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travel and gold-mining, he,
in turn, touch by touch, painted an ever

clearer portrait of her. She amp-
lified the ranch life of her girlhood, prattling on about horses and dogs
and persons and things until it was as if he saw the whole process of her
growth and her becoming. All this he was able to trace on through the
period of her father's failure and death, when she had been compelled to
leave the university and go into office work. The brother, too, she spoke
of, and of her long struggle to have him cured and of her now fading
hopes. Daylight decided that it was easier to come to an understanding
of her than he had anticipated, though he was always aware that behind
and under all he knew of her was the mysterious and baffling woman
and sex. There, he was humble enough to confess to himself, was a chart-
less, shoreless sea, about which he knew nothing and which he must
nevertheless somehow navigate.

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His lifelong fear of woman had originated out of non-understanding
and had also prevented him from reaching any understanding. Dede on
horseback, Dede gathering poppies on a summer hillside, Dede taking
down dictation in her swift shorthand strokes—all this was comprehens-
ible to him. But he did not know the Dede who so quickly changed from
mood to mood, the Dede who refused steadfastly to ride with him and
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whose eyes the golden glow
forever waxed and waned and whispered hints and messages that were
not for his ears. In all such things he saw the glimmering profundities of
sex, acknowledged their lure, and accepted them as incomprehensible.

There was another side of her, too, of which he was consciously ignor-
ant. She knew the books, was possessed of that mysterious and awful
thing called "culture." And yet, what continually surprised him was that
this culture was never obtruded on their intercourse. She did not talk
books, nor art, nor similar folderols. Homely minded as he was himself,
he found her almost equally homely minded. She liked the simple and
the out-of-doors, the horses and the hills, the sunlight and the flowers.
He found himself in a partly new flora, to which she was the guide,
pointing out to him all the varieties of the oaks, making him acquainted
with the madrono and the manzanita, teaching him the names, habits,
and habitats of unending series of wild flowers, shrubs, and ferns. Her
keen woods eye was another delight to him. It had been trained in the
open, and little escaped it. One day, as a test, they strove to see which
could discover the greater number of birds' nests. And he, who had al-
ways prided himself on his own acutely trained observation, found him-
self hard put to keep his score ahead. At the end of the day he was but
three nests in the lead, one of which she challenged stoutly and of which
even he confessed serious doubt. He complimented her and told her that
her success must be due to the fact that she was a bird herself, with all a
bird's keen vision and quick-flashing ways.
The more he knew her the more he became convinced of this birdlike
quality in her. That was why she liked to ride, he argued. It was the
nearest approach to flying. A field of poppies, a glen of ferns, a row of
poplars on a country lane, the tawny brown of a hillside, the shaft of
sunlight on a distant peak—all such were provocative of quick joys
which seemed to him like so many outbursts of song. Her joys were in
little things, and she seemed always singing. Even in sterner things it
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had a good many
tutors since Ransom gave him up, and it could not be said that his educa-
tion languished. Mrs. Luna spoke with pride of the manner in which he
went through them; if he did not master his lessons, he mastered his
teachers, and she had the happy conviction that she gave him every ad-
vantage. Ransom's delay was diplomatic, but at the end of ten minutes
he returned to the young ladies in Boston; he asked why, with their ag-
gressive programme, one hadn't begun to feel their onset, why the
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reached his ears. Hadn't she
come out yet in public? was she not coming to stir them up in New
York? He hoped she hadn't broken down.

"She didn't seem to break down last summer, at the Female Conven-
tion," Mrs. Luna replied. "Have you forgotten that too? Didn't I tell you
of the sensation she produced there, and of what I heard from Boston
about it? Do you mean to say I didn't give you that "Transcript," with the
report of her great speech? It was just before they sailed for Europe; she
went off with flying colours, in a blaze of fireworks." Ransom protested
that he had not heard this affair mentioned till that moment, and then,
when they compared dates, they found it had taken place just after his
last visit to Mrs. Luna. This, of course, gave her a chance to say that he
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impression, at any rate, that they had talked together about Verena's
sudden bound into fame. Apparently she confounded him with some
one else, that was very possible; he was not to suppose that he occupied
such a distinct place in her mind, especially when she might die twenty
deaths before he came near her. Ransom demurred to the implication
that Miss Tarrant was famous; if she were famous, wouldn't she be in the
New York papers? He hadn't seen her there, and he had no recollection
of having encountered any mention at the time (last June, was it?) of her
exploits at the Female Convention. A local reputation doubtless she had,
but that had been the case a year and a half before, and what was expec-
ted of her then was to become a first-class national glory. He was willing
to believe that she had created some excitement in Boston, but he
shouldn't attach much importance to that till one began to see her photo-
graph in the stores. Of course, one must give her time, but he had sup-
posed Miss Chancellor was going to put her through faster.

