https://ameblo.jp/xxxlidy/ いろいろ(o･ω･o)ﾉ ja I became worried about which outweighed which, and stopped searching

The parts of myself that I hate, the parts of myself that I like
Now I know which outweighs which, and it makes me sad

If I was just going to be hated in the end, if I was going to be hated by the person I loved
Then I decided to be the first to hate before that happened

But if someday I long for someone and want them to love me
I’ll make the first move before that happens

“Let’s try to fall in love”
You cry so beautifully, that, by your side, without realising it, I smiled
And that made you smile too, which has made me so happy I’m crying, crying

The people with no faith in humanity, who curse the future; and the people with faith in humanity, who dream of the future
The me who used to search for yesterday is gone, gone

You are a washing machine for humanity
I want every household to use one
With that, there’s nothing that won’t work out, there are no lies

The effects are amazing, you can find a new you
But it can be toxic, take care with usage and dosage

Let’s write a catchphrase like this
Even if a perfect clone of you achieves success
You are a unique goddess, unlike anything on earth
That can be seen by the naked eye

You made the world round
So that nobody would cry in a corner, didn’t you?
So when you’re not here, I look for a corner and cry and cry

You gave life an end so that nobody would waste it
So when you’re not here I hold my breath and wait

And then, though you always came to me
You’re gonelu

The people with faith in humanity who dream of the future, will become tomorrow’s suicide candidates, waiting to die
The me of three minutes ago has shown his face, shown his face again

When I stopped breathing I found my heart
When I opened it, I you were there

As long as I have you in the left atrium of my heart, I have no problems

You brought words of eternal happiness
To people who, until two seconds ago, were suicide candidates
That you is gone, gone, gone

But you are in my heart, sending a pulse through my whole body
Saying “Stay alive today, stay alive today, and stay the way you are”

Sending me love from my white blood cells, my red blood cells and so many other places ]]> https://ameblo.jp/xxxlidy/entry-10230995155.html Thu, 26 Mar 2009 15:22:45 +0900 Maybe, it was too heavy to put our dream on this love.

I forgot how to hate you.
It's nowhere to be found.

On that day, if you could have....

I wanted you to teach me along with that "good-bye",
how to break that promise and how to love somebody else.
But, to be honest...I don't want to know.

Didn't we make a promise?
"Let's be together until we are 100 years old."
I didn't expect the 101st year would come so fast.

Sorry for telling you this stupid stuff.
I understand it in my brain, but not in my mind.

But you know,

what made this "me" is maybe not my dad, not my mom, and not even a god, I think.
See? Only possible answer is you.

Suppose that I get married with other girl,
and if I get a baby between us two,
I guess your gene would slip into that baby somehow.

But if you are not with me, it would be boring.
So i will be waiting for you until 2085 while I'm killing time.

Thanks a lot for everything till now.
Really sorry for everything till now.
Now it's my turn to wait, no matter whether if you are alive or not.
Because...it was the first promise that I could make with smile.

With "Good-bye", my words to you
With "Thank you", "Sorry" to you

"Sky is beautiful; people are miserable."
Please wash me with obvious 'truth',
if there is still next time.

It's you, whom I like, and me who like you
and like that, I came to cherish myself as the times rolled by.

If i name this love, it would be: "Thank you".[ ]]> https://ameblo.jp/xxxlidy/entry-10230988635.html Thu, 26 Mar 2009 15:06:31 +0900