Maybe there's no friendship involving in this matter?

Turns out everything relating to global village rots.

If she treats you like a friend, or at least is going to, she should say more than just "I won't go with you." She should say a rain check and schedule a nother time. She should care about my job interview. She should worry about me going to the job interview. She should be willing to split the hotel bill with me. The truth is, she doesn't care.

Lame excuses.

You never run out of lame excuses as long as you intend to make ones.

In my opinion, a person who always thinks about himself/herself only and what he/she can get from others is definitely a terrible friend.

There is not any loss when I lose a terrible friend like this.

Meeting a person and realizing how terrible she is costs some energy to relieve my depression.

Keep in mind that she is not right for you because you deserve better. I know that.

I don't need anyone to tell me I am good or bad. Especially when they don't know what is good.

Always remind yourself that if you really need to talk about your trauma, go to a therapist. Never expect someone you bump into on the street to heal you.

我有能力，還可以進步，還敢冒險

把你現在的人生觀灌輸給現在的我

只想找個伴嗎?

是不是太壞心眼了?

我讓自己被這樣悲觀、停滯的人生觀影響

若只想找個伴

真是太不自愛了

What a cruel world.

You just won't stop producing shits, will you?

Every time when things don't go well, we say "I'll do better next time." 

Only that we don't know the last time we say next time is actually the last time.

I am going to freak out but I keep telling myself not to.

Because I will eventually get a job, no matter good or bad.

I will get one.

I believe I will.

Eventually, just don't know when, I will pass this bridge and arrive at the place of brightness and breeze.

I'll get to 彼岸

Is this where dead people go, or it may refer to a new stage of life in Japanese culture?

Don't know. I'll take the latter.