Feeling very tired at the end of the day.

Multitasking is taking a huge part of my brain I guess, and I'm doing a lot of unnecessary things.

I'm also losing focus, and cant seem to enjoy things.

Lets get back on track, and be consistent.

However, to remember doing an action, is possible. 

Today at might part time job also, I felt that I lost the controlled vibe, 

And I hope can sleep better for tomorrow.

Me, as someone who feels the need to improve myself, and discard any unnneeded things in life, particularly face a problem, of constantly thinking, am I doing the right thing? or is there another way for me to do it? am I wasting time on this? etc.

Sometimes because of this I tend to rush things, thinking that I've got no time and space to relax, as if rushing would be better. We want to be efficient, productive, that is what I usually aim for.

But time management, is not about having a packed schedule, but of how much of us is inside the time.

Second thought for today,

It is actually how we lead our life. It doesnt matter how you look, but how you make others feel. Comparing with others, is good for the beginning, to inspire yourself to be better, but progress, thats your own things.

Sometimes I dont even know what am I thinking, but I felt tired. Sometimes theres the feeling that I'm forgetting some of the principles, or important words or thinking concepts that I forgot.

Recently I had the opportunity to reflect on myself and life, after attending a lecture.

I started to enjoy reading books. It made me feel like I was in a different world.

Even with that being the case, we probably should focus on the solutions.

Among the things that I decided to make myseslf understand is:

1) Living life with rules make life more satisfactory.

2) We tend to want things that others have.

3) Life is not black and white, but believing in a set of rules help makes life easier.

4) It has to be natural.

5) Beauty is in everything, but it lies on you, what people may regard as beauty, sometimes isnt a good beauty.

6) Its only cool because there is a goal to it.

7) Theres a lot of other possible good things, why choose the bad ones.

8) Expectations and temptations differ from reality.

9) 男は我慢する生き物なのだ。

Which is why, first of all having a journal should really help.

This journal, is a start to help me realize, that its time for a change. 

I was also thinking whether there is a connection between reading books, to loss of self-control. 

I believe it isnt a cause and effect things.

However, I believe it was just more towards me reading and inputting knowledge, but with no sense of direction as to what to do with it, I felt lost. Having no goals, and no direction, made me unconsciously fell to my own tempations and bad habit.

Goals:

1. To have a good and strong heart, that can push everything away.

2. To organize my thoughts and way of thinking.

3. To have a life plan.

4. To be able to have balance.

5. To focus on the results.