I really do miss Tokyo and the lifestyle I kept up for 6 months while I took a break from college.
Despite where I thought I may have wanted to been or how fed up I would get with certian circumstances - something always drew me back to Tokyo, whether it was Jess or the lifestyle I missed. Despite how much I complain and how much I may say I hate it, truthfully, I really do miss being a hostess. I miss being that jaded.

I've come to a point in my life where I finally realize that I honestly have no romantic or emotional feelings towards anyone. Of course I love my friends and family, but when it comes to relationships or people as far as romance - I just don't have the capacity for those types of feelings. That being said, I find myself at a stop light, just waiting for the light to turn green but the damn light just won't turn and because of that I've lost the ability to write any sort of lyrics that have any relevance what so ever. Writers block maybe?

Who knows -
All I know for now is that I'm not where I want to be in life at this present point in time which is why I look forward to my next random adventure back to Tokyo - back to Shinjuku - back to Kabukicho - back to being a juicy girl.....

Meh.

I guess we'll find out where things go in May.

Why can't I just have my Rapeshark, Sergeant Bull, and Kohai with me all the time? :(