Tamaka-kunのブログ https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/ ブログの説明を入力します。 ja Long time no see....
i am in the internet-cafe right now and this fucking computer can't write in japanese ＼(*｀∧´)／

thhis suck because i have learned A LOT in the past time when i wasn't online.

you know... it will still take some time till i'll have internet at home.
but when it will happen i swear that i will post for u every day and take pictures and so on and so on...

just like japanese blogs are xDD

so till then, pls don't be mad at me <3

i love u all my amember and other who read my blog ^^
]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10421626608.html Mon, 28 Dec 2009 22:34:03 +0900 Some news just for making you up-to-date xD ok first of all sorry again for being offline most of the time and for don't giving peta to all of you!


ok next subject is... uhm~

oh yeah... i quit my job in cologne because i went back to my moms flat and the trainticket was too expensive so i was not able to get to work anymore...

so i had to quit there.


BUT: i can start a new job in the town where i live now so everything is going well....


i also met someone of who i think about that he can be someone special...

we meet very often and to spend time with him makes me very happy everytime.

i can't see him this weekend because he makes a short trip to visit some friends in the other cornor of germany xD

but he will come to me at sunday when he will be back from his trip so i am very excited to see him again.

oh and btw... it seems like he would like me very much too <3 (●´ω｀●)ゞ


well than... next one is that i have start to save money for coming to japan! ヾ(＠^▽^＠)ﾉ

i really can't believe that i already started with saving money...

it is still so unreal for me to think about being in japan...

i can't imagine walking along tokyo's streets...

no... really!

i can't imagine that...

i think i have to experience it before i can believe it xD

it is something very special for me to go to japan.

when i face the fact that i really will be in japan one day, i do it with great awe and respect!


ok next is: i have bought a "PALM SO" xD

you know what it is?

this: http://img.tomshardware.com/de/2005/11/13/einkaufsfuehrer_thg_geschenkideen_zu_weihnachten_2005/palm_tx_opening_photo.jpg

it is kind of a MAC, a mini-computer...

i can go to the internet, it has bluetooth, mp3-player, video-player (so i can watch the latest PV's xD), i can use my pictures (of naito or MVY xD) on it, i can play games (mahjong, tetris, solitaire, lemmings till now xD), i have just everything on it what i need xD

i love this lil PALM xD


ok friends, i will stop now xD

i already wrote more as i wantetd before xDD


stay health and enjoy the last weeks of 2009 <3


see ya...

]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10382559742.html Sat, 07 Nov 2009 03:57:05 +0900 Uhaaa~
don't feel good today...

dunno why -__-'

eeehhh~~~~

well....

a strange day...
very strange...

i am alone now...

bored~

my feet hurts -_-
i have torn muscle fibre wich hurts like hell -_-

and i had influenza for 3 weeks -_-
but i am nearly healed now....

but....

yes.... today is a strange day....


how ever...

stay health~

see ya...

  ]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10366589063.html Sat, 17 Oct 2009 03:37:48 +0900 Miyavi concert was awesome!
the atmosphere was just great and i swear i will never forget this concert!

and i am sure that he'll never forget it too!

this concert seems to be sth special for him bcs he said that he is reborn now after that concert!
it was awesome and just love!

he told us about his wife melody and his daughter airi and he was near to cry when he said that he will NEVER stop to sing for us and that he will love us till the end of his life!

we all were near to cry with him <3

and i'm a bit damaged bcs i was in the first line at the concert and this is how my right knee is looking now:

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my left knee is blue and green and red too but not so heavy and my arms are demaged too^^

but every pain was woth for this great concert!


thank you miyavi!
we love you!
<3
]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10352233292.html Sun, 27 Sep 2009 23:46:08 +0900 Baby neko!

first the pictures of this little 21 days old baby kitten boy:
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you know the story is very sad....
this kitten came to us when he was about 21 days (3 weeks) old.
we were sitting on the balkony to smoke a cigarette and it was raining like hell!
suddenly we heard the loud afraid cry of this little kitten.
he was sitting outside, as wet as you can be, sreaming so loud that it made the tears came into your eyes.
he was alone and nowhere was his cat-mama!
we took him into the house, dryed him and feed him.
he was so skinny, no... he was bony...
just bones and skin and thin fur and so tiny!

this cat was so young that even his eyes were not open and he had get his milk with a baby-bottle.
he was sleeping most of the time.

sleeping, eating, toilet, sleeping, eating, toilet and so on!
and he was searching for your near and warmth the whole time.
if i had lay him down in his bed we made for him, he start to scream and search for you, and in the moment when you took him again and spend him thw warmth of your body and the love from your heart he was quiet and fall asleep quick bcs he felt safe and beloved than.

