi black sarah wallet. crazy cheap at 300 bucks, but as the bidding is still going on, maybe will hit 400? idk... should I get it?

no quips about authencity though i'm inclined to believe that the seller isn't lying.

such is the random-ness of lazy weekends.

and why doesnt my trap in mousehunt work!?!?

too many things going on at once.

not to say its none of my fault, but i only accept my part of the blame.

crossroads. which way to go?

it really sucks when you cannot trust yourself to make the right decision, and yet you don't trust others with your feelings. even though they may give much better advice that you can come up with.

in this state, where you are blinded to even the most glaring aspect of any issue.

like the blindfolded woman holding the two swords, sitting solitary upon a stone.

"just be who you are, because the people who care, don't mind and the people who mind, don't matter"

i have never understood anything beyond the literal meaning of the phrase. just like i've never understood how people could open themselves up readily to others.

maybe trust is just another arcane concept out of reach.

i encountered another incident that revoked anything i've grapsed of the above concept today.

i give up.

実はやるべきものがいっぱすぎ、昨日は完成すべき、でもとても怠けになくて、なにもできない。

いまは後悔だよ　(°Д°；≡°Д°；)

がんばってないもう、あたし　('-'*)(,_,*)('-'*)(,_,*)

あとは、

今日なんでこんなに暑いなの？　異常な現像かも・・・

いつものように普通ですごし、でも今年年玉はちょっと増やして、とてもびっくり！　百ドル上ぐらいね。。。先週買ったのタロットは無料になれました！　ヾ(＠°▽°＠)ﾉ

最近タロットをきになる！

ブラック・マジックというものなんですけど、面白くて楽しいものですわ・・・　自分にリヂングはまだしないですが、すぐにきっとやって来た。でも、家に両親がいる時しないでほうがいいと思う。叱れるかもしれないか・・・

もう一つは、中華音楽もハマってるんです。

周りの人のせいかもしれないけど、ジェ・ポッピのほうはあまり興味がなくなれた　(→o←)ゞ

あさっては仕事に戻らなきゃ・・・やべ！　(ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ

さあ、がんばれみんな！！　

金属の虎の力は絶対にみんなに着く！　

新年おめでとう！　:*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:

きっと辛いなぁ。。。

でも絶対言えなくて、周りのひとにどうでも励まして、どうでも協力を伝えて、やっぱり言えない。

なんでそんな怖いの？

まず、誰でも真実を信頼できないから、協力を受け取ることを不可能；　もう一つ、自分が彼を好きかどうかも分からない；　最後に彼と長い間に共通ネタをまったくなくて、なにも話せる情勢を常にあった。

どうするの？

一人の仲間に糸口を伝えて、まさかすぐに当てるがびっくりした！　でも、当たり前ではずれを答えた。　後で、この仲間は疑って、言えないことにもかかわらず、仲間を信じられないを感じた。　更に、「もし当てる、彼に絶対に伝えて」と言った。

そうだろうね。。。

三日前、言えない愛の人が偶然会った。　元は彼のことを忘れて始まったので、全部が戻れてくれて、きっと感じ悪かった　Y(＞_＜、)Y

まだ怖い。

拒絶ではないかと思い付き、後悔するかもしれない？　(´□｀｡)

an extended hiatus, so to speak. not that i didn't want to blog, but really, there was nothing significant to blog about.

so i got myself promoted to seniorship at the current firm. the last entry was written when i was still a budding first-year employee, who was eager to please and enthusiastic about everything.

don't get me wrong, i don't particularly hate my job. but like all things, there is always room for improvement- in the form of working hours and welfare. and sometimes, the firm slips up and the result is employees leaving en masse.

yes, i lost many friends the past 3 months to the allure of better paying better working hours jobs out there, but hey, life has to go on right? its just sad that there are much less people around to bitch with, drop words of encouragement and feel in the same boat with nowadays.

:(

work aside, nothing much has changed.

except that i highlighted my hair for the 1st time in 24 years; and went for my first full body massage in the same number of years.

the year seems to be starting off well :)

seriously, there hasn't been anything substantial to blog about-

other than the fact that i've been feeling extremely restless the past 2 weeks.

i guess i really shouldn't be complaining about how nasty the client is at work, the lousy culinary choices at the sole canteen in the work vicinity, the freakingly hot weather and the fact that i am very jittery about the 8 june exam;

when others within the same continent are fighting to rebuild their lives,

as the chance of finding survivors diminish with each passing minute,

where necessities are treated as valuables yada...

it's such a sad thing-

almost 100,000 people (including estimates of the missing) wiped out within a single week :(

*minute of silence*

went to kinokuniya today! been waiting a long while for the 20% off storewide thingy.

strange that the past few times it came, i took it for granted that the next will come soon... but i've been waiting for like months for this? =S

couldn't find 2 books that i intended to get.

like "????"

saw it numerous times during the past few months... why out of stock now?

argh, but yeah still felt guilty spending almost a hundred bucks on books :(

(speaking of which, i haven't signed off my credit card for so long i had to spend all of 5 seconds recalling the correct signature :X)

got grammar and past year papers for JLPT1 this december.