If he had taken a contradictious tone on purpose to draw Mrs. Luna
out, he could not have elicited more of the information he desired. It was
perfectly true that he had seen no reference to Verena's performances in
the preceding June; there were periods when the newspapers seemed to
him so idiotic that for weeks he never looked at one. He learned from
Mrs. Luna that it was not Olive who had sent her the "Transcript" and in
letters had added some private account of the doings at the convention
to the testimony of that amiable sheet; she had been indebted for this ser-
vice to a "gentleman-friend," who wrote her everything that happened in
Boston, and what every one had every day for dinner. Not that it was ne-
cessary for her happiness to know; but the gentleman she spoke of didn't
know what to invent to please her. A Bostonian couldn't imagine that
one didn't want to know, and that was their idea of ingratiating them-
selves, or, at any rate, it was his, poor man. Olive would never have gone
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he was not eager for the changes
she advocated, and wished to show him that, especially to a Southerner
who had bitten the dust, her sex could be magnanimous. This know-
ledge of his secret heresy seemed to him to be also in the faces of the oth-
er ladies, whose circumspect glances, however (for he had not been in-
troduced), treated it as a pity rather than as a shame. He was conscious
of all these middle-aged feminine eyes, conscious of curls, rather limp,
that depended from dusky bonnets, of heads poked forward, as if with a
waiting, listening, familiar habit, of no one being very bright or gay—no
one, at least, but that girl he had noticed before, who had a brilliant head,
and who now hovered on the edge of the conclave. He met her eye
again; she was watching him too. It had been in his thought that Mrs.
Farrinder, to whom his cousin might have betrayed or misrepresented
him, would perhaps defy him to combat, and he wondered whether he
could pull himself together (he was extremely embarrassed) sufficiently
to do honour to such a challenge. If she would fling down the glove on
the temperance question, it seemed to him that it would be in him to pick
it up; for the idea of a meddling legislation on this subject filled him with
rage; the taste of liquor being good to him, and his conviction strong that
civilisation itself would be in danger if it should fall into the power of a

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herd of vociferating women (I am but the reporter of his angry formulae)
to prevent a gentleman from taking his glass. Mrs. Farrinder proved to
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wouldn't like to give the company some account of the social and politic-
al condition of the South. He begged to be excused, expressing at the
same time a high sense of the honour done him by such a request, while
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lecture. He smiled
even while he suspected the meaning of the look Miss Chancellor gave
him: "Well, you are not of much account after all!" To talk to those people
about the South—if they could have guessed how little he cared to do it!
He had a passionate tenderness for his own country, and a sense of in-
timate connexion with it which would have made it as impossible for
him to take a roomful of Northern fanatics into his confidence as to read
aloud his mother's or his mistress's letters. To be quiet about the South-
ern land, not to touch her with vulgar hands, to leave her alone with her
wounds and her memories, not prating in the market-place either of her
troubles or her hopes, but waiting as a man should wait, for the slow
process, the sensible beneficence, of time—this was the desire of
Ransom's heart, and he was aware of how little it could minister to the
entertainment of Miss Birdseye's guests.

"We know so little about the women of the South; they are very voice-
less," Mrs. Farrinder remarked. "How much can we count upon them? in
what numbers would they flock to our standard? I have been recommen-
ded not to lecture in the Southern cities."

"Ah, madam, that was very cruel advice—for us!" Basil Ransom ex-
claimed, with gallantry.

"I had a magnificent audience last spring in St. Louis," a fresh young
voice announced, over the heads of the gathered group—a voice which,
on Basil's turning, like every one else, for an explanation, appeared to
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on the faces of all
who opposed him—oh, yes, she knew all the hard names he had been
called. Yet she was not afraid of him. There was more than that in the
connotation of his name. Burning Daylight called up other things as well.
They were there in the newspapers, the magazines, and the books on the
Klondike. When all was said, Burning Daylight had a mighty connota-
tion—one to touch any woman's imagination, as it touched hers, the gate
between them, listening to the wistful and impassioned simplicity of his
speech. Dede was after all a woman, with a woman's sex-vanity, and it
was this vanity that was pleased by the fact that such a man turned in his
need to her.

