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Please help me be again what I was once ....
I try on my own... but I can't.. I want to be me again
I will never forgive you for what you have done to me
I was only your puppet
You only played with me
For that moment.. When I wish I could burn all the memories with you out of my mind.... But I can't..
]]> https://ameblo.jp/suzukusu/entry-10232478345.html Sun, 29 Mar 2009 05:15:19 +0900 . We often see people talking about pain, suffering and loneliness. We are so used to this that we don't actually realize the word's meaning. I was the same. I was full of pain... so sick of it. I don't even know why I care. It is because I love and care of people too much. Even though the world wouldn't believe me.. When I get to know a person and when we start a friendship I always care the most and I always love the most.. Whenever someone else is unfair to me, I don't say a thing because of the fear I would lose that person. But when I do a mistake I must apologize a hundred times.. I have never complained.. And these days... when I feel like this I try to realize what exactly hurts me the most. I have lost something. But when I try to realize what the "something" means I know that I have lost a huge ammount of NOTHINGNESS. Nothing but so important to me though.. The one I've lost doesn't even care of me, and I want to do the same. But I can't. Because I love people too much.
And even though almost everyone tries to make me not to feel this way... The thing that happened left a big ugly spot in my soul.. Because of this... I will never be the same. And probably, after a couple of years when I would probably forget and live my life normally, I will get to this blog by mistake. And I am curious what will I do then. Start to cry again?
The sweet memories a time I didn't wished to forget, now I long to forget them.... I have lost a big part of my optimism, a big part of my dreams, a big part of my life and a big part of me...
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