† Yuukiko パラダイス †

Cant say anymore .. Thats all I'm left ...

Wed, 09 Feb 2011 23:41:09 +0900

Its the second/third post today :3
I'm physically tired ..
I'm mentally tired ..
I'm physically stress
I'm pemtally stress ..

WILL SOMEONE CHANGE MY SCHEDULE ?

Something unbearable ...

Wed, 09 Feb 2011 22:21:11 +0900

Something I'm really attached about ... My piano ..
I totally give up on something I'm not working on ..
It waste my time .. No offence but I'm serious here ..
You guys can hate me/detest me all you want .. I wan't regret ..
I'm not so weak after all right ? （‐＾▽＾‐）
You guys just want company .. I don't care ..
If I'm invited to leave .. I will LEAVE ...

Whatever .....

Wed, 09 Feb 2011 18:46:39 +0900

I dislike band ... (≧∇≦)/
I dislike band practices ....
But I don't hate band members ....

Words and days leaving speechless ...

Tue, 08 Feb 2011 18:43:10 +0900

I'm sorry senseii , for acting blur at last 2 week's lesson ..
I'm not really in the good mood ..
I know I suck .. I can't play well .. But I only can't play well after crying ..
Well .. Alot of thing happened at home ^__^ yes .. I'm stress too ..
But today .. I will do a good job > A <
Please let me skip grade too ..
I don't mind remaining in G7 as long as I get my diploma by Sec 4 . Tyvm!
FIGHTOOOOO

I'm dropping my effort on that shit ...

Sun, 06 Feb 2011 21:58:54 +0900

Whatever it is .. I think its just too much .. Don't you think too (≡^∇^≡) ?
Well .. Yea my parents are complaining .. They won't help in future ..
But I'm doing it for the sake there's nothing better else anyway ..
I'm sorry if you don't know / know what I'm talking ..
Sorry if this offended you ..

You see , everything is a lie ... Blaablaablaaa and blaaablaaablaa 8)
So yea .. I gave up .. I lost my interest .. Of cause my interest left for it is 1% ^ _ ^
Obviously I loose 99% interest in it ..

Too bad and too sad that my interest and focus goes direct to my studies and piano...
And of cause my leisure time 8D ..
Awww .. Too sad ...

I'm trying to hard to hold my tears each time

Sun, 06 Feb 2011 00:03:20 +0900

Sometimes , I wish I'm 18 yrs 8) How I wish I wasn't in Secondary school anymore ..
Freedom is mine ..
But than too bad .. Time is moving too slow , yes .. Slow ..
I'm still under 16 yrs 8) Like yea ... Everything must be consent ..
You just don't know my feelings right .. ?

Of cause I prefer going out with my friends , I can laugh more ..
What I really need now is laughter with friends ..
I don't need mother daughter thingy outing ohsoshity outing yet ..
So what if your maple boyfriend WORKS THERE ?
So what if I meet him ? Sorry his not my type 8)
Oh he saw my face before ? Sorry I don't bother to care ...

Go on , I know how much you want me to live this house ..
I can't wait to go United Kingdom and Paris 8)
I'll tour the world ...
I'll make my dream possible ...
I don't need to tell you everything ..
There's G7 with me ..
Yes G7 is my counterpart of life in the entertainment world ..
Even though paths are different in future .. Some might stop , some might continue ..
We won't know .. But as for me .. I'll continue ...

Not to mention .. I'm having a hard time right now ..
On what ? Oh yes shoving this idiot away ..
So what ? I know by doing this I'm very bad .. I shouldn't have accept it ..
No .. I didn't even accept it ..
Sometimes I wish I wasn't involved in any kind of relationship with men ..
I dislike species like them .. Not to mention they hurt people ..
Their woman's lust for survival ...
But for me .. I don't think so .. I think I can survive without you （・∀・）
Yes .. Thats right .. I'm aiming high this year ...

I know how much I put my time investing on the laptop ..
I know how much time I need to study ..
Stop laughing of my aims .. I regretted telling you everything ..
Sometimes I wish .. Just .. FUCK MY LIFE ... And the end ..

Rejection ? Pfft !

Fri, 04 Feb 2011 23:08:09 +0900

GONG HEI FAAAAAA CHOOI
Its totally the New Year mood now .
Didn't really like yesterday's visiting schedule ..
But was okay with today's (＾▽＾)
Well .. Stay at gu po's place at almost 5-6 hours !
Because daddy was gambling and I was obsessed with 21 pts and my DS challenge withBrenda !
Damn it ! LOL I'm nearly taller than Stacy when she's older than me LOLOLOL
Anyway .. Tomorrow is a boring day （￣□￣；）
Sunday shoot postponed ... So maybe Sakura buffet on Sunday = w = ? ...

And my mother rejected you .. I knew it .. I knew she likes him more than you ..
I knew it from the beginning .. I'm sorry to tell you this but ...
Oh well ...

I have many things to rant .. Yes rant .. ABOUT YOU ..
You're to persistent .. I'm not your wife/sowhatever shit !
Take pills ? Please !! You just want me to pity/sympathize you !
I really really really hate this kind of people ..
Others are the possitive ..
Well theres another negative to it .. And yes , the reason for you spamming my phone ... = _ =

For goodness sake .. I'm raging again ...

Sun, 30 Jan 2011 16:20:55 +0900

I don't need a boyfriend right now ..
I'm evil .. I'm cruel .. I'm a sadist ..
Stop saying you want to go .. Stop saying those bullshit simi first kiss JIAKSAI
It irritates me ... For sure .. Stop saying you want to go with me ..
It disgust me ..
You think I got so much free time to date you ?
THan I would rather put all my love into practicing ...

I should change my attitude ...

Sat, 29 Jan 2011 23:52:21 +0900

These days , I really really get pissed off really really easily ..
And yes , I'm getting more vulgar each day .
Well .. Today is kinda 'suey' for me ..
Well , whatever I do , I don't have my own damn privacy .
Common , I'm not a kid anymore ...

And I really need to change my attitude because my mood affects my playing ..
Not to mention I played like shit today ...

What am I depressed about ?

Fri, 28 Jan 2011 23:21:22 +0900

Sometimes , its just too hard to take in whats not mine but someone's else .
I dislike the idea of taking 'one that doesn't belong to you' ...
But than .. Sometimes , is it a force ?

Its finally the end of the week .. Yes its a Friday ... End of the school week ..
Yea right bunch of bloody ass bullshit ! Theres still band tomorrow ^ _ ^
Bought Rachmaninoff Piano Concertos & Beethoven Sonatas Volume I today ..
Kinokuniya's music department so many angmors ..
Well .. Their slang English is too 'awesome' that I don't really understand
PART OF IT !
Yea .. So spent the money supposed to invest on cloths ..
My mother officially thinks I'm nuts .. Choosing contrasting pieces so early ..
LOL .. I don't want to fail the audition .. If I fail .. Its the end of me ..
I'll even beg the school to accept me = 3 =

Blablablabla went to TP with mummy for dinner .
Duplicated cosplay photos .. THE PROBLEM IS I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO PUT THEM DAMN IT
Oh yes 8D Duplicated the ones with Miyuki with her too = w = ...
Yes .. And the upgraded Nyanx2 Music Clip .. I hope can be done by this year -prays-
I pray that money fall beneath me again !

Sometimes , you should care about my feelings too right ?
Oh , you can't see how worried I am for BLOODY no reasons ?