it was a little baby who could not survive without feeling love and warmth!

after the first night we were thinking that he will probably not make it and will die, but at the second day he was more fit than before.

you had to hold him as much as before, but he starts to walk around slow and shy to find out where his toilet and milk and stuff is, even he could not see anything, he could smell it^^

the second day was pretty good! really and at the evening we were sure that he will survive bcs in that two days he had added weight and was so fit!

but in the night everyting takes a bad change.....
my mom came to me with the cat at 2.30am and said that she is desperate bcs the cat didn't stoped screaming.

i tryed to feed him, but he was not hungry.

at 5.50am my mom came again, was more desperate than before and the cat was still screaming!
i took this lil baby hold him in my arms and was thinking about what the reason for his screaming was.
his stomach was very hard and was making strange noises.
he everytime puts his claws hard into my skin, he even bites me and were screaming and screaming.

my mom called any veterinarian she could find in the ohonebook, but everyone was closed bcs it was sunday morning 6 am!
we found one veterinarian in a city far away but it was open!
my mom called her sister, bcs she has a car and she really stands up and came to us quick for driving with us to the veterinarian.

i had put the baby cat into a warm blanket and i was holding him and i talked to him silent and touched him that he can feel that i was with him!

and in the car when we were driving he stopped to scream and i first thought that he falls asleep but...
i realized that he wasn't breathing anymore.

i was shocked and tears run out of my eyes fast.
i said ''mama... he stopped breathing!" and my aunt stopped the car.

the little cat was dead!

you know... he was 'just' 3 days with us but...
he was such a little baby... so helpless... so depend to feel love and warmth....

from the first time you saw him you just were in love and thought ''i have to help that lil kitten that he will survive and can have a nice and happy life! that he'll become big and strong and can enjoy that we rescued him!"
but he was dead now, suddenly so cold and quiet.

it was very painful...

even now when i write about it!

it just hurts so much...
i feel so helpless and it is so unfair!

where is god when you need him?

who the hell allowed god to take this helpless little baby from that world?
who?
and why?
why did god let it happen?

i just can't understand it!

we did everything for him!
everything to rescue him and to spend him a beautiful live!

we decide to take him to the veterinarian to know what was the reason for his sudden dead....
and... he was ill...
this little baby was ill because his nako-mama feeds him with her milk and he gets some worm eggs in his little body...

and on in the night he starts to scream the whole time, the worms came out of the eggs and they start to eat him from inside...

to know this is so awful...

to know that he had screamed and bite and scrached because of the pain inside of him....

you know... i haven't talk to much ppl till now bcs i can't talk about this...
it just hurts so much!

in the nights i have nightmares about that day because the picture of that little helpless and painful screaming cat won't go away!

this was the most painful thing i have ever seen, the most painful sutuation i have ever experienced!

i try to forget it but i just can't!

it still hurts and i think that it will hurt forever.....

i am just glad that he don't have pain anymore and that he can be in heaven now!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10350479740.html Fri, 25 Sep 2009 18:11:55 +0900 GOMEN NASAI to all my Amember <3 I'm so sorry for don't being online the whole time!

You know, i moved back to my mother's house and there i didn't have internet (T_T)

I try to get internet there soon, but i can't promis that it really WILL be soon (T_____T)

well... internet is not so expensive in germany, but i have to manage with very little money that it is very hard for me to pay for more than for my trainticket i have to buy every month and believe me, it is so f***** expensive (-___-)"

but however... i try to manage right and maybe i will make it happen to have internet soon! <3

and till that will happen i have to say sorry for waiting and thank you!
i love all my amember <3
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I LOVE YOU!!!

(I'm sure you want to know who i love so much, right? xD)
 ]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10320990209.html Fri, 14 Aug 2009 23:42:12 +0900 Lovelie Miyavi Ishihara - cutest baby on earth! i know that his biggest wish was to have a beloved child before he will be old xD
and now he made it^^

i think that you all know this^^
and he posted up a picture of him and Airi (how her japanese name is) in his myspace blog and i just wanted to show it to you all^^

isn't she a cutie?
http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=1000278930&blogId=505160982

]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10319724747.html Thu, 13 Aug 2009 02:15:33 +0900 MIYAVI IS A DADDY NOW!!!
it is true!

the baby of miyavi and melody is born!

i am so happy!
]]> https://ameblo.jp/tamakakun/entry-10310190016.html Thu, 30 Jul 2009 04:39:42 +0900 I'm late but HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOMI-SAN!!!!!
so i will say it now:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOMI-SAN!!!
WE LOVE U!!!
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