この間フィリピン行ったときはもうちょっとかなって思ってたけど、もう結構普通にぴょこぴょこ歩いてるからね。

んでもってこの子は自分の子だからって訳じゃなく、本当に可愛い顔をしてるねえ。

二人と一緒に暮らしたい。どうすればいいのだろうか。いまだ結論出ず。

二人を選ぶことによって私が失うものもあまりに大きい。でも二人を失いたくもない・・・。自分が無責任であることは良くわかっています。何かを決断しなければならないこともわかっています。でもそれが出来ない。

自然の流れの中でうまい方向に落ち着いてくれないだろうか・・・、と身勝手なことばかり考えている。だって答えが本当に出せないから。

二人を日本に呼ぶのはやっぱり大変なのだろうか・・・。

もし二人が日本に来たら、私が二人を裏切ることは１００％ありえません。できる限りのHELPはするけど、彼女を世間は受け入れるだろうか・・・。彼女も孤独を感じ、気が変わって逃げ出したりしないだろうか・・・。

二人を選んだ後、二人が去ってしまったら本当に独りぼっちになっちゃうからなあ。でも全ては自業自得なんだろうなあ。

楽な道は決まっています。でもそうはしたくないし、出来ないし、きっと後悔するし・・・。

これは７月２４日、俊太郎さん１歳のB-DAY前日に開催されたPartyの際、二人で逃げ出して休憩している時の写真。やっぱり君は日本人だよね・・・。

I've been sending sms or calling u everyday, its because i dont want u to worry about me. also i want to know hows u and shuntaro everyday...

After coming back to tokyo, almost every day i have to go for drink even though i dont want. maybe still u dont understand that it is a part of my job. entertaining my client, having a good communication with my new boss and coleagues.. all of drinking have some important meaning or purpose. please dont think im enjoying drinking with someone.

dakara, i cant call u so early every night. i want u to wait for me even though u feel sleepy, and i want u to upload shuntaro & ur photo every day..

Seems u dont notice what i want u to do to me.. I know u also busy because of kids. Demo ne, if u really want to listen to my voice, then u can wait for me janai? If u really know how im thinking about u & shuntaro then u can show me the photo of u janai?

why u can ignor my call? why showing such attitude to me?

u may worry about our future. what i can tell u now is "just wait for me" dakara...

chotto ima, i dont understand what u r thinking.

After you came, we've been so busy datta kara ne..

This is Shuntaro yesterday..

Huh.. Urusai ne～

and then asked her to send me shuntaro's passport info.

However...

She just sent to me date of birth, issuing date, expirly date... humm and then, place of the birth (?), issuing authority (??) .... thats all??

Passport Number wa? His name on his passport wa??

honto ni tanga tanga ne...!!

later she sent me his name but it was not full name. tanga! He is given my surname diba!!

I bought...

1) NIKE running shoes

2) CD

No music No running!!

All right, lets excersize!!

Its a x'mas campaign only todays from 5pm to 7pm..

My only small happiness of today..

Chatting mate huh? seems he's secret person to you. Did you think I won't find it?

FOS!!

NIKE Lunarglide.

It's S$160...

Doushiyou, kaou kana...

The old me surely buy without any hesitation...

But I have to pay a lot in this month dakara..

Ah, I forgot to book the flight ticket of us. I don't know I can get a confirmation coz its X'mas season diba...

Nike,,,

What should I do...

We didn't querreled in this time ne, hahaha!! and, thank you very very much for giving me my birthday present!! That's so nice T-shirt which I really love that brand and design!! Also I was so impressed by the present from okasan. It was really surprising to me yo. Honto ni, honto ni, Arigatou!!!

Anyway, Shuntaro's sooooooo cute and sweet and pogi ne. Looks like when I was a baby.

I was almost crying the time when I left to the airport, did you know?

at Pan Pacific Hotel. Thank you very much for my birthday cake!!

Then, how do you think about your coming to Singapore with Shuntaro..?

Zutto, I've been thinking about it since we visited okasan's store.

As I told you, Kyle needs your support janai? You know why we stay at Pan Pacific Hotel, go to Restaurant everytime is just for Kyle dayo. I want him to adjust and behave well in such public place diba. I want him to see a lot of world, to do a lot of experience since from he is young dakara.

You know he's behaving well than before but still acts purely on instinct diba, you are the only one who can educate him desho...

I want to stay with you and Suntaro here and now. But also I feel like we are falling away Kyle. Thats why I don't know how should we do...

I really really want to stay with you now coz we don't know when we can stay together if we miss this time.

Anyway discuss with okasan well pls. But I might ask you to come...

Now I'm thinking about it again, and feeling pain in my stomach.. Majide chou itai. Yabai kamo...