And there was more that passed through her mind—sensations of
tiredness and loneliness; trampling squadrons and shadowy armies of

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vague feelings and vaguer prompting; and deeper and dimmer whisper-
ings and echoings, the flutterings of forgotten generations crystallized in-
to being and fluttering anew and always, undreamed and unguessed,
subtle and potent, the spirit and essence of life that under a thousand de-
ceits and masks forever makes for life. It was a strong temptation, just to
ride with this man in the hills. It would be that only and nothing more,
for she was firmly convinced that his way of life could never be her way.
On the other hand, she was vexed by none of the ordinary feminine fears
and timidities. That she could take care of herself under any and all cir-
cumstances she never doubted. Then why not? It was such a little thing,
after all.

She led an ordinary, humdrum life at best. She ate and slept and
worked, and that was about all. As if in review, her anchorite existence
passed before her: six days of the week spent in the office and in journey-
ing back and forth on the ferry; the hours stolen before bedtime for
snatches of song at the piano, for doing her own special laundering, for
sewing and mending and casting up of meagre accounts; the two even-
ings a week of social diversion she permitted herself; the other stolen
hours and Saturday afternoons spent with her brother at the hospital;
and the seventh day, Sunday, her day of solace, on Mab's back, out
among the blessed hills. But it was lonely, this solitary riding. Nobody of
her acquaintance rode.

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into trying it, but after a Sunday or two on hired livery hacks
they had lost interest. There was Madeline, who bought her own horse
and rode enthusiastically for several months, only to get married and go
away to live in Southern California. After years of it, one did get tired of
this eternal riding alone.

He was such a boy, this big giant of a millionaire who had half the rich
men of San Francisco afraid of him. Such a boy! She had never imagined
this side of his nature.
"How do folks get married?" he was saying. "Why, number one, they
meet; number two, like each other's looks; number three, get acquainted;
and number four, get married or not, according to how they like each
other after getting acquainted. But how in thunder we're to have a
chance to find out whether we like each other enough is beyond my
savvee, unless we make that chance ourselves. I'd come to see you, call
on you, only I know you're just rooming or boarding, and that won't do."

Suddenly, with a change of mood, the situation appeared to Dede ri-
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falter, because she was glad of the chance. She wanted to be very simple
in all her relations with her friend, and of course it was not simple so
soon as she began to keep things back. She could at any rate keep back as
little as possible, and she felt as if she were making up for a dereliction
when she answered Olive's inquiry so promptly.

"You never told me of that," Miss Chancellor remarked, in a low tone.

"I didn't want to. I know you don't like him, and I thought it would
give you pain. Yet I wanted him to be there—I wanted him to hear."

"What does it matter—why should you care about him?"

"Well, because he is so awfully opposed!"

"How do you know that, Verena?"

At this point Verena began to hesitate. It was not, after all, so easy to
keep back only a little; it appeared rather as if one must either tell
everything or hide everything. The former course had already presented
itself to her as unduly harsh; it was because it seemed so that she had
ended by keeping the incident of Basil Ransom's visit to Monadnoc Place
buried in unspoken, in unspeakable, considerations, the only secret she
had in the world—the only thing that was all her own. She was so glad
to say what she could without betraying herself that it was only after she
had spoken that she perceived there was a danger of Olive's pushing the
inquiry to the point where, to defend herself as it were, she should be ob-
liged to practise a positive deception; and she was conscious at the same
time that the moment her secret was threatened it became dearer to her.
She began to pray silently that Olive might not push; for it would be odi-
ous, it would be impossible, to defend herself by a lie. Meanwhile,
however, she had to answer, and the way she answered was by exclaim-
ing, much more quickly than the reflexions I note might have appeared
to permit, "Well, if you can't tell from his appearance! He's the type of
the reactionary."
Verena went to the toilet-glass to see that she had put on her hat prop-
erly, and Olive slowly got up, in the manner of a person not in the least
eager for food. "Let him react as he likes—for heaven's sake don't mind
him!" That was Miss Chancellor's rejoinder, and Verena felt that it didn't
say all that was in her mind. She wished she would come down to lunch-
eon, for she, at least, was honestly hungry. She even suspected Olive had
an idea she was afraid to express, such distress it would bring with it.
"Well, you know, Verena, this isn't our real life—it isn't our work," Olive
went on.

