https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/ Insanity. Paranoia. Disorder. ja


My buddies:
Morrisey or Macy, the Changmin to my Jaejoong. The one who I have the 'soul fighter' relationship. Ah, such an intelligent person.
Abish, my babes. The third person in my 'love triangle/ three-some relationship'.
Carmel, my bus mommy. Such a kind person.
Hannah, the Heechul to my Leeteuk. The one who got me into SuJu. My chill pill. Also the one who got me to start writing fanfics.
Sharmaine, my 'soul mate'. Micky Yoochun to my Hero Jaejoong. Short-tempered but I love her... even though she's often complimenting our third-wheel, Abish.
Kristin, my ex-friend who after some serious talk, now my cuddle buddy. Sex stories from her are amazing.
Joan, the one with the third eye who keeps on telling me straight to the point things without being to bitchy and being too rude.
Jovie, the one who pokes and the one who has more professional experience.
And Andy, the one who took the picture. The most open-minded of all of us. The kindest and sweetest too. Her oreo-pancakes are the best.
]]> https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/entry-11000386118.html Sun, 28 Aug 2011 16:57:59 +0900

Have you ever felt that you are alone?

That your closest friends have distanced themselves to you?

That when you want to call someone, you realize you're scared to talk to them because it has been a long time since you randomly called and how it seems that they would ask why you called them and it will make you feel like you're just a obther?

That even you are with them it feels like you're just 'there'?

Like a wind breezing through?

I feel like this everytime I look at my cellphone.

Two years ago, you can't even take me away from it. I'm always texting people. People I'm friends with, the one closest to me.

I would text random things, and would get random replies.

I would get random messages. And would keep on getting them, even if I don't reply.

So I always took this gadget for granted. I always thought that when I'm feeling random bouts of loneliness, sadness, or happiness , I would just send people messages and I would get instant replies making me feel less lonely, less sad or make me even more happier.

Now, well.. Let's just say my inbox is in hibernate.

I can call and text for one week. But there really is no one I could randomly call to and just talk.

People are busy.

People have distanced themselves.

Or I just distanced myself? I don't know.

But it really makes me feel empty. To know that you have the capability of communicating, but you really don't have someone to to talk to.

Guess that's why they have blogs.

Oh, and there's still someone...

Up there.

"hey, what's up?" ]]> https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/entry-10818482745.html Wed, 02 Mar 2011 22:15:09 +0900

Sibey.

誕生日おめでとう.

May this year bring you more luck and happiness.



]]> https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/entry-10767713729.html Fri, 14 Jan 2011 01:49:05 +0900 アメンバー限定公開記事です。 https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/amemberentry-10745320000.html Thu, 23 Dec 2010 13:57:35 +0900 アメンバー限定公開記事です。 https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/amemberentry-10680461328.html Mon, 18 Oct 2010 14:17:45 +0900 アメンバー限定公開記事です。 https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/amemberentry-10647946138.html Tue, 14 Sep 2010 01:06:15 +0900

I'm a boy now. Got my hair cut short.

It's Mizuki's current hairstyle. XD
]]> https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/entry-10598710214.html Fri, 23 Jul 2010 14:53:11 +0900
I tried to ignore it but it came to a point where I can't move my neck muscle and I can't feel anything anymore, so I made my mom call a physical therapist to massage the feeling back into my muscles.

She (therapist) said last April that the muscle soreness actually came from inflamed nerves and veins and that I may have the tendency to have hernia or bell's palsy and I should get a therapy every 2 weeks. I find it hilarious to have hernia so I disregarded whatever she said.

And now after 2 months, my neck muscles started to swell again and I called her fro her help... again. She gave me a therapy last week and it made me nervous when she told me that my condition got worse. The stiffness of the muscles on the right side of my body specially the muscles on the neck to the shoulder blades indicate a mild stroke. She saw those stiff muscles on her patients who experienced stroke.




The first pic is where my abnormally swelling muscles show. It strains me to keep that position while it takes me no effort to do on the other side. The second is what it looks like from afar. The third one is what my left side looks like. And the difference is sooo noticable. ｡ﾟ(T^T)ﾟ｡

Now I got to get a therapy every week since the stiffness of the muscles are still there and it makes me nervous all the more went I can't move my muscles. Sometimes I thought and felt that I swallowed my saliva like what a normal person should, but I will notice after a few minutes that there was a pool of saliva from my mouth settling somewhere below my mouth.

This numbness made me scared, but I'm more scared to go to the doctor and find out whats wrong! （Ｔ＿Ｔ）
]]> https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/entry-10589139729.html Tue, 13 Jul 2010 00:05:32 +0900
I may say things that hurt, but hey I don't mean any harm.

Before you judge what I'm saying maybe you should think that what I'm saying is for the both of us.

I don't say things to degrade people, I say them to make them improve on something and at some point to improve myself.

You may think I'm being selfish, arrogant and a downright bitch but I'm saying those things because I don't want to be the only one who's improving. I want us to succeed, not just me.

You might wanna remember this next time ne? Since you don't have the guts to tell me outright what you are feeling, I think I won't be telling you either. This time, make your own move. I won't always be the one making the first move you know?
(＠￣Д￣＠；)

Well, you've got two people now right? You won't be needing me as much as I need you. (￣＾￣)

But don't worry, I know that we won't always be together. I'm just making the most out of the time we got now. :*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:
]]> https://ameblo.jp/thestrawberryfuzz/entry-10578049488.html Wed, 30 Jun 2010 22:58:56 +0900 So I had this talk with my classmate Ron, who won as CFAD Student Council President (yay yay!), about our classmate and friends' attitude towards us.

He then told me to get a schedule of guidance counseling because it helped him a lot. I told him that I have a thing with guidance counselings that I see it as a negative thing and that I don't have enough courage to go and schedule myself for one.

Now, he went all the way to get me a schedule and I'm going to have it sometime this week. He didn't say the exact date to see my reaction to an impromptu counseling.

I'm now scared.

。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡
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