he had said to me "please believe in me" " i hope you can believe me when i say like you" "i really like you Yuk"

it was hard to believe these words to me. because i had experience that i was betrayed from the man only 2 years ago. it was really scary to me. but i wanna try to believe in him and i thought he is honest person.

but now, after all he is kinda....liar. and dishonestly about love. he confessed to two girls at the same time. he was not serious although the one girl was really serious. he didnt answer to her, he hurted her. since she is strong woman, she can smile now yet. but its not ok. she must have get hurt, and he should have be honestly to her.

i wondered if he really like me, now im sure he is not interesred in me as love. he doesnt like me. i know he just wants to do something like.......as if we are couple you know. he always wants to kiss to me. he wants to touch me. in the beggining i didnt care about it. but no, i was really stupid...

he had knew that im niive to do like love. i think he thought its easily he lie to me. oh my.... thats why i didnt believe someone who says like me.

ok i got it. no one like me. no one say truth to me. no one need me for real.

thats all

i had to be home at 2am, so i couldnt be at my friends room after all...

anyway!the game was so excited!! its disappointed that Japan couldnt defeat Paraguay, but they amazed me! good well Japan!!!

and todaym i did nothing for real. i was sleeping a whole day. i skipped my class. i didnt collecting money that i had to. i didnt homework at all... why am i so lazy recently??

i know i have to change myself right now! i will try it but i wonder i can do that.....

yea it mean i need friends around me!!!!( sorry its just selfish huh)

Maya and Naoya showed up later.

i and Momo and Satomi went to お台場商店街 near by お台場海浜公園station at the first.

we had a fun time and made good memory with friends.

when we eat nice crepe there i found that we can eat them outside. お台場's see sight is so good you know, we went to out soon with laugh

then we found the location for ヒルザイル, program of TV at 1230pm on Sun. the man who looks director or sponser asked us " can you show up on the TV?" we said yes. but We all didnt know about this program at all, we said " we dont know it" in front of camera lol (maybe) director screamed seriously hahaha! we are such as honest XD

after all my friend got the Hanko of her family name from EXILE directly. she is super happy girl huh!! ;D

after that we meet up Maya and Naoya near by Huji TV .id never met Naoya before that. he is totally good man i think! and Maya looked so happy to be with Naoya ( but Naoya is her bestfriend's boyfriend! of course Maya doesnt like him :b)

i wanna hang out with them again someday.

i wanna meet espesially Andres... He is really good boy friend. He had always listened to my story about terrible love, and gave me some advice.

i was happy when i was with him.

hmm kinda like him.

He said that he used to like me. And acutually i might have liked him too.

thats why i wanna meet up him again, i wanna talk and get to know about him much more.

But he is in India now. He said that he will be there for six week. its a long trip. i know i can meet him again soon somehow. but i miss him RIGHT NOW.

oh my.... what is he for me....?

* im not a drama queen!! ;b