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"Well, no, it isn't, certainly," said Verena, not pretending at first that
she did not know what Olive meant. In a moment, however, she added,
"Do you refer to this social intercourse with Mr. Burrage?"

"Not to that only." Then Olive asked abruptly, looking at her, "How
did you know his address?"

"His address?"

"Mr. Ransom's—to enable Mrs. Burrage to invite him?"

They stood for a moment interchanging a gaze. "It was in a letter I got
from him."

At these words there came into Olive's face an expression which made
her companion cross over to her directly and take her by the hand. But
the tone was different from what Verena expected, when she said, with
cold surprise: "Oh, you are in correspondence!" It showed an immense
effort of self-control.

"He wrote to me once—I never told you," Verena rejoined, smiling.

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She felt that her friend's strange, uneasy eyes searched very far; a little
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that brute's eyes; there was a message there, but I wasn't big enough myself to catch it. Whatever it was (I know I'm making a fool of myself)-- whatever it was, it baffled me. I can't give an inkling of what I saw in that brute's eyes; it wasn't light, it wasn't colour; it was something that moved, away back, when the eyes themselves weren't moving. And I guess I didn't see it move either; I only sensed that it moved. It was an expression--that's what it was--and I got an impression of it. No; it was different from a mere expression; it was more than that. I don't know what it was, but it gave me a feeling of kinship just the same. Oh, no, not sentimental kinship. It was, rather, a kinship of equality. Those eyes never pleaded like a deer's eyes. They challenged. No, it wasn't defiance. It was just a calm assumption of equality. And I don't think it was deliberate. My belief is that it was unconscious on his part. It was there because it was there, and it couldn't help shining out. No, I don't mean shine. It didn't shine; it MOVED. I know I'm talking rot, but if you'd looked into that animal's eyes the way I have, you'd understand. Steve was affected the same way I was. Why, I tried to kill that Spot once--he

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was no good for anything; and I fell down on it. I led him out into the brush, and he came along slow and unwilling. He knew what was going on. I stopped in a likely place, put my foot on the rope, and pulled my big Colt's. And that dog sat down and looked at me. I tell you he didn't plead. He just looked. And I saw all kinds of incomprehensible things moving, yes, MOVING, in those eyes of his. I didn't really see them move; I thought I saw them, for, as I said before, I guess I only sensed them. And I want to tell you right now that it got beyond me. It was like killing a man, a conscious, brave man, who looked calmly into your gun as much as to say, "Who's afraid?" 　　Then, too, the message seemed so near that, instead of pulling the trigger quick, I stopped to see if I could catch the message. There it was, right before me, glimmering all around in those eyes of his. And then it was too late. I got scared. I was trembly all over, and my stomach generated a nervous palpitation that made me seasick. I just sat down and looked at the dog, and he looked at me, till I thought I was going crazy. Do you want to know what I did? I threw down the gun and ran back to camp with the fear of God in my heart. Steve laughed at me. But I notice that Steve led Spot into the woods, a week later, for the same purpose, and that Steve came back alone, and a little later Spot drifted back, too. 　　At any rate, Spot wouldn't work. We paid a hundred and ten dollars for him from the bottom of our sack, and he wouldn't work. He wouldn't even tighten the traces. Steve spoke to him the first time we put him in harness, and he sort of shivered, that was all. Not an ounce on the traces. He just stood still and wobbled, like so much jelly. Steve touched him with the whip. He yelped, but not an ounce. Steve touched him again, a bit harder, and he howled--the regular long wolf howl. Then Steve got mad and gave him half a dozen, and I came on the run from the tent. 　　I told Steve he was brutal with the animal, and we had some words-- the first we'd ever had. He threw the whip down in the snow and walked away mad. I picked it up and went to it. That Spot trembled and wobbled and cowered before ever I swung the lash, and with the first bite of it he howled like a lost soul. Next he lay down in the snow. I started the rest of the dogs, and they dragged him along while I threw the whip into him. He rolled over on his back and bumped along, his four legs waving in the air, himself howling as though he was going through a sausage machine. Steve came back and laughed at me, and I apologized for what I'd said. 　　There was

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