It means our birthdays are in the same day today and only for 2013/1/26.

If we were together, we shall celebrate with each other happily....

I wish I can call you, now. I want to hear your voice, feel your touching...but I won't do that.

The only thing I will do is to bless you a happy birthday in my mind

Of course I will still keep silence and won't tell you I am here...miss you...alone...

All these are not important anyway.

However, though I cannot show my greeting to you face to face, I still wish you a happy birthday

Happy Birthday, my dear...

If you are keeping setting me up... well, I may not chose revenge cause it's not my style but at least I can walk away from this fucking asylum.

Then, one day, you will have a new boss and I bet she/ he will let you pay for it if you play the same stupid game...

Frankly, I was no interested in GV.

In last Dec., when I read an article that mentioned Nagi is the best one to play 松崗洋介 (from 美しいこと by 木原音瀨). I was curious about this name and then goolge it.

The first impression he made on me is "beautiful".

He has a good looking, especially his eyes, so pure and innocent.

The following I started to find his information and watch his films.

I can only say- I do like his smile. For those he cooperated with Sho, they make me feel even the air is sweet.

I don't know whether he likes his job or not but I do believe he cure many people, me included.

In fact he is the reason I have this blog.

As I said, I don't like the kind of thing but I want to conect Boyslab's blog, so I have to apply it.

Then, I found it may be good for my health. I have so many terrible things but cannot tell anyone, I don't want those who care about me to be worry for me.

But the thing is I do need a space to complain or I will be definitely crazy.

Since there will be no one watch it, I can say what I want to say.

I almost think Nagi is the only good thing for me in reent.

At least, I am smiling when watching him and to smile is what I need most now.

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To share my privacy in public is totally not my style but I do need a space to show my feelings.

I got a lot of first time of my life recently.

First time to leave my country for work; first time to live in industrial area far from city; first time to be without family and friends; first time to be surrounded by those unfriendly people; first time to learn not to trust other one; first time to cook; first time to watch GV; first time to know and love Nagi and Sho.

I am changing my life. I thought I would be better by living in a different place alone but I am not so sure any more.

Can a person be good without trust other people?

Can I be better when my colleagues have hostility toward me?

I may be a management but got no respect though they are pretending they do.

I just feel tired for these fakes but I can no turn back becasue I chose it.

It's my journey and I have to finish it...