Another train rife to Bandung. 

I took Grab Car this morning, woke up late so I panicked a bit (even left my wallet at home!). 

When we drove through the route I usually take when I drive, I suggested him to take the other lane since it is usually faster. He then calmly answered that as a driver, he doesn’t like it if the passenger control him and mentioned that he knows what he is doing, that he has been driving for 10 years. 

I said okay, and told him my concern was just I had to arrive at the station before 7.15am, then I kept quiet the whole trip but was kind of pissed off by the driver. I wanted to talked back when we hadn’t reached th station at 7.05, but I held myself back. I took a breath and said to myself, you can always buy another ticket. It was your fault that you didn’t leave earlier. 

In the end, I managed to print the ticket 5 minutes before departure and everything was alright. Patience is virtue indeed 

The fact that I became a widow 5 years ago, the experience of rejection by society caused by something you couldn’t even control. The feeling that the best part in your life is also the part that hurts so much you sometimes want to bury ten feet under. 

I think I’ve done quite well picking up all the broken pieces so far but I wonder how long will I be able to continue? 

Now I am perfectly content with someone who accepts, adores, respects and understands me, who makes me laugh and grow, who has the same vision, but I wonder how long will this lasts? 

I have started an EMBA program, one bucket list checked. I learn and meet great new people from around the world, but how can I juggle so my life doesn’t crumble? Noone can assure what good it brings. I might be better off investing more time drawing. 

Life is too full of uncertainty and I am just plain tired at the moment 

Hope everything can be done on time. 

Still need to be assembled after the fixed furnitures are settled 

The Chateaubriand melted in my mouth, even I who is not a fan of meat was impressed! 

Will go back again someday before I suceed being full vegetarian 

Time to leave Kai Tsugaru 

It’s amazing how they can plant different type of paddies and layout so many stones to make such huge drawings 

Went straight from Tokyo to Kai Tsugaru in Aomori and had a very welcoming dinner 

“Can” without “like” is not enough. It sucks up so much energy and it makes me feel unhappy in the end.