THAT'S another hurdle i need to cross this year :)

&

sputnik sweetheart by murakami (gave into temptation and got the english version)

&

hundred years of solitude by gabriel garcia marquez.

read the latter a couple of years ago;

and it one book that really takes imagination to new heights *thumbs up*

now i realise i should have gotten "the wind-up bird chronicle" by murakami as well.

oh wells... there's always next time :P

shall revert to blogging in japanese soon.

the lack of use has really taken its toll-

can't even form a proper sentence without rearranging the subjects/actions/particles.

coming from a person who passed JLPT2,

this spells BAD NEWS for december X(

been in a terrible mood the past week.

culmination of friendships/work/family/exams has taken its heavy toll.

let's hope next week will be better :)

*happy belated 32nd birthday to inocchi!! and congrats on ur special wedding ceremony!*

what the fuck's wrong with adults nowadays?

bah.

not good to wash dirty linen in public, but i'm quite disgusted by a particular pair of adults' behaviour.

don't they know the meaning of "tolerance"?

dammit.. to cause so much emotional stress to the innocent elderly victim as well 川・ε･川

i shall stop harping on the subject before i hyperventilate :@

...

i should really be studying but how did i spend the week?

working.. i'm not guilty about this though. one-week-job, plus a whole lot of sections to handle, so not complaining...

saturday.

woke up just in time for driving, then went for japanese buffet dinner @ hanabi which is next to crown centre.

satisfying (;^ω^A, but furama hotel's better although the place only accepts reservations coz its so popular :S

then went for chill-out session with the friend who's leaving for hk tomorrow... jealous can? i wanna holiday toooooo m(．．)m

took long walks around town area and ended up at clarke quay for our nightriders :P

haha long walks are good!!!

sunday-

driving in the morning. afternoon nap. manga. aunt's impromptu visit and had to entertain her.

10:12pm now and i'm tired ε=(｡・д・｡)

what a piggy manz...

ps: no mood to blog in japanese nowadays. i wonder why..... and i'm still pissed with the said adults :S

question of the day:

what's the allure in shopping?

(grammar-wise, i'm not sure if the "in" should be replaced with an "of"...)

anyway, was reading the more recent entries from xiaxue.blogspot.com and the author was giving the readers a tour of her too-pink-it-hurts-in-my-opinion princess room...

not surprisingly, the said author has TONS of girly stuff in the white-and-pink striped room.

take a look at her blog entry;

its worth abit of contemplation-

how somebody can be so obsessed with a certain colour, how MUCH of those accessories/clothes/makeup and what not a person can have (and i'm talking about someone who's just a year older than me and i-think does not have a fixed income job).

i'm impressed, nonetheless.

despite me saying i like shopping (except for those girly stuff), usually when i shop, i just go straight to the section i always go to (ie japanese novels/online manga websites), zoom in, buy what i want to and i'm outta there =/

i guess its just style?

i'm not the person to spend hours picking and choosing between this or that.

its more of whether to get it or not and feeling frsutrated coz more often that not, its a case of i-wanna-get-it-but-spending-so-much-on-such-a-useless-thing-is-really-uncalled-for.

argh.

but when i make up my mind to get something, its usually mine :D

and i've learnt to be decisive this few years!

that said, i just bought almost a hundred-bucks worth of gay-pron stuff on the way courtesy of benippon.com. v(^^)

and the meticulous way she (xiaxue) arranges her stuff.

colour-coding, different makeup stuff, different accessories...

been wanting to arrange my stuff properly for the longest time now, but somehow, it NEVER gets done. the only part of the room i've managed to arrange is my V6 collection-

which is also messed-up now since my hentai-anime is stuffed in between CDs to avoid detection by the conservative-stricken parental units =X

i'm such an otaku.

this aside, i'm making it my resolution for 2008 to keep my stuff properly!

my japanese/english/chinese novels, study materials, magazines, variety shows, manga, toys and kpmg stuff.

thats about all my belongings anyway... and fingers-crossed, next cny, they'll be in their proper places :)

pray i don't put other priorities first;

like finishing all my unwatched anime in the time i should be using to pack =/