https://ameblo.jp/yousuckkkk/ ブログの説明を入力します。 ja The root cause would be my unorganized routine of days.
Some days, I put my effort really hard so that I study until three o'clock, but there are some days temptation defeat me and make me lazy whole day.
The repetition of these unorganized routine of days will bring the day that make me completely unfunctional.
And today was the day.
I went to the company at 8: 45 by walking for more than 30 min, and I thought I am capable enough to make my day productive at the time.
From 10:00, there was a usual meeting with manager from each function.
I could not focus on the meeting and asked some random questions, and my question is ramdum enough to give a stupid impression of me.
I was about to be abusive, and deceitful.
Anyway I will strive to glow step by step everyday. And that is the only way to survive in this company. ]]> https://ameblo.jp/yousuckkkk/entry-12151998709.html Wed, 20 Apr 2016 00:27:29 +0900 Since most parts of content are about my private matters (like a diary), there is no people who would enjoy reading my blog. If somehow you like or do not like my blog, suit yourself, I do not mind anyway.
On April 15th, today started with a terrible morning. Last night, I was trying to take a nap for a while at 10 o'clock with room light and TV on. And I thought I took a nap, but my iPhone showed 5 am. It was a big blunder because I had a lot to work on my project.
This mistake made me realized that this kinds of thing happens to my life hundred and hundred times.
So this blog is my commitment device. If I can manage to keep writing this blog in English for a year every single day, I can have a right to quit my job. If not, I can not. I committed myself to improve myself in this way.
Anyway, today's schedule was blank. All of new employees are asked to study by ourselves, which imply there is nothing we can do a whole day.
So we just sit down on a chair and pretend to work.
After we waste our valuable time for nothing, my colleague who is total bitch said she just studied how chemical product can be produced on a page for elementary school students.
And the word reassured me. Because if she is real smart one who can organize things quickly and throughly, and religiously work the project step by step, she would finish her work by today.
The project is not so hard, I think if our deadline was today, I could complete it in a bad shape.
She is not so impeccable person that I had thought last week.
But my enemy is myself, challenging myself everyday is mandator to survive in this company.
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